levi pov
I wake up smothered by "his" arms wrapped around me- God ! He always manages to cuddle me in my sleep ... No matter how hot it may be - , "his" limbs tangled with mine and his feathery-light hair on my forehead ... I reach out my hands to grab his arm and end up grabbing nothing ... Oh yeah I forgot his right arm was no longer attached to his shoulder ... Silly me...
let's just hope he hasn't noticed ... I wouldn't want him to feel deminished by the loss of his arm ... Not like I give a shit about that kind of thing : he has proven more than enough times how that doesn't hinder him in any way ...
No longer caring about how hot it is ... I lauch into his chest. No matter how much I complain about the heat, if I really didn't want us to cuddle,I'd after all push him away -well I wouldn't need to, cos, knowing him, he'd understand if I even as much as wanted space ...
Anyway, I plunge into his chest, engulfing myself in his warmth...I don't even need to see him to make sure he's by my side, I just feel him ... Smell him. And it feels so incredibly good to just rest my forehead against his tender,soft ...chest ? Wait ... His skin sure feels like velvet but if there's one word that encompasses his chest it would be "hard" ...
I open my eyes in a frenzy ... Look for him and only see my hands clamping on the soft white sheets ... My eyes water up, my stomach sinks and my throat tightens as I take it all in ... What I thought was his warmth was nothing but the sheets burning up from the morning sunrays... What I thought was his hair was in fact my pillow ... What I mistook for his chest was ... "His" pillow ...
Fuck ! So it wasn't just me being paranoid, he really had left ... Took everything and just left ... My hands instantly release the sheets, and I leave the bedroom ... Even when I promised myself I would sleep on the couch I still ended up sleeping here ! Fuck ! This bed ... This ROOM is just too much ! I can't help imagining him beside me every fuckin morning !
I really need to brace myself ... Do something , ANYTHING , about this ... And maybe he'll come back ... No ! Not come back ... But at least explain ... Yea explain. I had thought we would stick together ... No he made me believe that and then just went and tossed me aside ...
Fuck ! Fuck you Erwin !
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... End of chap 1 ...
So this is s really short chap but i ll try the next ones a little bit longer ... I wrote this with my ipod so if there are any mistakes please do tell me ^^
Also ... There may never be regular updates so ...uhm ... Be patient with me ^^ Ah! Forgot to say this: these caracters don't belong to me ... Nor does shingeki no kyojin. It's Hajime Isayame's and if u haven't read it ( yes i m talkin about the manga ) go read it asap !
Oh! And tell me what you think ^^