Georgie felt like her body was only there to hold her heart in as she watched the pictures on her laptop screen. The organ was pounding so fast that she could hear it in her ears. The funniest thing was that she had not done any physical activities for hours because this was her checking her Facebook notifications after she had done her homework, so the only reason why her heart was going crazy were the pictures she was seeing.
What she was browsing through were Samantha's uploads from her birthday party last weekend which Georgie herself had not gone because according to Lou it was "for the big girls" and she was not one of them even though she was already 16 years old.
Her eyes looked at the photo where Samantha was kissing one of her friends - who was a girl. Georgie knew her old team mate from Extreme Team wasn't seeing anyone, but she had never even thought about the possibility that she might be into girls instead of boys and that might be the reason why she wasn't in a relationship. Something about that made Georgie feel funny and she wasn't sure why.
But when she scrolled down and read people's reactions, she wasn't sure if Samantha was into girls after all since all of the comments made it seem like this was some kind of joke.
"Omg, LESBIANS! Haha!"
"HOT HOT HOT"
"how drunk were u?!"
"you know your mom can see this, right?"
Something about the comments made Georgie feel different, almost angry or annoyed, and she couldn't explain why that was either. She looked at the photo again, wondering what had crossed in Samantha's mind when she had taken the picture and then decided to post it. Was it just a joke to her too?
"Hey, kid," Jade's voice startled Georgie all of a sudden. Georgie slammed the laptop shut and turned around. "What?" her friend looked confused about her reaction.
"You scared me!" Georgie explained, sighing. "I thought you were Lou."
Jade started grinning mischievously. "Were you hiding something…? What was it? Show me!" she insisted, walking toward her and leaning on Georgie's table when she turned back to her computer.
"It's nothing…" Georgie tried. She might have been okay with Jade just seeing her browsing through the photos, after all it was just her friend's pictures, but now her reaction somehow made it worse.
"Well, it must be something since it made you react like that when you thought I was your mom," Jade replied. "Come on, we're friends. Your secret is my secret."
"It's not a secret, I just didn't want mom to get a wrong idea," Georgie said, feeling her temples getting red as she pulled the laptop's top back up and showed Jade what she had been looking at. "Just pictures from Sam's party from last weekend."
"Looks like she had fun," Jade said, turning around so she could stand beside Georgie and get a better look. "Were you there?"
"No way; my mom said it was not appropriate for me. You remember how she flipped about that time when I was going to go to Jasper with Sam and her friends," Georgie reminded. That had been a disaster as she had kept that a secret, but then Lou had found out. This time she had figured she could just ask as she was few years older now and more responsible. Still, she had not been allowed to go. "Imagine if she had seen this… She would have never let me go anywhere again."
"Why? They are just kissing? It's not like they are doing drugs or something," Jade scoffed. "Who hasn't done that…"
"Wait…" Georgie furrowed her brows and looked at her friend's face that was close to hers as she had basically took over the laptop to look at the rest of the pictures. "Do you mean… you've done that too?"
"What?" Jade looked at Georgie. "You mean, kissed a girl?"
Georgie nodded.
"Uh, yeah, many times."
Jade said it so casually that it left Georgie stunned. She had never thought of that about her friend and it almost made her feel like she didn't really seem to know Jade that well after all even though they were best friends.
"I'll take it you haven't?" Jade guessed.
"Well, when would I have?" Georgie responded, not only because it was an absurd thought but also because she couldn't believe Jade even assumed something like that about her. I mean, why would she? Not only did she know about her dating history, she also knew that she had only shown interest into boys. "Adam was my first kiss and… yeah, Clay's cousin kissed me too, but… that's it."
"I guess the opportunity just hasn't presented itself," Jade figured, shrugging.
"You mean to say that all the girls have kissed other girls?" Georgie had hard time believing that. She doubted that Amy or even Lou had kissed other girls in their lifetime.
"Well, maybe not all the girls, but a lot of girls, probably," Jade said, returning to her place on the edge of the table as she crossed her arms thoughtfully. "I mean, it's like a rite of passage these days."
"Why would girls kiss other girls if they're not into girls?" Georgie had hard time believing it. "I mean, boys don't kiss other boys just for fun, do they?"
"Well, boys are afraid of things like that. I feel like girls are more open to showing their feelings and like to have to fun. It doesn't always have to be so serious, you know," Jade explained her point of view. "And besides, how do you even know you only like boys if you only kiss boys?"
Georgie had not thought about that. She had just always sort of thought that girls were supposed to like boys and that's who they were meant to be with. And kissing Adam had been okay and she had even felt something when she had kissed Wyatt, so surely that meant that she was into boys.
"But… you've been with boys, so…" Georgie stuttered. "I mean, you like boys, so why would you kiss girls…?"
Jade grinned a little because of Georgie's naivety. It was kind of adorable to her how her friend was only just starting to question about these things. "Well, sometimes it's for fun, but you do know you can like both boys and girls, right…?"
Georgie blushed again as she was beginning to realize new things about Jade. "You mean… you like… both?"
"Yeah," Jade shrugged. "I mean, why not. If I'm attracted to someone, why should the gender matter, you know?"
Again, Jade stated it so casually, that Georgie wasn't sure what to say or what to do. "I didn't know about that… About you…"
"Well, it's not like I go to people and introduce myself; "Hi, I'm Jade and I'm bi-sexual," Jade laughed a little. "It doesn't define me. It's just part of who I am."
Georgie needed time to process this, but she struggled to come up with something to say.
Jade noticed that for Georgie, this chat had reached an end, so she changed the subject. "Anyway. You said you needed help with exercising Trouble, so… are we going?"
"Yeah, sure. I'm done with homework, so… we can go," Georgie said, closing her browser and then getting up from her chair. "I was thinking we could go on a trail ride. I'll take Phoenix, you'll take Trouble."
"Sounds good," Jade said and started walking to Georgie's door.
