CHELSEA WELSH
Summary: If Only They Could Open Their Eyes. If Only We Didn't Have To Be Ashamed Because Of Their Prejudice...
cough "Fag" cough
My body stiffened as I listened to the horridly pitched voice from behind me; I knew it was one of the foolish boys in my school. "Kyo," I turned, trying to appear bold faced, without any fear. I looked into the black eyes and was suddenly tempted to force him into a wall; make him bleed and suffer the same way he's done for me every moment for the past week. I still had the bruises that throbbed endlessly. "Where's your little boyfriend?" The word came from his lips like poison and I was grateful he didn't know Hiei's name...it didn't deserve to be spoken by him.
The boy grabbed my by the front of my shirt and I damned Koenma's blasted rules about not harming humans. I would not risk any of my life merely to make him sorry for what he's done. A hard fist connected with the side of my face. I didn't bother crying out; that's what he wanted. Who would help me anyways?
...Everyone knew about me...
My body didn't seem to want to cooperate as they walked away, laughing and joking in such a way that I wanted to tear them apart. I was forced to use a tree as a support, as humiliating as it was.
"Fox."
I didn't turn around; I didn't want to have to look into his eyes and see the anger there. A gentle hand came into my own and, as if I weighed nothing, he held me in his arms and ran.
"Hiei," I looked at the playground and the blue sky instead of him, "You didn't have to take me here. I should be at home anyways." He snorted, folding one leg to his chest and looking at my face, "You'd let your mother see the bruises?" I didn't answer; he already knew. I sighed and fell back onto a bench, head in my hands and trying to hold it all back. His hand touched my back, playing with my hair and waiting for me to speak before he asked questions.
"Do they do this to you, Hiei?"
It hurt my throat to talk, but I had to. I had to say something, even if it was only an insignifigant question.
"Mock me?" his voice, although it was a question, held no curiosity. He sighed and looked up briefly, "Yes...but it doesn't effect me. Maybe because I don't have any sort of bond with them...I have no outcome to fear."
...There was more. There was something else he wanted to say, but he was holding back.
"Your mother," he mumbled, hands now clenched in his lap as I stared at him, "Did you tell her?" I shook my head; I was afraid to. Far too many risks to be taking. Too much to explain and not nearly enough words.
I sighed, laying my head on his lap and holding his hand. He was shaking just as harshly as I. "It's only words," I whispered, "...Then why does it hurt so much?" His hands, deadly and harsh, ran gently through my hand and caressed my cheek. He had no answers; he remained silent, kissing my brow and attempting to understand as much as I was. He was hurting too...
"I was...going to tell Yukina," he whispered. I didn't say anything, didn't know how to take those words. "I was going to tell her that I loved you and planned to mate with you someday."
Our situations were too similar.
Hiei sighed, "But I don't know how. How the hell do you look someone in the eyes and tell them something that could ruin what took so long to build?" I stroked the back of his hand with my thumb, closing my eyes and shaking my head quietly. I let out a sob and a laugh. "I hate it, Hiei... It shouldn't be this hard...!"
It shouldn't be so difficult to say what most wouldn't be ashamed of. Couples of the opposite sex have less risk; they have something to be proud of. So, why are we so different. "We'll figure something out," Hiei's voice was tense. Was he crying? I looked into the shining ruby eyes and tried to smile at him. I failed.
We lay there until the sun long vanished; others sat quietly within their homes as we lay in a park and cried together. We tried to figure out what to do with the breaking pieces of our lives.
...It shouldn't have to be this hard...
...Wow. So sad!
If any of you have heard the song "Stars" by tATy, you might get this piece. I love that song and already made an Utena AMV to it...
Part II is going to be better, more focused on the positives of the song, and in Hiei's POV. Hope you enjoyed it Please review. I've been getting people favouriting my fics and not reviewing. T.T