By Marle (2001)
I only heard the explosion… I don't remember the
pain… what happened then?
I wasn't dead… yet at least.
"Iris!!" I heard a familiar voice call from far
away. Zero? I wanted to reply; alias I couldn't no matter how much I wanted
to. I couldn't even get my eyes to open, I couldn't respond to him, why
wasn't I dead?
"Iris!" I heard him say again, this time I felt
someone over me. He was there, Zero was right next to me. I wanted to see
him, to talk to him, to know I hadn't done something to him.
"Zero…?" I managed to say, opening my eyes some.
He was there, looking down at me with worried eyes.
"Hang in there, Iris!" He said. I knew it though…
I knew I couldn't…
"Please…" I begged, "Stay away from repliforce…"
He looked down at me with eyes full of regret.
I knew he couldn't… wouldn't stay away from Repliforce… He was going to
fight them regardless… I couldn't stop him now.
"Let's live together… In a world where only reploids
exists…"
Zero frowned at me sadly and shook his head
slowly.
"Iris… there's no world just for reploids… it's
only a fantasy…" he replied.
"Yes…" I answered, feeling it becoming harder to
say a word. "I know…"
But I didn't know. No... perhaps I didn't want to
accept it. All along I had known that the ideals of Repliforce were nothing
more than talk and false promises made to the members of the reploid community.
It was painful but somehow I had managed to move my arm, I reached for
him, wanting him to know the truth. About how I really felt, about how
what I really wanted. Oh Zero, I want to tell you so much… I thought
at that moment. But I can't.
He was all I ever wanted, I never needed anything
in life but him. I saw something in him. When I first met him I saw it
there, hidden in his eyes. Dispite his pride and attitude, I could sense
somewhere a deep sorrow, a lonliness. I wanted to be the one to take him
from that. Instead, what had I done? I had made him more miserable then
ever. I hate myself for it... I'll always hate myself for it.
"But…I wanted to believe it. I wanted to live
in a world where only reploids exists… with you…" I sighed. I felt happy
when his hands came to meet mine. How I wished I could've touched his face,
just once… just to tell him I loved him. How foolish, though… I knew he
knew. Maybe what I really wanted was to hear him say he loved me. Did he
though…? How could he… after what I've done… what I did…
"Iris!!" He cried, taking me in his arms.
As I looked into his deep emerald eyes I couldn't help but smile. He could
save this world; he could bring justice and right the wrongs. My regret
though was how I was about to leave him. I was so full of regret for losing
my brother… I was blind. I wanted to be that special someone for him and
what did I do? Put him through hell out of my own grief. Zero I'm so
sorry! I wanted to scream. But nothing came from my mouth, just a faint
sigh then my vision blurred of him before fading to nothing but black.
I wanted… maybe even need… to say "I love you Zero". Just once… but…Fate is cruel. If I could turn back time and stop myself, to see reason, maybe... somehow we'd be happy together in the end. But that's impossible now...
My beloved Zero… I'm so sorry…
I love you…
But it's too late…