The thoughts running through her mind became more desperate as the idea of losing the family she had her heart set on collapsed into dust, snatched by the one who she formally called a Husband. "He refused reason- he'd take her away from us". "There is nothing left for us as a family!" Hope was no longer slim, hearing him down the phone reaffirming that he wanted full custody solidified what she had to do, but by no means wanted to.
Blackmail, threats and the arrogant phone messages took their toll on Sakura, seeing it as a battle she couldn't win and because of his intentions he was readily painted as an enemy in her mind. Defeat is one thing, Victory for the opposition is another entirely, she went on and on about how the baby would bring them closer together- this was before Ryan entered the picture in a relationship with Sakura. It dawned on her that she was going to lose because of her own action, keeping the ear rings on to prove to Ace that she was committed to Ryan had backfired and now she was dealing with the consequences. Fight or flight, for now flight was her only option.
She couldn't lose her to him, or rather she couldn't stand losing to someone who used blackmail as a tactic, it had became beyond personal when the baby entered the mix, and started to fight her nature when he wouldn't accept joint custody. Then it took on a part that even she wouldn't fight, her stubborn- if insane in terms of priorities- moral code. She couldn't let herself be manipulated, have something that was such an intimate part of her fall to someone else. The video didn't have leverage on Sakura, she was too stubborn to give in to that, even if the threat coming to fruition would end her.
The sickening feeling of knowing what was going to happen on the drive there, ordering the Hospital into a Quarantine. A passerby would be easily misled into thinking she was ill as she walked through the door, trembling and pale, sick both physically and mentally, yet she kept walking, with Ryan's shadow and silence- only her mind was speaking to her "It's the only way to win!" "He never loved us- he would never do this to us!" "We can have a new family!"
The man in the white mask applied a cold lotion to her stomach, placing an ultrasound over it- the monitor flickering with life more than when she and Ace first ever looked at the same screen- Sakura gazing up to the ceiling, eyes clenched tightly shut to hold back the tears as she trembled- gripping Ryan's hand as though she was holding on for dear life.
The sharp needle piercing her arm right to her very soul
"Count to Ten Miss Redford"
One. Two. Thre-
She wanted to scream, to make it just stop, to find another way. Her thoughts drifted as she fell to sleep on the operating table, her body becoming limp and losing grip on Ryan's hand while he held her phone texting Ace.
Her hope and dreams for what she wanted in the past were removed, the blood and life now being discarded by the professional. Ace had done more than Ryan ever could to turn her into a killer, he had placed her against herself and in the process she'd killed the most innocent of all life that could be imagined, the way of thinking of Sakura was both literally and figuratively removed from within herself. The woman who woke up in the recovery room was no longer Sakura in any form people would recognize.