In the Name of Love

Summary: I know its been done millions of times but…

Seth Clearwater, one of the La Push werewolves, scratch that…shapeshifters, finally imprints. He imprints on a fourteen year old girl named Hannah. She wants to step it up to the next level, but Seth won't because he's afraid he won't be able to control his...emotions, and might phase. What will happen? Will Hannah be able to seduce her werewolf boyfriend, or will Seth hold his ground?

Seth is seventeen at the time, so he continues to phase and help the werewolves, especially since there are still vampires in the area, so he can be seventeen when Hannah is seventeen, then he will stop phasing for good. Most of the gushy, lovey stuff happens at night when Seth comes over and sleeps with Hannah, before going out on patrol at three in the morning. Sometimes she comes with him and waits at Sam's and Emily's; she had begun to think of Emily as an older sister. Then one night Hannah tells Emily about what happened with another guy…and Hannah's world is turned upside down.

[Seth]

"Please Seth, please," Hannah begged, moving closer to him, and giving him the puppy dog look.

"No, Hannah don't do this again, I'm not going to give in," I said, pleading for her to stop making me feel like a bad guy.

"Whatever," she said, faking mad, and turning over to her other side. We were lying in her bed like every night, whispering to each other. I stared at her back. Her bra straps were hanging out of her pink tank top that was scrunched up from turning around, revealing the smooth tan skin on the bottom of her back; she also had on really short plaid pink boxers. Not a good outfit, it thought, if I'm planning to keep this situation at bay.

"Oh don't do this please," I said, laying a hot hand on her shoulder. She turned over all too willingly, and smiled her smile. Her big, toothpaste commercial, without the lame music, smile. I loved that smile.

"Fine, but that means you have to take me tonight," she said.

"You know, you're going to have to sleep, eventually," I said, "yesterday at school I had to wake you up during lunch that defiantly shows how much you need sleep, seeing if you can sleep in the loudest cafeteria on Earth. You haven't slept in two days I think."

"Take me or you have to do ANYTHING else I say," she said, winking. I sighed; I'd rather not have her sleep for a week, than have to do what she wanted to do even more.

"Fine," I grumbled.

"Seth?" she said, a little wary.

"What sweetie?" I said.

"Why cant we Seth? Please just tell me why?" I groaned, we'd been having the same conversation almost every night for the past three weeks.

"Because I don't want to hurt you, ive already told you that a million times," I said.

"I trust you Seth, I love you, and you love me too, right?"

"Of course silly," I said stroking her hair. She sat up and looked at me.

"You know all the petting and stuff isn't really helping this matter, it make me just want to do it more," she said.

"Sorry."

"It's okay, I like it anyways," she said, smiling her luminous smile again, and laying back down next to me.

"Emily and Sam, do it im sure, and every other werewolf, Paul and Kim, and im sure Jacob and Nessie will sooner or later, s much as Edward will hate that," she said, "so why cant we, they don't get hurt."

"Hannah, they are a lot better than me at not being able to just burst into a werewolf, tearing all their clothes to shreds, and killing whatever is in front of them."

"Now the tearing off the clothes I wouldn't mind, but the killing part, would be bad, but I trust you Seth, I know that wont happen, you're strong enough not to phase," she said still pleading, sucking up a little, trying to soften the deal.

"Hannah," I said, exasperated, I didn't want to talk about this anymore tonight, "let me talk to the guys first."

"So it's a possibility?" she asked her eyes gleaming.

"Maybe when you get older, like after we are married."

"Seth," she said groaning, "I can't wait that long."

"Too bad," I said, I was putting my foot down, even though I hated not giving her what she wanted. I really was trying to protect her, even though I really wanted to have sex with her too I couldn't; I wasn't sure if I could.

"How about my fifteenth birthday?" she asked, trying to barter.

"No that's in like three months!" I said laughing.

"That's the point," she said, "fine, Valentines Day?" she said, raising and lowering her eyebrows.

"May…No, Hannah stop please, this is so hard not being able to say yes, because you know I want to do it as much as you do, I really am trying to protect you. I don't want you to end up like Emily."

"There is nothing wrong with what happened to Emily, it was a complete accident," she said.

"Yeah, those scars down her face are nothing, okay, whatever, you're still not going to get you're way, on anything else you can but not this," I said. I reached my arm over her and picked up the battery alarm clock that she never used, since she never went to sleep. It was 2:45. "We need to go," I muttered.

"OK, but you're not getting out of this conversation," she said, carefully getting out of bed trying not to make the bed creak. I opened Hannah's bedroom window, and popped the screen out like we do every night.

"Wait here," I said. I climbed swiftly down the big maple tree close to the window and phased while Hannah climbed down. She hopped on my back, which was now fury, and getting wet in the drizzling rain. She's gonna freeze, I thought. I whined to let her know something was wrong.

"I'm fine," she said, knowing I was worrying, burying her head into my back, "go." I mentally sighed and took off. The guys were silent mainly, nothing big going on tonight. I arrived at Emily's and Hannah slid off my back. Embry, Quill, and Paul were coming in to Emily's from running patrol, and Jacob, and Sam were waiting on me to start going. Hannah patted my head then took off into Sam and Emily's house. Embry, Quill, and Paul went into the garage to phase so they could go eat.

[Hannah]

I ran into Emily's kitchen, warm and inviting, and almost ran straight into Paul's wide chest.

"Whoa, slow down," he said, a little madly.

"Sorry, Paul," I said, shyly, I had never really gotten to know him like the rest of the pack.

"It's okay," he mumbled, stuffing a peanut butter and jelly sandwich into his mouth whole. I rolled my eyes. I loved the pack, but they all ate like well…dogs.

"Hey little sister, what's up?" Embry said, giving me a food filled smile.

"Nothing," I said. Obviously I wasn't getting a heartfelt conversation with Emily tonight.

"Alright, guys, outside, or in the basement, you're making a mess. Slow down Quill the food isn't running away," Emily said, sensing something was up. The guys all picked up as much food as they could carry, which was a lot in their huge hands. After a few minutes the kitchen was a deadly silence.

"Alright, spill, what's wrong, I haven't seen you with that face since they took MTV2 off your cable package," Emily said trying to lighten the mood.

"No, Emily this is worse," I said, she gasped and put her hand in front of her scar covered mouth. "Stop it im serious."

"Alright, I'm sorry, what's up?"

"This is kind of embarrassing, but, um you and Sam, um, do it, right?" I said.

"Uh…do wha…OH!…um, yes, why?"

"See, I really can't wait until me and Seth are married to do it with him, because I love him so much, and he wont do it."

"Maybe he isn't ready?" Emily said, her face a little red.

"No he said he was, he's just worried that he will phase during it, you know because of not being able to control his…emotions…right. He says he has to try a lot harder than the other guys, but I don't get that."

"He doesn't have to try harder, I don't know why he's saying that, maybe I can talk to Sam…"
"NO, don't do that," I said, "I'm not really worrying about it THAT much, but it just makes me feel kinda of like, how um, Michael was before, you know all that happened." Then I burst into tears. "I'm sorry, just he was acting like that too then one night he just broke into my room and raped me, and left me there on my bed, taking something I could never get back."

"What are you talking about?!" Emily screeched, standing up.

"No one knows about it and I think…I think," I said, still crying. Emily bit her ruined lip, "you don't have to tell me I can tell it's hard for you to talk abo…"

"HANNAH! WHATS WRONG!" Seth yelled running into Emily's kitchen, his hands shaking uncontrollably. He gave Emily a look like it was her fault, and ran back out side, where we heard the sound of shredding clothes, and a long melancholy howl. I sighed,

"Emily would you mind running me home, he wont be back for a while. I need to get ready for school." It was already six A.M. and I still needed a shower.

"Sure, let me get my keys," she said, still eyeing my wet face that looked even more hurt.

[Seth]

"Seth, come back, Emily says she's fine…"

"Seth, come on man, she needs you, calm down and circle back…"

"Man, I'm hungry…come on Seth!"

I thought, shut up guys let me run this off and ill come back. I mentally sighed, and thought, does anyone know what happened yet? All was silent. I take that as a yes…. I thought. Sam was the only one to think something that made since the rest were thinking dumb things like songs and about food.

She was talking to Emily about the… situation…that you talked to us about earlier, and then she started saying you were acting like Michael did before, then she started crying and said, something like, before he raped me and took something she cant get back, her virginity I guess. So then you came in after we heard her crying and then you ran out and phased, Emily took her home and here we are…three hours later.

Guys I'm phasing back, I need to think for a minute by myself, but im sure my dumb emotions will get me and ill be running again, I thought, then phased back to my human form. My clothes were still back at Emily's so I was glad I was in the forest deep enough. I thought to myself,

Someone raped her? And he acted like me? That's got to be what's messing with her head all of a sudden. She's lucky he didn't kill her. I'm going to kill that Michael kid, whoever he is. Luckily she didn't end up pregnant. I thought back then, for ay signs of pregnancy. She hadn't been sick, or getting bigger, so I don't think she is, maybe its too early to tell. I don't know about this stuff, maybe ill ask Emily. Wait a minute…the other day she was throwing up…she said she just had a 24-hour thing. What if she is pregnant? At that moment I phased, exploding back into my wolf form, unable to control my emotions. The guys were waiting. I thought what I had just thought and all was silent.

I'm gonna run another circle and then go ask Emily directly what happened.

I wouldn't say anything about your…ideas just ask her what Hannah said. Then go to her.

Don't worry I wont say anything dumb. I took off to Sam and Emily's so I could ask her what happened and eat something, plus Hannah doesn't get out of school for another five hours. Ugh Im going to have to explain to the principal why I wasn't in school today. After getting to Sam's I phased and changed into my clothes. Then I went inside to get the full story.

[Hannah]

Well this makes my day a whole lot better, I thought. I stared up at the walls of the bathroom stall I was locked in, crying. Someone had called me a slut, and taped a sign to my back with the words,

Easy, cheap, and long-lasting. 1-317-850-SLUT.

Along with that, Michael had been coming up and slapping my butt, and whispering stuff in my ear. It made me so uncomfortable and I really hated it. So now the whole school is talking about how I'm probably already pregnant because of my seventeen year old boyfriend.

Seth has it so easy, I thought, why couldn't I be the older one in this pair. I drew in a shaky breath, I'm not going to sit here crying all day, Im gonna do what I came in here for. I unzipped my back pack and pulled out the pregnancy test I had bought at the drug store in Seattle, I couldn't buy it in town because everyone knew everything in this dumb little town. I read the instructions again, and stuck it under me and did my business. I recapped it, and stuck it back in the box, and put the box back in my back pack. Ill look at it after school, I thought. I unlocked the door and washed my hands. Then I walked out of the bathroom with my head high, and my stomach flipping and flopping.

[Seth]

"I'm going to pick up Hannah from school, should I bring her back here?" I asked Emily, as I was picking up my car keys.

"Do you want to talk to her yourself first?" Emily asked.

"Kinda, not really, I'll just talk to her in the car on the way over here, I don't want to say much, I want someone on hand in case I have to phase," I said, hating the wolf gene more than ever. I couldn't be with Hannah when she was hurting, for fear I would hurt her. I want to murder whoever that bastard is that hurt my baby, I thought, sliding the keys into the ignition on my old Ford pickup, and turned it a few times to start it. I pulled up to the sidewalk just as the bell rang. I waited in the car for Hannah. She was one of the first ones out. She looks terrible, I thought. I slammed the door open and was standing in front of her in about five seconds. She started crying, and I hugged her tightly to me, protecting her from bullets if I had to, I one hand on her lower back, and the other on the back of her head. Kids were pointing a little and laughing. I gave them a dirty look and most of them ran away, that was the one good point of being overly huge.

"Seth, can't breathe," she said after a minute, still crying. I released my grip a little, but still hugging her she said,

"So you know?"

"Yeah, come on lets go," I said, opening the door of the car and placing her in it. She dried her tears, and smiled a fake smile. I didn't smile back. I walked around the back of my truck, so I wouldn't have to see her hurt face. At least I don't need to phase yet, I thought, gratefully. I jumped in and started the truck, I took off going the long way so I could talk to her.

"When?" I asked, knowing she'd know what I meant. She drew in a shaky breath,

"About two months ago, it was the first night you didn't stay with me, and I thought it was you at the window, so I opened it up right away, and said he'd kill you if I didn't do it with him."

"But I'm a werewolf," he said, "You know we can't get hurt really."

"That was before I knew about it all, you told me the next day." I could have killed myself right then. It might not have happened if I would have stayed, or would have told her sooner or would have…

"Stop feeling all guilty, it happened and there's nothing you can do about it," she said

"There is too something I can do, I can kill that little bastard," I said, yelling. She cringed away. "Sorry, but I cant help it I'm going to feel guilty for the rest of my life."

"That's stupid," she said, her eyes watering a little, "I'm not four you know, I can take care of myself."

"Not very well, obviously, if I would have been there, I could have killed him right there on the spot."

"Whatever," she said.

"At least your okay, at least he didn't kill you like all the other psychopaths out there, and the best thing is your not pregnant or anything, right?"

"Right," she said, very quietly. We pulled up to Sam's then, a good thing, because I didn't know how much longer I could keep my emotions at bay.

"Why are we here?" Hannah asked, still quiet.

"Because I'm not done talking to you, but I didn't know if id need Sam and Jacob on hand," I said, hating myself for what I was. She sighed and got out of the truck, slamming the door. I sighed and followed her in.

[Hannah]

I need to check that test, I thought.
"I gotta go to the bathroom," I said when I walked in. I went down he hallway off the kitchen to the powder room. I shut the lid of the toilet and sat down on it. I took the box out of my back pack and slid the thin plastic test out of it, keeping my hand over the display screen. I took a big breath and counted to three. I took my hand off and looked down. Then blacked out.

"Hey she's waking up," Embry, said. I looked around. I was in Sam and Emily's living room on the couch. Embry was on a chair near me, watching for when I woke up. Paul and Quill were over near the front door whispering, but stopped after Embry said I was waking up. A second later Emily was at my side. I could care less about all of them, I want my Seth, I cant remember what happened.

"Are you okay?" Emily asked, running her hand across my forehead.

"Yes, What hap-p…" Then I remembered, the test. Oh, the pregnancy test. I got dizzy again, and flopped back onto the pillow. "Uggh…" I put my hands over my face and silently cried.

"Guys, can you leave?" Emily murmured, and I heard the front door open, then close after a moment. Emily padded back to me, and stood silently. I took my hands off of my face, and said,

"What do I do Emily?"

"First, you need to make sure that the test was right, I had Paul go and get five more tests." I laughed in spite of the situation. I could picture Paul at the counter of the drugstore, the clerk giving him odd looks. "You'll have to take them when you can, because obviously you cant take them all at once. So we'll just keep you drinking lots of orange juice, and hope it makes you fill up faster."

"Iced tea, makes me have to go," I said.

"Oh, well then Ill send Paul for that too," Emily said, calling out for Paul to get some iced tea. I heard a loud groan and then a car starting.

"Where is he?" I asked.

"Well Sam, Jacob, Collin, and Brady, took off after him, after he saw the te-"

"HE SAW IT!" I exclaimed. I figured he had but actually getting it set in stone caused me to freak.

"Yes, he did, and after we had you safely on the couch, he exploded, practically in the living room, and took off into the woods. He changed back into human form a little bit after, because the guys cant hear his thoughts."

"This is all my fault," I said, groaning, "If I hadn't fainted this wouldn't have happened."

"Hannah, stop it, its not your fault," Emily said. Embry and Quill came in. "I thought I told you guys to stay outside?" Emily said in her quiet voice.

"Well we had to tell you-," Quill started but was interrupted by Embry.

"They found him."

"Good," Emily said. My heart fluttered, I wanted Seth here with me.

"They're talking to him right now, to convince him that Hannah needs him, but he keeps saying, stupid stuff."

"What do you mean stupid stuff?" Emily asked. I still couldn't talk.

"Like its his fault, she's like this, stuff like that," Embry said. I started crying again. Embry and Quill shot a nervous glance at each other, then Embry whispered something in Emily's ear.

"She deserves the right to know that as much as it will tear her up," Emily said after he was done. She nodded and motioned for him to tell me.

"Well, uh, Hannah, he, uh, said he wasn't coming back until, uh he killed that kid, that uh, you know got you…pregnant," Embry said, having difficulty saying pregnant with a straight face. I almost passed out again, but instead adrenaline rushed through my bloodstream and kicked my heart up a notch,

"NO HE CAN'T DO THAT!" I screamed, "Do you know what would happen if he got caught or something, he cant do this! Its stupid, all this fuss, I want an abortion anyways! I don't want this kid."

"Isn't that a little harsh?" Emily said, "Once they do it, you cant change it, youll have to know that you killed a developing human for the rest of your life."

"I don't care, don't you see how much this is hurting HIM! I don't care about me, I only care about Seth!" Emily bit her lip, not knowing what to say. "I want Seth home, someone go get him!" I looked at Embry with a glare that could probably scare a vampire.

"Sam, and Jacob, are trying to convince him to come back but it's not working," Embry said, "but maybe if we tell him what's going on here, he will"

"Let's go!" Quill shouted, happy to get away from all the crying. They ran out, and we heard Paul drive up. He ran in and set the two gallon bottles or iced tea he had bought, on the counter and ran back out. Emily looked at me.

"I need to pee," I said. She handed me a box. I looked at it and sighed,

"Why do I have to take more, I already know I'm going to get an abortion?"

"I think you should think about it," Emily said, " I know the point of imprinting is to make stronger werewolves, but they don't make you fall in love with someone so you can kill the baby. Even if it wasn't with Seth, you still have the power to create one, that's why he imprinted on you."

"Yeah, that's why he's not here, because he doesn't really love me," I said, "that's why he's not here."

"Hannah stop you're being exactly how he is, childish," Emily said.

"Whatever," I mumbled, and walked into the bathroom, locking the door.

[Seth]

"Hannah, Hannah, wake up!" Her head was flopped back on my arm, and I held her body in my arms

"Oh my god, look at this," Emily said, holding a strip of plastic. She held it up to my face, and it took me a minute to realize what it was. That little strip of plastic, with the blue plus sign, sent me into a rage of fury. I laid Hannah on the couch, and took off, the house long behind me. [End Flashback]

I heard someone behind me a ways. I ran until I could phase back. I phased back and hid, until Sam, Jacob, Collin, and Brady ran past. I was still crying when they circled back and found me. I didn't care. They phased back, and slipped on their clothes, handing me extra shorts they had brought.

"Thanks," I mumbled.

"Come on Seth come back, Hannah is fine, and she needs you," Sam pleaded.

"No, I'm not going back, until I kill that monster, that hurt her like this."

"How do you know she's hurting, maybe she wanted it to happen?" Collin said.

"Shut up you're not helping," Jacob said.

"There is no way Seth she wanted that, she is a wreck, but I think its mainly because you're not there with her, she's awake now, I can here Embry, they're coming this way."

"Well then I'm running again," I said. Embry, Quill and Paul ran up right then and phased back.

"Seth, you need to come home, Hannah's going crazy, do you want her to be sad because you're not there?"

"No but I'm not going until that Michael kid is dead," I said.

"She doesn't want you to kill him, she just wants you to come home," Quill said, "she says she wants an abortion thing, if the test was even right."

"That's retarded," I said, "she doesn't need to do that, Ill come home." I sighed, and took off the shorts tying them to my leg, then phased, accidentally swiping Jacob on the arm. They all phased then.

"Sorry, Jake," I thought.

"It's okay, lets go." We took off, them all thinking different supporting things. I blocked them all out, thinking only of Hannah.

We got there and I phased outside the door, slipped on my shorts, and walked in. Hannah wasn't on the couch.

"Where is she?" I asked Emily, who was standing outside the bathroom door. She pointed at it. "Oh." The door opened, and Hannah came out looking at the ground, and handed another test to Emily. She looked up finally and saw me. Her face lit up, and she smiled her big smile. She stood in front of me, unsure if she could hug me or not, I think. I beat her to it, and pulled her into a light hug. She locked her arms around my waist, her hands in little fists. I kissed the top of her head, and tried not to get too upset. She was crying again, and when she let go of me my shirt was soaked.

"Sorry," she said, still crying. I wiped the tears off her face, and said,

"Its fine," I looked at the guys, and Emily, "Can you give us a minute?" Sam looked wary, but said,

"We'll wait in the garage, you guys talk in the kitchen, so we'll be close enough if you need us."

"Thanks," I said, as they filled out the garage door, and left us in the kitchen.

"Seth, I'm so sorry, I mean this is all my fault and now its making every one-"

"Stop its not your fault, its that stupid bastard that did this to you, its his fault not yours," I said, "I just wish you would have told me that it happened then instead of now."

"I'm sorry," she said.

"I swear if you say you're sorry one more time…"

"Sorry, oh I mean I wont."

"Good. Now are you sure you want an abortion? Are you sure its still early enough?"

"I don't know, Seth, I don't know anything, I don't know what to do. I do know that I don't want this baby, I'm fourteen for heavens sake."

"You said the other day you were ready for sex, isn't this the same thing?"

"I meant I was ready with you, I had already done it before and didn't want you to know, so I was trying to get you to do it with me and think it was your baby."

"Don't you think I would of found out sooner or later?"

"Yeah, but I was planning on you having sex with me so I was betting on later, but that didn't work out," she said, looking at the ground, "I'm not ready for this Seth, I was wrong, I'm sorry."

"IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT! I roared.

"Yes, it is, because the only reason I wore short skirts and low cut shirts was so you would want me more, and you'd do it with me, then I guess I attracted attention from other guys, then he raped me, and then I was more determined to get you to do it with me, because I had a felling like I was pregnant all along."

"Oh my gosh Hannah, I'm so sorry," I said, shaking my head, "If I would have just told you the real reason I couldn't have sex with you this would never have happened."

"What real reason?" she asked, "You're embarrassed of me right?"

"Holy crap, NO, Hannah you're the most beautiful girl on this planet, no way would I be embarrassed of you."

"I mean because Im younger than you," she said.

"Well that's kinda part of it," I said. She bit her lip, and started to stand up. "Wait I didn't mean the embarrassed part, I just meant because you're younger, and I'm practically eighteen, that is almost rape, if I have sex with you. It just didn't feel right to me."

She stood up then and slipped he arms lightly around my neck, and pressed her forehead into my collarbone.

"I'm Sorry, Hannah." She backed up then, and sat back on the island chair. She just looked at me for a minute, and I did the same. Emily burst in with a smile, and was holding up the test. It showed a pink minus sign.

"This is a good sign, the first test might have just been a dud," Emily said. I looked at Hannah, and she looked extremely happy, but still sad, because of the wet tear stains on her face. "I suggest, we go to a real doctor," Emily said. Hannah looked scared again, but nodded her head.

"You want me to see if Carlisle can do it hear instead?" I asked her. She nodded her head. "Ill be back." I kissed her forehead and ran out, and phased, taking off to the Cullen's.