It Breaks My Heart

-cupcakes

28th April 2007

Good morning.

Today, I found out very interesting. But before I give you all the details, I want to ask you something… Have you ever been hurt so much by the person you love the most?

I have.

You know… I just saw Natsume with Sumire. Not just with Sumire, ON Sumire. Really funny huh? I hope this is just a dream, I tried so hard to believe so, but no, this is real and I have to face it. He never really loved me, maybe he just used me to prove that he can get any girl he wants.

I don't think I will be able to last any longer here in the academy. I really have to leave. I can't bear to see Natsume with Sumire you know. I hope you understand me. Well you should, you have no other choice

I should go and tell Hotaru about this.

Mikan

(Outside Hotaru's Room… Mikan's POV)

I knocked on Hotaru's door, but no one was answering. Where is she when I need her the most? I better check if she's on the laboratory. After a few minutes of walking, I was able to reach her laboratory and when I was about to knock on her door, she opened it and said coldly to me,

"You know Mikan, I'm really busy right now. You can save your rants for later, I don't have time for your nonsense complains OR if you're going to bug me, just do it later."

I felt my heart breaking; I need her the most right now… Why can't she be nice to me for a while?

"Okay." Then I left, I don't really have time to beg her to listen to me. If she really is my friend… my best friend, she would feel that I really need her right now but she just shooed me away like dirt.

I was on my way back to my dormitory, I've finally managed to be a 3 star student so my room was a bit…no, not a bit, way much better compared to the one I stayed when I first came here to the academy.

Tug!

I fell on the floor, seems like I bumped into someone.

"Mikan are you okay?" Yuu held out his hand to me.

I willingly grabbed it and helped myself stand up.

"I'm sorry. I wasn't looking…" I told him.

"No, it's okay Mikan. Hey… what's the problem?" he asked me, he seemed to have notice the difference in the way I speak.

"Yuu… can I really tell you?" I asked, seriously. I really needed someone to speak with right now or else I would just snap.

"Of course Mikan. Would you like to go to a restaurant in Central Town?"

"Sure…"

Thank God he's here.

*****

After speaking with Yuu, I really felt better. He gave me fluff puffs and he cheered me up all the way. I guess there is still someone who cares for me.

On the way home, I bumped (again) into someone, "Natsume…"

"Mikan, I'm sorry." He told me.

I didn't want to talk to him anymore, not after what he did to me! So I ran as fast as I could to go back to my dormitory.

"MIKAN!" I could hear his shouts, he's running after me!

I was able to reach my room and I locked it the moment I stepped inside. I buried my face on my pillow and started crying.

"Mikan! Please! Open the door!" He just wouldn't give up! He kept on knocking on the door.

It was like that for an hour. I didn't bother opening it. I just kept on crying.

After that, he gave up and left.

"Sayonara… Natsume…"