The Secret Diaries of Rory Gilmore and Tristan DuGrey

By- Joan DragonSparkle Kim

Authors Note (A.N.)- This is my first Gilmore Girls fic! So when you review (please do!!!) please be nice!! This chapter is dedicated to my girl, Claudia, because she is in love with Milo (A.K.A. Jess) and I wanna see her mad that I put Rory with Tristan, hehehe! Also Congratulations to the graduates of the class of 2002! We did it! I'll miss you Claudia…don't let big league cheerleading get to your head!!! I love you, and I'll miss you!!! Good Luck to Monica and myself, I hope we make it for dazzlers!!! Also one more thing…JOIN MY MAILING LIST!!!!!! IN CASE YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT A MAILING LIST IS…IT IS AN E-MAIL THAT YOU RECEIVE TO LET YOU KNOW THAT THIS FAN-FIC, AS WELL AS MY OTHER FANFICS HAVE BEEN UPDATED!!! YOU GET *HINTS* ON WHAT NEW CHAPTERS ARE GOING TO BE ABOUT AND A PREVIEW OF MY UP COMING FANFICS!!! WHAT AN AWSOME DEAL!! JOIN NOW!!! TO JOIN, YOU HAVE TO REVIEW ME, AND SAY "I want to join your mailing list!" THEN YOU ADD YOUR E- MAIL AND I'LL SEND YOU AN INVITATION TO JOIN! SO JOIN NOW!!! Now that that's over with, on to the story…..

Summery- It has been already 3 years at Chilton and Rory is lonely, for a friend. But what she doesn't know is she has had, ever since she got there, a secret friend who secretly wants to be more than a friend. Major Trory!!!

(Rory's Diary!)

Dear Diary,

What is a friend to me?

I'm surrounded by people who love me or say they do. Why is it that I feel so lonely? They don't hear me. They don't listen. Am I just a not likeable person? I feel so left out. In the 3 years that I have been here not one person, except out of pity, invites me anywhere. I'm afraid to say I'm hurt because what can they do about it? I don't want them to feel sorry for me. If I have to be a partner in a project, groups have to fight not to get me. I'm so hurt diary. I try so hard to be friends with the other girls, I try so hard. The harder I try, the harder it gets. They make fun of me for being me. Is that a real friend? They hurt without realizing the damage they are undoing. What is a real friend? I wish I could have one so that I would know for future friends. Is it a person you can hang out with so other people don't think you're a loner? I guess my standards of friendship are to much for a human beings to handle. I get hurt with the slightest thing. I want to feel like I belong, but I realize now that if anyone is nice to me I question their friendship. Am I being a good friend? Am I just so fat and ugly that they don't want to hang out with me, or be seen with me? What is it? It hurts. I want to cover it up so bad. People are nice to me occasionally, but what about connecting? Knowing that people feel sorry for me, make my heart heavy. It's a horrible feeling. Am I strong enough to go through my last year at Chilton? Until tomorrow….

Rory



Authors Note (A.N.)- Tristan's Diary is the next chapter, so come back and lets see how Tristan feels…REVIEW!!!! And JOIN MY MAILING LIST!!!!