Sora looked out over the sea, his brown hair flowing gently in the wind. Leaning on a wood railing, he let the mist hit him, breathing in deeply. Sora stood there, letting the mist envelope him before sighing sadly. He gripped the coin in his hand and exhaled shakily. Blue eyes opened and looked down at the choppy waves. Sora pushed away from the railing and walked down the pier until he reached the street. After a moment, he decided to go back home. He didn't need to see him. He didn't want to see him. Sora swallowed the lump in his throat and shook away his tears.

He wished he didn't love him.

"Riku!" Sora cried out as he saw his best friend leave the plane. Riku's silver head turned toward him and the older man grinned. He quickly descended the stairs and ran over to his friend, enveloping Sora in a crushing hug.

"Sora!" Riku said, quieter than Sora had but with as much happiness as the brunette. Sora relished in Riku's hug, joy washing over him as he inhaled Riku's scent. How he had missed his friend. Not only was Riku now back, Sora had decided something. He was going to tell him. Today was the day he was going to tell him he loved him. Sora pulled back and looked at Riku.

"Riku, I-" Before Sora could finish his sentence, Riku pulled away from him completely and ran over to a red headed girl. Sora turned and smiled a little, wondering when Kairi had arrived. He walked over to them, his smile widening. Until he saw that Riku and Kairi were still holding hands. His smile faltered and he looked between them. The two adults smiled lovingly at each other, then turned their gazes to Sora.

"Sora, you know how you and Kairi both sent me letters while I was on site?" Riku asked. Sora nodded. "Well, in the last letter Kairi sent me she proposed. So... You can guess!" Riku was grinning from ear to ear as Kairi giggled and laid her head on his shoulder.

"O-Oh... Wow. I can't believe this you guys. I'm so happy for you!" Sora awkwardly said. Kairi just smiled but Riku looked at him, puzzled.

"Sora, are you-" Riku began.

"Oh sorry guys!" Sora stated as he glanced at his wrist. "I have to go! Important interview I have to get to! I'll see you two later!" With those parting words Sora gave Riku one last hug, patting Kairi on the shoulder before running off. Sora didn't stop running until he was out of view. He turned the corner and hit his back to the wall, clamping his hand over his mouth. Tears ran down his cheeks and he shut them tightly, trying to block out reality. The hand not covering his mouth gripped the chest of his shirt as he slid down the wall, sobs beginning to erupt from his mouth. He leaned his head down until it touched his knees, his heart crashing before him.

Riku watched the place where his best friend had been a moment before looking at Kairi. The red headed girl had a small smirk on her face and her hands gripped his arm a little too tight.

"He wasn't wearing a watch, was he Kairi?" Riku asked, concerned. Kairi just scoffed and started pulling him out of the airport.

"Does it matter, Riku sweetheart?" Kairi's voice was innocent, but Riku could tell she was happy about something. Riku just looked away and didn't respond.

To me it does...

Sora smiled over at Riku who was dusting off his tuxedo nervously. The brunette clamped his hand on the silverette's shoulder and squeezed gently.

"You look great Riku. This will be fine." Sora removed his hand, sadly noting that Riku relaxed when he did. Riku shook his head and groaned.

"But Sora, what if she says no? What if she finally realizes she can do so much better than me?"

"No one could do better than you, Riku." Sora shut his mouth as Riku looked at him quizzically before looking back in the mirror.

"Is it...?" Riku asked.

"Yeah," Sora replied. "It's time."

Sora was drinking a warm cup of coffee and watching the storm outside when someone pounded on his door. Jumping up, shocked and nervous, Sora walked over to the door and cautiously opened it.

"Hello?" Sora was shocked to find Riku outside his door, soaking wet and looking furious. He stepped back and let his friend enter the warm house.

"I cannot believe her!" Riku screamed, scaring Sora behind the couch. Riku sat down on said piece of furniture and held his head in his hands. "Why? Why would she do this?" Sora cautiously moved next to Riku and set his hand on Riku's pants clad knee. When his friend stiffened, Sora pulled his hand away.

"What happened?" Sora asked kindly.

"I got home from work today and found Kairi in bed with some man I didn't know. They were having sex." Riku's voice was raspy and Sora could see his friend bottling his rage. "When I called her a whore and asked her why the hell she was doing this, she said it was because I was cheating on her!"

"But you'd never do that Riku! She should know that! You really love her!" Sora frowned, mentally beating Kairi down. Riku nodded and continued.

"When I asked her who the fuck I was cheating on her with she rolled her eyes and said get off it. Then, she accused me of cheating on her with, of all people, YOU!" Riku slammed his fist on the coffee table. The bang did not shock Sora as much as what Riku had said. When Sora didn't respond Riku expelled air angrily through his nostrils. "Which is of course bogus! You're not gay! You'd never do that with-"

"But I am gay, Riku," Sora said quietly. Riku's aquamarine eyes widened considerably and he inched away from Sora, who looked away. "Riku, please..."

"Sora, what the hell I am supposed to think right now? My wife cheats on me and kicks me out after accusing me of cheating on her with my best friend. This said friend turns out to be gay, and I'm supposed to be ok with all of this?" Riku yelled. That was it for Sora, who stood and glared at Riku.

"LISTEN RIKU! I'VE DELT WITH BEING GAY MY WHOLE FUCKING LIFE, OK? I WAS TOTALLY FINE UNTIL YOU SHOWED UP WITH YOUR PRETTY FACE AND AMAZING PERSONALITY! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH THAT IT HURTS! AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I HAD TO DEAL WITH YOU GETTING ENGAGED TO KAIRI ON SHORT NOTICE! I WAS GOING TO TELL YOU I LOVED YOU THAT DAY BUT INSTEAD YOU BROKE MY HEART! AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I WAS TOTALLY FINE WITH JUST BEING YOUR FRIEND AFTER I REALIZED YOU LOVED KAIRI! BUT YOU ALWAYS TAUNTED ME! YOU WOULD DO THINGS THAT MADE ME WONDER IF YOU LOVED ME! YOU'D HUG ME AND FLIRT! BUT WHENEVER I TOUCHED YOU, YOU FROZE UP! YOU NEVER LET ME HAVE CONTACT WITH YOU AND I GET SO CONFUSED. I WISH I DIDN'T LOVE YOU RIKU! I WISH I DIDN'T HAVE TO CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP OVER YOU EVERY NIGHT! I WISH THAT I COULD BE NORMAL! BUT MOST OF ALL, I WISH YOU LOVED ME BACK!" Sora screamed so loud his voice was raw when he finished. Riku was staring at Sora's face, shock written all over his handsome features. "Now," Sora's raspy voice filled the quiet void. "Get the fuck out of my house." Riku stood and rushed out, looking back only once to see Sora collapse onto his couch, sobbing.

Sora didn't leave the house anymore. He paid all his bills online while letters he received lay piling up in his mailbox. It had been 6 months since he had kicked Riku out of his house. The silverette never visited or tried to contact him. Overcome with grief, Sora became a hermit. He rarely bathed, and he grew stubble from never shaving. He had enormous bags under his eyes, which no longer sparkled with glee. Dull blue eyes looked out a picture window at the people walking down the street. Sora tore his eyes away from the window and he shuffled back to his room. He collapsed onto the comforter and closed his eyes. A sudden sharp knock at the door woke him from his daze. Confused, the brunette walked to his front door. As he opened it, his eyebrows raised.

"Can I talk with you? Please?" Silver hair wafted gently in the wind. Aquamarine eyes sadly pierced into Sora's dull blue orbs.

"Sure. Come in." Sora's voice was low and raspy, causing Riku to flinch as the man spoke. He entered the house and looked around, shocked slightly at the gloom that surrounded the house.

"I wanted to talk about what you told me."

"And say what?"

"I don't know, Sora. All I know is I need to know why you love me."

"Because of you, Riku. I love your looks, yes, but I didn't fall in love with you until you became my best friend. Not fully anyway."

"Really?"

"Yes. Now, if that's all, you can-"

"I like you, Sora!" The words burst from Riku's mouth before he could stop them. Sora looked at him, one eyebrow raised and Riku felt heat in his cheeks. "I don't know if I like you like that, but, I know that I care about you. I care about you more than I cared about my ex-wife." Sora opened his mouth, but Riku cut him off. "Yes, Kairi and I divorced. No need to apologize. Her cheating just brought the inevitable. We weren't made for each other. But, anyway, I think I could learn to love you the way you love me. I don't know everything about gay relationships but, I am willing to try it. It hurts to see you so upset, and it hurts even more to know I caused it..."

"I don't want a pity relationship, Riku. I want someone who loves me and can tell me when I look stupid, or when my breath smells bad. I want something real, Riku. And despite how much I love you, I don't know if you can give me that. I don't think you really understand."

"But, Sora, I really want to be with you..."

"I'm sorry, Riku. Even if you do, I'm not ready to be with you. It still hurts to be around you." Sora rubbed his temple with his fingers. "If you still want to try something, come back when you know you're ready and ok with this." Riku looked down dejectedly, but nodded nonetheless. As he opened the door, Sora coughed. "Oh, and Riku?" The silverette turned. "Gay relationships are the same as straight ones. It's love, Riku, not rocket science." A dry smile spread over Sora's lips, reaching his eyes for only a moment. Riku smiled at him sadly before exiting through the door, shutting it softly behind him.