A/N: Short drabble. Sorta randomly typing. A look into the minds of two people (guess who?) after that Astronomy Tower scene in HBP. I don't own anything HP related.
I couldn't kill him.
I couldn't save him.
I just watched.
I just watched.
Frozen to the spot, listening.
Frozen to the spot, watching.
He had tried to save me.
He was saving me.
And so I hesitated.
And I couldn't move.
But then it happened.
Then it happened.
The door opened, and they came in.
It was terrible.
Four of them.
They were four.
And Snape was one of them.
That bastard was one of them.
I think he was trying to save me, too.
Tried to save him.
I think I blinked when it happened.I couldn't close my eyes.
One minute he was fine -
One minute, he was talking, winning -
But then it happened.
That's when it happened.
And now he's gone.
Now he's gone.
I can't believe it.
I just can't believe it.
Snape did it.
That bastard did it.
He did it instead of me – my substitute.
He was the substitute, I guess.
He killed Dumbledore.
He killed Dumbledore.
I've failed Him.
I've failed them.
What will they think?
What will they think?
I just stood there.
I just stood there.
It was out of my control.
It was out of my control.
I couldn't do anything.
I couldn't do anything.
Not a thing.
Didn't move.
Paralysed.
And I watched.
Watched.
As he fell down the tower –
It was sickening.
How I wished I could cry out.
I was rooted to the spot.
I was finally able to move.
So they dragged me away.
That's when I knew it was over.
That's when everything ended.
They ran away.
I'm a coward.
They're all cowards.
I couldn't kill Dumbledore.
I can't believe they killed Dumbledore.
He was defenceless.
Who attacks someone defenceless?
He was weak.
Those bastards are weak.
With cowards like me, we'll lose the war.
Without heroes like him, we'll lose the war.
I can't believe I couldn't kill him.
I can't believe I couldn't save him.