Honesty, is such a lonely word
One-shot, BakuraxRyou
Please read the lyrics carefully...and ask yourself about it...I wrote this fic and listen to the song, I cried. And please leave reviews.
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Bakura POV
There I was, sitting over on the couch boringly flipping through channels. I was certainly waiting for a friend of mine, who has been very close to me. I never thought he could have been out for this long…
Ryou has been my hikari for so long, at countless times, he never asks why I am even his yami that is if we argued. But it's been very long years, and I treated him like my little brother…
Again, I flipped through the channels for the last time; I let out a loud huff and a snort. I got up and walked to the CD player, the song that caught my attention was the song…Honesty?
I blinked; curiosity gets to me pretty easily. I shrugged and put on the CD, playing the player as I plopped down the chair and the song started playing…
If you search for tenderness, it isn't hard to find…
You can have the love you need to live…
If you look for truthfulness, you might just as well be blind…
It always seems to be so hard to get…
Honesty, is such a lonely word…
Everyone is so untrue…
Honesty, is hardly ever heard…
But is mostly what I need from you…
I can always find someone say it sympathize,
If I wear my heart of my sleeves
But I don't want some pretty face to tell my pretty lies…
All I want is someone to believe…
Honesty, is such a lonely word…
Everyone is so untrue…
Honesty, is hardly ever heard…
Mostly what I need from you…
The song played in my mind, the lyrics slowly melodies and calmly played inside of my heart. The beat was so slow; the music is so calming…
But the lyrics got my attention very much. Is one line that says…
Honesty, is such a lonely word…
Everyone is so untrue…
Honesty, is hardly ever heard…
Mostly…what I need from you…
I closed my eyes softly; my feelings got me curious, confused. But all of it, it was something missing in me…about someone? Why…
Until I realize, all in my life I have been living in the world full of lies…yes, honesty is hardly ever heard. Is such a lonely word…everyone is so untrue...
Because of lies I knew, and the lies people kept inside, was it why…we have been so lonely…
That was until I realize…I lied in all my life before, in pretend and in fakeness. Maybe it wasn't because I am the dark soul, but maybe….it was just me.
Honesty…
Is such a lonely word...
Everyone is so untrue…
I looked down on my hands; I got up to my feet slowly. Until I looked around, I saw Ryou's picture. My eyes widened as I walked to it, picking the frame up and stared. My mind kept thinking…
Have I lied to Ryou before…
The person who I…trust so much…
Someone who has been my family…the only family I got…
I lightly clutched the frame, until I shed some tears. The one bitter tear trickled down my cheek.
One tear…falling down from my eyes from what I see that hurts me regretfully…is enough to feel hurt.
I looked to the picture again, with only one thoughtful stare; I begin to cry…I kept thinking, asking myself…
Have I lied to this one family I trust…
"RYOU!" I shouted bitterly.
Honesty, is hardly ever heard…
There was no answer.
But I didn't wait…although I did earlier but…right now…
I thought I have lied to him, even with the darkest or the lightest secrets I have.
All I need was someone to believe…
I fell down on my knees, clutching to the frame in my hands and held it closely.
"Ryou, I'm sorry…if I had…ANSWER ME DAMN IT RYOU!" I shouted again with sad sobs.
I sobbed and cried, until a phone call was heard. I jerked away, placing the frame back and ran to the phone.
"Hello?" I quickly answered.
"Hello, Bakura?" there replied back the familiar voice.
I beamed lightly, sobbing and sniffling.
"Bakura…are you crying…?" Ryou asked me, his voice was soft and caring. I sobbed and ran a hand through my hair.
"No silly…no…" I said softly, my voice was never this nice…this gentle…
Ryou chuckled, "I can hear you Bakura…I know you very well…"
"R-Ryou…"
Somehow…my instinct tells me I must tell…or I am maybe the pretty face, with pretty lies…
Honesty, is such a lonely word…
Ryou stopped the chuckle, "Yes…Bakura?" his voice was concerning.
"I…Ryou…I…I never want to lie to you…but I'm only afraid if…I-if I keep inside and lying to you…I-I might lose you and you'll…leave me…" I said, my tone sounded trembling.
I knew Ryou was confused, by the sound of his voice, "Bakura…?"
Everyone is so untrue…
"Ryou…I never want to lie to you…but if did, I only…ask you for forgiveness…"
"Bakura, this isn't yourself…" he said softly.
Honesty, is hardly ever heard…
I took a deep breath before softening my eyes, clutching the phone, "Ryou…I'd love you…"
There was silence after I confessed…
I mentally prayed I wasn't saying the wrong thing…but if it is, it is atleast what came from what I believe I said wasn't a lie…
Mostly what I need from you…
"Bakura…I'd love you too." He said with a hint that he was smiling, that smile…the smile that shines my life everyday. That eased me…
I jerked my head up in surprise, "You do…R-Ryou…"
"And I'll be back later, I got dinner and later on, we'll play some games! You know the dancing game I showed you?" he said with a chuckle.
I was surprised for a while until my eyes softened and smirked softly, nodded slightly.
And that was when I think…
Sometimes lies maybe the things we need for the good…
But sometimes the more lies we keep,
The sadder we get, the more misery we bear…
Everyone needs honesty…
Only when we are filled with regret…
Our lies are what we need when we are in trouble…
Honesty…is what we need from our love ones…
The End