i dont own Furuba.-
juat some drabble about tohrus feelings , being pressured to go farther , feeling used.
Tohru lay in bed pondering what had just happened , again. She loved meeting him in his room late at night so they could do things to eachother, she loved how nice he always was to her in private, but most of all she loved him. Tohru smiled to herself as she thought of his warm body and loving kisses. But with each morning she began to doubt. The mornings after they would meet would be awkward , he would be distant and act as if they were strangers living in the same house.
It had been happening for over a month now , Tohru and Kyo meeting in Kyo's room to spend time alone together.
"Kyo , do you love me ?" she would ask .It seemed like a such a simple question and everytime he would answer yes. She felt like she had really gotten to know Kyo so much better.She really enjoyed the conversations they had .But most of the time they would kiss and do many other things to eachother , and lately that seemed to be all they were doing.
/flashback/
Tohru layed on Kyo's bare chest , they smiled at eachother. Kissing gently, Kyo's hand slid up her skirt to the hem of her panties. "Is that all you want to do ?"she asked.
"what do you mean" Kyo answered.
Tohru was flustered she loved Kyo and just wanted to be with him , kissing, and talking to eachother in hushed voices so as not to wak anyone in the house. But it seemed all Kyo was interested in was trying to have sex with her. Am I a bad person ? She asked herself . Is this normal , or I am just bad at being Kyo's girlfriend? I love him so much , and he says he loves me and if he wants to go further maybe we should. Oh mom, what should I do ? Why can't Kyo just be happy with this? I'm not ready for more.
/end flashback/
Tohru trudged down the path from Shigures house into the woods. She needed some time away from the house to think. She pulled her zip-up sweater closer to keep out the cold fall breeze and cradled her mother's picture in her arms. Mom , I wish you were here. I feel so alone. I thought that with my newfound companionship with Kyo I would have someone to tell everything to . But now I just feel ...horrible all the time. Tohru walked slowly and watched the wind detach leaves from the trees.