Hold Me
By spheeris1
Pairing: Hmm…..sort of various/Anthy
Warnings/Notes: Anthy POV, poetry, rant-ish in tone (well, Anthy is ranting…..), odd?
Inspired by music mainly
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Can I tell you this?
Will you keep it a secret?
For no one can know about this….
This feeling inside of me.
For I have no feelings.
No emotion.
No hot, no cold.
No in, no out.
Like a leaf, I blow were the wind blows.
But oxygen is low today.
And the windows are closed.
And that damned garden has
Begun to rot.
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Touch me. Please.
Connect your body to mine
And never leave.
I feel like a vampire,
Wanting to feed on you.
To gain the life I am losing,
Day by day.
With the strength goes the mind.
And I can no longer
Hold that golden watering can.
So I must be insane by now.
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Insane with longing.
Insane with desire.
Insane with hate.
Insane with emotions that are
Overwhelming me.
They stab at me, cuts on
My body that burn.
And they never heal.
Never.
Nor do I want them to.
I love this pain.
I love this feeling….I want this feeling.
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Can you believe this?
What I am telling you?
That past the fantasy, past the castle,
Past the roses, past the sword…..
Past all of those idiotic things
Is my soul.
And all it wants is delicious
And never ending contact.
I have to laugh.
For I always wanted it.
Slaps, kisses, sex.
I wanted it.
I needed it.
For then I could become
What I am.
Decaying Rose Bride and born-again witch,
The power all seek.
And can never, ever have.
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Power keeps me company.
Better than any fallen prince.
Better than any pure heart.
Better than any weak fools and braggarts.
But curse my body, betraying
Me like this….
Don't you understand?
I want you.
All of you.
And yet….I hate every
Single one of you.
Can you despise what you crave?
Can you want what you loathe?
What a silly question!
Of course you can.
Of course….
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END