I have had this idea buzzing around in my head for a while and finally started writing it the other day, I have an outline planned for this story and do have a couple of chapters written. I couldn't decide whether to post this at all but decided to bite the bullet and just stick it up. This chapter isn't very interesting to be honest it is just to get the story going really...

Anyway here goes...

Chapter One

Emily

Another day at Roundview College, same old, same old, well that is all I could think as I walked down the same corridor I always did five days a week. As usual I was following my twin sister; I was always following Katie almost as if I am frightened to step out of her shadow. If you look back over the years it has always been the same. Katie is six minutes older than me and has never let me forget it. I have always been the quiet twin and apparently the sweet loving twin who has always cared about others more then I care about myself. Katie on the other hand is loud, only cares about herself and is quite frankly a bitch. She struts around college as if she owns the place wanting to make sure that everyone notices her, let's just say she absolutely loves being the centre of attention. I however just like to get through each day with as little drama as possible and wanting to be noticed by nobody. Actually that is a slight lie I want one person to notice me, the one person that could make all my dreams come true but deep down however much I would like it to happen I know it won't.

Naomi

I guess I can say I have a few close friends at Roundview. I have a knack of not letting anyone close but these few have broken through the walls I have surrounded myself with. I generally keep myself to myself and have always had a pretty carefree life; my mum has never been one of those controlling people who needs to know where I am all of the time. I do enjoy my freedom but sometimes it would be nice to know there were some boundaries in place. I make some effort to be polite to those who try talking to me but I do have an extremely sarcastic side sometimes verging on bitchy. I like to think I have never been in anyone's shadow and never worry about what people think about me. That's the front I like to project to people anyway, truthfully I have just had a lot of practise at making people think I don't give a shit. I have a feeling though that the people closest to me know me well enough to know when something is going on.

Emily

As I did most days I was standing by my locker as Katie stood flirting with yet another unexpected guy who obviously didn't know what he was letting himself in for. It was nothing new and I often find it easier to let Katie get on with it whilst I hung around waiting. It did however give me the chance to get a good look at the blonde whose locker was just across the corridor. Naomi Campbell is the girl of my dreams, quite literally and the girl I want to be with. I have known since I was 12 that I am gay but that is something I have been carrying on my own. Since I realised myself I knew straight away that I couldn't tell my family. Katie would go mental, my mum would probably disown me and I just don't think dad would understand. My little brother James would most likely think it is fantastic but he was just a little pervert. Anyway I was most definitely enjoying the view until Katie snapped her fingers in front of my face "Earth to Emily."

I blinked and tore my gaze away from the gorgeous blonde across the corridor silently cursing Katie for bringing me out of my daydream. As creepy as it might sound I was enjoying imagining what it would be like to be close to Naomi. "Why do you have to be such an embarrassment?" Katie spat in my face. She didn't even wait for me to reply, I really don't know why I expected anything else to be honest, this was the usual and I didn't see the point even bothering to answer anymore. Today was no different as Katie continued to snap at me "come on bitch we have a class to get to."

I knew I should stand up to her, tell her exactly what I thought about constantly being verbally attacked by her rather than bottling it all up inside. I wanted the internal torment to stop and wanted to step out from her shadow but I didn't know how and I didn't know what my life would be like if I did after all I don't have many friends of my own and the 'friends' I do have are Katie's really and all see me as just the tag along. I took one last glance at Naomi before dutifully following Katie down the corridor my mind occupied with thoughts of Naomi. That is all it would ever be though, my thoughts especially as Naomi didn't even know I exist, oh and there is also the fact she is most definitely straight.

I made it through to lunchtime somehow, I honestly have no idea how I manage to do so well with my college work as it tends to be Naomi on my mind these days and that is even worse when she is in the same class because that is when I am even more distracted. I of course have to sit with Katie mainly so she can copy the work that I do but also because she doesn't like to let me too far out of her sight. Anyway back to lunchtime we were sitting at our usual table in the canteen, of course it was a table of Katie's choosing next to the fittest guys in college and that is Katie's quote not mine. I don't mind though as I always managed to get a glimpse of Naomi, I have never made it obvious because if Katie noticed there would be hell to pay and if Naomi noticed I would have some quick thinking to do and some fast talking. My heart skipped a beat as I noticed the blonde walk in for lunch as usual she was with Cook, Effy, Freddie, JJ and Pandora, or as she is more widely known Panda. She really was beautiful, she didn't smile often but when she did her whole face lit up and her blue eyes sparkled. I often felt like I was drowning in her eyes when I got a glimpse of them, they really were gorgeous. I know I sound like a stalker but I couldn't help but notice her after all she is the girl I want to be with even though I know it will never happen.

Naomi

I sat with my friends in the canteen as I usually did with Cook trying it on with any girl that walked past, Effy and Freddie ignoring these feelings for each other as they did on a day to day basis. Panda and JJ were discussing something; I often found it easier not to ask what about. I was trying to focus on what was going on around me but once again I was conscious of the eyes burning into my skin. I knew it was Emily, the quiet one of the Fitch twins. I don't know much about her but recently I have been aware of her eyes on me whenever we have been anywhere near each other, I just don't know why. I was going to find out why though and the perfect opportunity just presented itself as I watched Emily walk out into the corridor on her own for once. I gathered my stuff up and quickly turned to Effy "I'll be back in a bit there is just something I need to do." Before even registering her response I quickly followed Emily out in to the corridor. I spotted her by her locker and walked over "Emily, it is Emily isn't it?"

She looked completely stunned as she turned round to face me nodding her head slowly, she couldn't seem to get any words out. I smiled softly "I… shit I'm just going to come out with this, I've noticed recently you keep staring at me and I was wondering why."

"I… um… I…" he stuttered as a deep blush spread over her face "I wasn't" she finally managed to utter before slamming her locker closed and walking off.

That was just the beginning of my trouble though as I heard Katie Fitch's heels clicking down the corridor behind me "what the fuck did you just say to upset my sister?"

"Nothing" I spat back, I really couldn't understand her, the way she paraded herself around the college and appeared to treat her sister like crap "I asked her a question and she walked away."

"You must have done something" she shouted whilst glaring at me.

I could feel my anger bubbling up inside "well if you are so fucking worried about her why are you standing here shouting at me instead of going after her."

She continued to glare at me "Don't tell me what to fucking do."

"Just fuck off Katie" I spat back at her before turning and walking away from her my thoughts quickly turning back to Emily and hoping she was ok.

Two Days Later

Emily

Today was Friday; two days after Naomi had asked me that question in the corridor at college. I haven't been back since that day; thankfully I have successfully fooled my parents into thinking I am ill. I just couldn't go back and risk bumping into her and feeling that embarrassment all over again. Katie has been bringing me work home which you might think was her being helpful and stopping me getting behind but her real reason wasn't quite so nice which she pointed out to me the other day "if I have to do homework then so do you whether you are ill or not."

I was lying in bed when I heard the front door slam shut and then the click click of heels up the stairs. I pulled the duvet up and tucked it under my chin quickly closing my eyes wanting to fool Katie into thinking I was sleeping so she would leave me alone. I should have known that was wishful thinking where Katie was concerned though as she barged into my bedroom "wake up bitch there is no time for sleeping."

I slowly opened my eyes "leave me alone Katie I don't feel well."

She rolled her eyes "you might be fooling mum and dad but you're not fooling me, this is all something to do with whatever happened with Campbell the other day and it stops now, it is that party at Effy's tonight and we are going together."

"Can't you go on your own" I groaned "I don't feel like it."

She pulled the cover off me "No you are coming you can't hide forever. Now get up I have a lot of work to do to make you look presentable."

I sighed, as usual I knew I wasn't going to win this battle and Katie did kind of have a point, I couldn't hide forever "I'm not going anywhere dressed like a tart Katie so you can get that idea out of your head."

"Whatever bitch" she spat before marching off in the direction of the bathroom.

However many hours later I was downstairs waiting for Katie, apparently due to her having to spend so long on my hair and make-up she would be a few more minutes. Yes I had eventually agreed to let her do my hair and make-up but I had somehow managed to stand my ground with my clothes. I wanted to be comfortable, after all I don't even want to go to the stupid party, and I will only feel comfortable in my own clothes not some tight leopard print thing of my sisters. Talking of leopard print I couldn't help but wonder how Katie and I could be so different as she walked down the stairs towards me in what I can only describe as a leopard print belt rather than skirt and a top that matched and really didn't leave a lot to the imagination. As for her shoes I don't even know how she was managing to walk down the stairs. She looked me up and down and rolled her eyes "why don't you ever make an effort, you could be so pretty if you made some effort."

As usual I just let her insult me, I didn't want to argue with her I just wanted to get tonight over and down with. After a few more insults she marched out the door shouting at me to follow. I glanced in the mirror quickly before leaving, yes I might only be wearing a pair of tight black jeans, a white vest top with a shapely cheque shirt and of course my trusted converse pumps. I looked pretty good in my eyes and surely that is one of the most important things. Now I just had a party to get through…

I had been standing in the corner of the room most of the time so far trying to stay out of the way something that wasn't very hard considering nobody notices me anyway. Katie was making her way round the guys in the room, that girl really had no shame. As I watched Katie whore herself around my eyes had fallen upon the blonde I had been trying to avoid for days. She certainly appeared to have completely forgotten I existed all over again and made no effort to come over and speak to me, I guess I didn't have to be so worried after all.

I knew I couldn't watch what was going on for much longer as Naomi danced with Cook, everyone knew who he was and he made no secret about the way he was with women and tonight looked like Naomi might be the next notch on his bedpost if they even made it to the bed. I knew I didn't really have any reason to be jealous; Naomi and I would never be together so she had every right to be happy with who she wanted to be with. Little old me would just have to learn to live with that.

I took a deep breath and walked through to the crowded kitchen, grabbing a bottle of vodka and rushing out into the garden. All I want to do is go home but I knew there was no way Katie would allow that to happen. I spotted a bench at the bottom of garden partly sheltered by trees and I knew I would be well hidden down there. I took a swig from the bottle grimacing slightly as the liquid slipped down my throat, it wasn't something I would normally drink but if it numbed the pain I was feeling at all I didn't care about the taste. I needed to get Naomi Campbell out of my head.

A few gulps later I realised that might be easier said than done as the blonde in question sat next to me, my heart rate increased and I knew I had to try not to sound like a bumbling idiot, she smiled slightly "please don't rush off this time Emily."

I looked straight ahead not daring to look at her "what do you want Naomi? Why do you suddenly want to talk to me, I didn't even know you knew I existed."

"I didn't mean to upset you Emily; I guess I just want to know why you rushed off the other day."

I suddenly felt guilty "I um…" I stuttered "I…I… well you just caught me by surprise I guess and I haven't been staring at you just so you know that. I don't want you to think I'm some kind of weirdo."

She looked a little startled at my sudden outburst "I don't think that Emily. Anyway I thought we could chat for a bit, you know get to know each other a little better. I watch you with your sister sometimes around college and you could do with another friend."

"I don't think Katie would approve but you know who cares, right now it's nice to know someone else knows I exist." I know I sounded surprised but if I am honest I am. I glanced at her "do you not have to get back to Cook, you two looked like you were having a good time."

"Cook and I are just friends; you know what he is like."

I tried to hide my smile at hearing her say that but I obviously didn't do a very good job as she nudged me "what you smiling at?"

I felt my cheeks flush "oh nothing." I held the vodka bottle up and even surprised myself with the amount I had drunk "Must be this affecting me."

"Ok" she sounded a little unsure and I'm pretty sure she didn't swallow my lie but thankfully she changed the subject "so Emily what are you doing here, it's not like you to be at a party."

My heart beat quickened again as the realisation dawned on me, she did notice me around, she did know I existed. I knew I couldn't read too much into it though. I gulped "Oh Katie made me come, I didn't want to be here but when my sister decides something is going to happen I find it is easier to go with the flow rather than start an argument."

She smiled "from what I have seen of your sister I can imagine that to be true, she comes across as being rather high maintenance."

I couldn't help but laugh "That is one way to describe her." I took another drink from the bottle before passing it to Naomi "she does have a softer side sometimes not that many people will ever see that."

Naomi passed me the bottle back and I took another drink even though I knew I had already had more than enough. The more I sat talking with Naomi the more the vodka gave me a false sense of confidence. I turned to pass the bottle back to her and she caught my gaze, before I knew what I was doing my lips were pressed to hers. She looked a little surprised when I pulled back but that didn't stop me making an even bigger fool of myself. "I lied earlier, I guess I have been staring at you but not in a creepy way, in an I like you way." I looked straight at her trying to read what she was thinking, the silence was making me nervous as she looked back at me. Quickly she dropped her eyes from mine and looked at my lips subconsciously licking her own. I knew I might never have this chance again so I took my opportunity and pressed my lips to hers again. If felt so fucking amazing and what made it even more amazing was the face Naomi's lips were responding to mine. I never ever dreamed this could happen.

My heart skipped a beat and I never wanted this moment to end, that as I was about to find out was not going to be my choice when I heard Katie screaming next to me "what the fuck do you think you are doing to my sister?"

She pulled away from me as I uttered "It's nothing Katie, it was…"

Katie didn't let me finish what I was saying she just turned back to Naomi as she dragged me off the bench "You fucking stay away from my sister you lezzer. Emily is not like that and she doesn't need you forcing yourself on her."

I tried to speak but Katie stopped me as she dragged me across the garden. I resigned myself to the fact she was not going to listen to me "we're going home I don't want that lezzer anywhere near you." I quickly looked back at Naomi just wanting to be back with her. I couldn't help but notice how angry she looked and I knew I had probably just fucked everything up and all because I didn't have the courage to stand up to my sister and admit who I really was.