Featuring Breathe into me by Red. Okita, Kagura, and the love, hate and pain than runs between them, all down to their desperation for each other. When Kagura must leave to face her fate, how can he let her go so easily?

And this is how it feels when I ignore the words you spoke to me
And this is where I lose myself when I keep running away from you
And this is who I am when, when I don't know myself anymore
And this is what I choose when it's all left up to me

"LET ME GO!"

"CALM THE FUCK DOWN KAGURA IT'S NOT GONNA HAPPEN!"

"I SAID LET ME GO!"

No matter how much she screamed and thrashed against the bastard's strong hold tightly clutching her thin wrists, he wouldn't let go. Even when she sent a flying kick aimed at his head, using all the momentum her small body could muster, it wouldn't land.

His large hand caught around her small ankle, suspending her body midway in the air, twisted it around in one lithe movement, spinning her on one heel, throwing her slender back against the bloodied front of his shirt. Letting go of his grip on her ankle and locking in around her waist, tightening her body against his, whilst his other hand moved to her chin, titling it back then slipping down to her neck, further leading it back all the way till her fiery hair pressed into the hollow beneath his clavicle.

She gasped with the proximity, the air knocked out of her from the speed, his fingers pressed close against her trachea, her body arched against him. She gasped as the tears unwillingly let themselves free, trickling down her pale cheeks, mixing with the red hot blood pulsing from the cuts all over, blending with them till rivulets of cerise flow along the edge of her jaw.

And she knew more than anything that he could feel them, as they streamed across his fingers blocking their path down her neck, she could feel his fingers barely loosen, the taught muscles of his arms that encircled her and his body enveloping her, tense with emotion.

Breathe your life into me
I can feel you
I'm falling, falling faster
Breathe your life into me
I still need you
I'm falling, falling
Breathe into me

"I am not letting you face that bastard" his normally impassive voice, became strained and husky, the tenor dark as it hissed low in her ear, his threat sending a shiver down her spine. Never had he sounded so strongly about a matter, so filled with contempt at another soul. His reaction to her wishes provoking unfathomable feelings that rouse from their suppression deep down.

Small hands grasped helplessly at the vice around her waist, the shackle around her neck, eliciting the causer to visibly wince at her clear lack of strength, her usual vigour dampened down by pain, sorrow and physical inability, thanks to the severe beating she had taken. None the less she persisted, folding her hands around as much as they could to his limbs, wrenching at them with all the will that had long since left her.

Azure eyes squinted against the force, the pressure, her doll-like features scrunched up from the pain of exertion, the heavy toll of emotion on the edge of letting lose, the brink of insanity, the abyss of darkness.

"P…plea..se…p..le..a.s…e…." she panted between breaths and the constant struggle of freedom from his grasp.

Momentarily she felt his fingers tighten, further restricting her breathing, crushing her ribs before they let loose completely, both arms relocated to now wrap entirely around her slender form, pressing her flush against himself, his body warmth a warm welcome to her.

"Why…" he whispered in her ear once more, and she could barely hear the cracking of his voice. His resolve faltering, the overwhelming numbness of imminent loss cracking crevices in his heart from which darkness would endless pour consuming his being, his existence.

And it broke her heart hearing the sheer pain in his voice, the confusion and hurt, that she so badly wanted to smooth away. Never had he let his guard down like this in front of her, not enough to hold her tight for his own sake, nor stop her doing something they both knew would kill her.

"Sougo… stop… you look ugly making that face…"

"You can't even see me"

"I can feel you"

Their whispers echoed through the darkness as his legs gave out, making their bodies slide down to the ground, his arms still wrapped tight around her, even on his knees with her small frame between them.

"Sougo I have to"

"You don't!" he almost shouted as he buried his face in the curve of her neck, kissing the thin skin under which the constant thrum of her jugular beat beneath.

His breath burned her neck as his lips moved against it, uttering the words which he prayed would never be their final.

"Promise me… you will return…China"

"I promise"

Nothing more needed to be said, his hold on her went lose around her waist, and she pulled free, pushing on his knee to raise herself up as she stumbled forth, limping and staggering, shaking as she retrieved her violet weapon from the rubble littered around them. Her breath short and shallow, the blood refusing to clot under the expanse of gashes carved across her body, dizzying her with the blood loss. Even as she burst through those doors with her last ounce of strength, her energy and passion, despite her sorry state, impeccable.

And this is how it looks when I am standing on the edge
And this is how I break apart when I finally hit the ground
And this is how it hurts when I pretend I don't feel any pain
And this is how I disappear when I throw myself away

The oxygen in his punctured lungs never enough, the fragility of his worn body only showing through now that he'd let her go, he allowed his hands to search the ground for his own scathed weapon, blood seeping as his fingers were slit by its discovery. His ruby eyes closed in agony, as he forced his body up, grasping at thin air as he tried to stabilise his movements, aiming them towards the door, towards the receding figure of the woman he no doubt, loved.

His body only human could barely keep up with the fire of his soul, the ache of it practically burning his very core.

Coming to lean against the side of the door with an audible thud, his eyes bearing witness, as she tore through the air, flying with her last reserves of energy, her arm pulled back poised ready to attack with the umbrella in her hand.

It was the last blurry vision he saw before his body gave out completely, allowing him to slide from his support leaning against the door, his blade clattering against the hard floor as his body fell to accompany it, the dull sound echoing with finality throughout the empty room.

On his face was his first and possibly his last ever tender smile, tainted with the red pouring down it, pooling around him, as it drowned out his existence from the face of reality.

Breathe your life into me!
I'm falling, falling faster
Breathe your life into me!
falling, falling, falling
Breathe into me

A/N: wrote this whilst procrastinating writing for other things. Amazing innit, i manage to put of studying by writing, but I put of writing other things by writing this. Really, how am i gonna get nywere in life, can I make money outta ff?

First time doing and actually uploading this kinda thing, want to know thoughts and if its worth writing more, therefore review.

Also any prompts for any pairings I currently write for or okikagu, or anything else for that matter, feel free to give, im pretty up for it now (again more procrastinating).

Btw; nyone else sitting the ukcat? Really WHAT is that shit! and WHY did i book mine so bloody early T_T

Bbtw; ny suggestions for summaries for this, i really couldnt rite one, also for Raising Hope, i just couldnt! OTL