Chapter 1

Jay's P.O.V.

My head throbbed with pain as I stood in front of Will with a gun pointed at my head. Doctors and patients shrieked and panicked in fear, doctors rushing to calm patients yelling and screaming in pure panic. Why couldn't everybody just shut up, all the noise was not helping with my killer headache. Fresh warm blood trickled down my eye and my vision started to blur.

"DON'T MOVE OR I KILL YOUR BROTHER!" My captor yelled at Will waking me right up.

Will froze in fear, probably not wanting to hurt me but I couldn't think clearly. Everything seemed so fuzzy, it was annoying and I didn't like it one bit. My arms and legs felt so heavy, I just wanted to go to sleep. Just then, Erin, my precious Erin walked in with the rest of the squad, guns raised high yelling at the guy to put the gun down. I couldn't be happier to see my team, even Voight I was glad to see.

"Stop, put the gun down."

I could feel the guy holding me shake in fear, or maybe he was crying, I don't know. But after that, it was clear he was crying, shuddering violently as he did and suddenly he loosened his grip and let me fall to the floor. He looked up at Erin as she spoke in calm steady words.

"Ok good now, put your gun down."

"NO, I can't after what you've done to my daughter(pointing a shaky finger at Will)." In a trembling voice he said," I have too, I told her I'd stay next to her forever, I told her. I promised her."

Erin's P.O.V

Jay slumped to the ground as soon as his kidnapper let loose of him. Ok, I thought in my head at least we got him to let go Jay, all we needed to do was get him to do the same with the gun. I raised my voice a little louder trying to sound confident even though the person I loved looked half dead a few feet in front of me.

"I repeat one more time, PUT YOUR GUN DOWN!" I yelled, it came out louder than I expected and I soon realized the consequences.

The guy raised his gun again but this time pointing it at his own head. Hank beside me glared at me and he tried to get him to put the gun down but it was too late. The gun shot rang out and echoed throughout the E.R. and everyone froze. The guy sunk to his knees, blood dripping from the dark hole he put through his own head.

Will's P.O.V.

As soon as the man shot himself in the head I ran over to Jay even though we were literally five feet apart. This was all my fault and now my little brother was lying on the ground probably with a severe concussion bleeding out from a very bad gash on the back of his head. But I couldn't think about that now, I needed to check Jay and make sure he was alright as a doctor and as a brother.

"Jay, hey JAY. I need you to look at me, do you know where you are?" I asked hoping he wasn't concussed even though he obviously was.

"Ummmm, at-the hosp'al" he said slurring his speech.

"Good, now do you remembered why you're here?"

"Some'ne kidnapped-me?"

His eyelids were really droopy as I pushed them up to check his pupils. They were so uneven that, it was obvious he had a concussion and by the looks of it was really bad.

"Ok I need a gurney over here, and prepare a room for a brain scan and check him for other possible injuries."

As two nurses brought a gurney and started to load him onto it I sighed in relief knowing that Jay was going to be fine even if it took a long time. I hadn't even noticed Erin beside me standing up as they took Jay away.

Erin's P.O.V.

The guy slumped to the ground and Voight and Ruzek quickly got up to pull the body away. I stood there in shock not processing what happened. Until I saw Will run over to Jay who looked so tired and helpless. I forced to move my legs and walked over to Jay kneeling down to see his face. His hair stuck to his forehead caked with blood and sweat and there was a bruise that covered most of his right eye. His beautiful face had been messed up because of me if I had just walked home with him last night, none of this would have happened. I held his hand and stood up as they carried Jay.

Jay's P.O.V.

Will ran over to me and started to ask me questions but I was just so tired. I couldn't remember what I said but Will knew something was wrong since I they got a gurney and loaded me onto it. I felt so tired and as soon as I was loaded on I let myself fall asleep.

Will's P.O.V

I stood up and followed Erin while they took Jay to take x rays.

"Will, Jay's going to be alright, right?" Erin said as I watched a sleeping Jay get scanned.

"Umm, yeah but we'll have to wait and see, but I'm sure he just has a concussion, but he is a little dehydrated."

They wheeled him out of the room and Erin followed but I let myself stay leaning against the glass window of the x-ray room. Rhodes soon walked up to me having missed all the action after being caught up in a surgery and leaned against the window next to me as he sighed.

"I heard what happened. Is your brother okay?"

"Yeah, it's really obvious he has a concussion and he's getting checked out now, but I'm sure there won't be injuries that are that serious."

"You know, it's the end of my shift now. I could take over your shift so you can be there for Jay. I know he hates hospitals so if he's okay to be home with you take him home." Connor said with an assuring smile.

"Wait, you'd really do that for me?"

"Of course, go ahead you should go check on your brother. I have go talk to Goodwin." he said walking away waving his hand.

Then I knew what I had to do, I sprinted toward April asking where my brother was at and rushed to his room ignoring all the incoming patients. Erin was already there holding Jay's hand waiting for him to wake up. I slowed down pulling up a chair next to Jay's side opposite from Erin.

"This is all my fault" said Erin, tears threatening to spill from her eyes.

"No, it's mine. Erin it's not your fault, you know and I know the only reason that guy kidnapped Jay was because he wanted revenge. Revenge, because of the mistake I made while treating his daughter during my resident years. She died and he wanted me to watch someone close die too. It's not your fault it's mine."

It was my fault and Erin Knew that too. The guy had a daughter about two or three years ago that came in to get plastic surgery but had an allergic reaction to the anesthetic and died. Of course, he raised his daughter alone after his wife passed away and when his daughter died, he couldn't take it anymore. So he kidnapped Jay when he was walking home by attacking him from the back with a steel pipe which was why he was laying on this bed.

Jay needed stitches on the back of his head because of the sharp edge on the steel pipe. By the time the man had dragged Jay over to Chicago Med, Jay had been beaten up pretty bad. He came for Will, he was going to shoot Jay in front of him and he wouldn't have been able to save him.

"Will…?" Jay woke up and was looking straight at me.

"Hey Jay, all you have is a concussion. I know how much you hate hospitals, Connor took over my shift so do you want to go home?"

"Really?"

"Of course, I know it's been a long day for you. Let's go home." I said.

I looked at Erin and told her that she should go home. It's been a long day for her too. Erin looked up and just nodded. Hank was waiting outside and took her home.

"Ok, can we go home now Will?"

"Of course yeah, let's go home"

Jays P.O.V.

I woke up to the sound of Will saying it was all his fault. I pretended to be asleep but when Will noticed me he told me that I could go home, and honestly that was the only thing I really wanted. My head still throbbed but the pain was much duller and I looked up to see and an IV of painkillers. It helped a lot and I was glad it was there. As Will went to sign my discharge papers, I slowly got up trying to ignore the wave of nausea that hit me. I walked over to the closet to get my coat when Will walked in and helped me get it.

"We're good to go now, Let's go home lil'bro." He said putting his arm around my shoulders.

Taking the iv with him Will and I slowly walk over to his car. He opens the door to the front seat and I plop down into it. As Will starts up the engine I lean my head against the window looking outside. I hadn't even noticed it was raining and when I did the soothing rhythm slowly put me to sleep.

Will's P.O.V.

After I got Jay into my car, I got in and was just about to tell him about the routine concussion checks, until I noticed he was already asleep. I looked out the window and noticed it was starting to rain hard. I checked my watch, it was already 8!

Driving home didn't take that long, luckily there was barely any traffic. As soon as I parked my car in my apartment's garage, I stood in front of my car wondering how to get Jay up to my apartment.

"Jay, wake up. We're home." I said, gently shaking him.

"Hmm?uhh, yeah" Jay slowly woke up and rubbed his eyes.

Unclipping his seatbelt, he slowly stood up and I helped him walk to the elevator.

"By the way, I'm going to ask you questions every few hours. You know the drill, it's part of concussions."

When we were younger Jay and I use to play really rough until one day we went too far and Jay ended up getting a mild concussion and me ending up being grounded. At the time I thought it was funny to ask random questions like the doctor told me to do. Jay just nodded at me and leaned against the elevator's walls. He looked really tired, it was painful to watch my little brother look so hurt and helpless. The thought that this was my fault entered my mind again I couldn't bear to look at him then.

The elevator reached the 14th floor and we got off. I would say my apartment wasn't that big, but it was just enough for two people. I put Jay's stuff on the couch and helped Jay to the spare bedroom I had. As soon as I laid him on the bed, he fell asleep. Afterall he probably didn't get to sleep when he was kidnapped.

Flashback to when Jay gets Kidnapped

Will was working a late shift. When he had got a call that Jay was kidnapped. It had come so unexpectedly Will had dropped his phone and stood there frozen. Natalie had come over to him and asked what was wrong, but he couldn't hear her. He stood there frozen, until Dr. Charles had come over and asked what was wrong. He told him that Jay was kidnapped not believing it himself. Jay had already been kidnapped once, and he had almost died. He couldn't watch Jay go through that again.

He could still remember the moment when Antonio had sent him the video of Jay being tortured, and how he watched it and had nightmares every night until they found him. He knew how dangerous Jay's job was, he knew aJay could get hurt anytime, but he never thought it would actually happen. What upset him most was that he knew who had taken Jay. He knew why the man took Jay, and he knew what he was going to do to him.

This time, Erin came and met him outside the E.R. after the phone call. She told him that it might be someone that wanted revenge that kidnapped Jay, but he wasn't listening. He knew who would do this and feared this would happen.

I knew how dangerous his job was, but I never had thought about what would happen if he got hurt. Every night until they found him, I had nightmares about Jay dying.

Jay shifted and that snapped me back into reality. Walking out of the room I shut the light off and set a timer to remind me went to check on him. I sat at the kitchen table watching the clock as I rethink all that happened today.