Chuck vrs the Suicide: This is a what- if story Sarah's refusal to open up, and the stress within Chuck had built up..The depression had reached a critical point. Chuck had refused to eat, or even talk, Ellie could tell something had reached a head. Deep down she knew that it must have something to do with Sarah and her brother. So instead of tying up Morgan and eating ice cream and drinking scotch he went to another dark place.
Ellie walked over to John Casey's Apt and knocked on his door. After the second knock Casey opened the door. "I am sorry to bother you John but I really need your help. "she began.
"What seems to the problem?" Casey replied.
"John, I am worried about Chuck he is acting strangely"
"Strangely, how I just left him at the Buy-More and he seemed ok."
"Chuck is usually a usually happy person, but he has been through a lot and I am worried that he and Sarah are having a serious fight."
" I am sure he is ok Ellie, he is a big boy!"
"John you don't understand, Chuck is usually ok but the last time I saw him this way he had been kicked out of Stanford, betrayed by Bryce, and then that bitch Jill finally plunged a knife into his heart. He went to a very bad place, and he was thinking very bad thoughts. Luckily Morgan and I were there to help him, because he was thinking of suicide then. But when I saw him this morning he had that look in his eyes. Have you any idea where he is John?".
John quickly thought that Chuck was in Castle when he left earlier, and he did had a funny look in his eyes. "I'll look for him Ellie don't worry."
"Well at least the good thing is we he doesn't have a gun!", Ellie exclaimed in relief.
As soon as John closed the door he pulled up the GPS on Chucks watch. He was still in Castle which by itself was not strange but as he pulled up video there he saw Chuck on a stool in the armory, but what made a large lump form in his throat was the presence of a .45 caliber pistol in his hand.
"Fuck No!"
He called Walkers phone, after several rings she picked it up.
Yelling loudly, " Walker we have a Code Red in Castle, leave now!"
Sarah responded, "What is the situation, Casey."
"Walker your boy-toy is going to off himself because of you idiot, go NOW!"
Sarah could not believe what she had heard, and ran out of her hotel room and drove frantically to Castle. When she arrived Casey was already exiting his Crown Vic, they ran to the entrance and both were unnerved at the sight before them. Sitting quietly was Chuck in the Armory crying and in his hand was the .45 fully loaded and the safety off. Casey wanted to yell at the nerd to put the gun down but deferred to Sarah who softly spoke to Chuck.
Chuck saw her slowly walking toward him, and told her to stop. His hands were shaking and tears falling from his eyes and his words quivering as he spoke.
"Chuck what are you doing?" she asked softly.
"I can't continue doing this Sarah; I am so messed up right now. I have lost everything, my parents, Stanford, Being betrayed by who I thought was my friend, Jill's betrayal. But I lost the only person who meant the most to me, was you Sarah. I don't have the strength to bear it anymore. After so many years I had someone come into my life who made my life worth living again. I looked into your eyes, those beautiful blue eyes and I could bear anything life threw at me."
Sarah's heart was finally breaking as his words hit home, she did love him but her job as his handler prevented her from being open to him. Telling him her hopes, dreams, of being that normal girl he so wanted. Telling him that when she kissed him, it was her own heart that fluttered uncontrollably. She wanted to tell him that she would retire to her bed at night having intense fantasies of making love together.
She then heard the bullet being clocked into chamber. Casey yelled, "Walker, tell him the truth! Protocol be dammed!, Now Walker tell him the truth."
Chuck raised his head and looked at her, "What truth, Sarah?"
"Chuck, the truth everything is that I do love you, I have been in love you from the first moment I met you and you fixed my phone. I loved you when we were eating at the Mexican restaurant and you made me laugh. I never had a man who's company I totally enjoyed as much as you. But I knew that if my bosses found out I would be reassigned and a new handler would have just thrown you into a Bunker. Because I loved you I fought to keep you out of it to protect you and your family. You're my Chuck and I love you, because without you I am just a spy. But you are my reason and hope that we can have a future together. Chuck, please let me show you how I feel. "Sarah slowly closed the distance between them and slowly touched his hand. Her other hand cupped his face and she brought her lips to his and softly kissed him.
"Chuck, please let me take the gun away from you and I promise we will talk. To hell with the CIA or Beckman, you are my life and I need you."
Chuck allowed her to take control of the gun and she passed it to Casey. He inspected it and it was fully loaded and the round was chambered.
Casey spoke to both of them, "Chuck she does love you and even I know that. I may not show it but I can see how she is when you are around. Hell, she is a basket case without you. Don't you ever pull a stupid stunt like this again! Walker, sit down now and stop being Sarah Walker the spy and be Sarah Walker the girlfriend for once in your life and tell him. Hell if they try to 49B you I will shoot anyone who tries to break you two lovebirds myself. Which is good since I need to shoot someone soon, my trigger finger is getting itchy!"
Sarah and Chuck just held on to each other, both crying at what they could have lost. Chuck, she said while looking deeply into his eyes. "I have a new mission that is to be the best girlfriend and hopefully more to you for the rest of our lives. Plus you do realize I never fail a mission, don't you? "saying this with a sly grin on her lips.
She kissed him ravenously and her hand groping all that was Chuck.
Casey looking in mocking disgust, "Would you two stop acting like two dogs in heat, dam I need a cold shower."
Sarah could only utter, groaning "OH BOY, Chuck I never knew you were soooo big!"