pain.
Pain.
PAIN!
Pain is all I can think; I feel so selfish yet all alone, I'm a mess, an animal - trapped in this cage, all I can tell is my eyes are bloodshot and blurry, my hair a mess and covered in dust and debris, my chest is so angered and my ribs stick through, I'm close to the end, that's all I know, I hope they escape and I hope they go home. They don't truly know or care for me besides they'd notice that- that isn't really me. My stomach growls twice in this minute alone and the pain of emptiness in my stomach devours at me, I want to eat.. Need to eat but I can't, I'm trapped. I'm so far gone I can't even stand, I'd need a miracle to recover again, but no one will find me in this god forsaken room, soundproof and lonely, no suspicion occurring too. He's getting what he wants, why are they so... so naive! So stupid, so disgustingly, annoyingly... Why do they hate me so much?
I honestly regret thinking of them like that, I regret every brash, graceless and lugubrious thing I have said to anyone. Especially, to Sky... Oh my best friend.. I'm gonna miss him. I listen closely to the sound of my soft breathing and I'm ready to leave, my anger drowns out and my sorrows flood me, until all I see is black and the peace comes once again.
CRASH!
BANG!
Awakening to the sound of the door breaking down and the voice of the devil himself.
"Well little Tyler, Sub was killed horribly last time, and now your best friend Sky thinks suspecting you is a good idea, haha, you should be ashamed, they don't care about you hehe, they're probably wanting you dead right now. They blame you for Sub's death."
He smiles at me, devilishly, again, his smile was so... genuine and carefree he looked so happy. At least I can make someone happy for once, yeah? Yeah.
Wait.. Sky he- But I- Hmph.
All of a sudden a shock of adrenaline runs through me, courses through my vain even if it's only for a few dying seconds before my last, painful and shaky breath.
"I-I don't agree with Sky, you should send him my sincerest fucking apology, tell him how much i fucking care bout him,yeah. Tell him how much he should just die, go get himself fucking shitting killed and... Wait... I-I... YOU'RE LYING! YOU DIRTY FUCKING LIAR! SKY WOULD NEVER SAY THAT, YOU- YOU... Why do you do this?"
The adrenaline rushes out of me like a stab to the neck, the anger just vanishes into the air along with all my energy. Sadness dwells into me, the salty tears simulating the last jolt of life I have left, simulating my happiness that once never seemed to end and I realise the harsh actuality of life. This is all a dream, some cruel and sick world where I'll wake up soon, and I'll have just fallen asleep after parkouring with Sky and Jason and no one's died, no ones hurt. Yeah i like that it's all one sick dream. With the peaceful thought in mind, I shut my eyes and await for darkness to befall and trap me once again. One last voice talks to me before I leave the cruelty of this dystopic life behind.
"Nevertheless the falsified reality never ceases to seize you."