Hey there guys. I've writing a very long and boring English essay about love stories, when I had this idea.
Enjoy and please review. HAPPY EASTER, I'm celebrating a new arrival broody haha.
based on Adele - someone like you. Amazing album. amazing voice, amazing talent.
sorry about mistakes structural or otherwise, having trouble with my dyslexia recently :( so I really hope you enjoy. Thanks to everyone reviewing my other stories xx
The tears rolled down both cheeks. Hanna stood by, wondering if she should have told me.
I couldn't breathe, I couldn't speak. So instead I did what I could.
*BEEP
Hanna looked down, the phone screen had illuminated. She must have saw my name by the confused reaction looking my way.
Its okay Han. I'd rather find out from you, then some stranger or worse bumped into him.
I still love you.
She looked up nodded give me a hug, then motioned she was leaving.
Staring at the small now packed up dorm. I wish I could return to rosewood 3 years prior, and change the decision I once made.
*Flashback
July 16th
"I'm moving to New York, the city is mine for the taking"
each girl Squealed holding up my acceptance letter. Hanna explained her choice to UCLA for a year fashion course, which then was continued by another year in New York.
I winked "I'll see you there"
Spencer, the ever so clever Spencer was accepted into Harvard, following in the family law footsteps. Emily was moving to some European Olympic training, university for obvious reasons.
Here we were happy, over A and moving on. The excitement filled the barn Spencer had now gained back. An hour later after all the "were college girl" comments we sat silenced, each thinking the same. Ali. She went missing for this barn, she should be here with us.
*over.
I took a deep breath, turned away from the boxes and turned toward the door just as the removal guys trailed in. I had barley any stuff but my parents insisted on removal men, so here they are.
I joined the other girls in the car, college was over. We were adults in this world. The drive to rosewood, was filled with the usual small talk and the odd catch up. Each girl was treading carefully around me, and I knew why. They had to know, what I only found out an hour ago.
Rosewood, fresh air summer heat and suburban streets. It's exactly how I remember it. My first, point of call was getting to the apartment me and Spencer had purchased weeks earlier. It was bigger then I remember and so empty. I took the personal belongings, I had ride with me in the car to what I imagined to be my room. A bed, desk and various other furniture we'd already moved up made me feel a little more homely. I took my journal out and began to scribble hours past, thoughts poured and emotions flew.
Leaving my room, I found the four girls crowded round the food settled on the counter.
"Aria, I was just about to call you. You hungry ? We bought fresh fruit for afters"
I chuckled a little at the idea of that being Spencer's winning argument.
"How'd you Grad from Law"
Spencer's face mocked hurt and again we were all back together after years of college. No awkwardness, no more phone calls, emails and texts. We were here now.
A week later, I was fully settled into my shared apartment. Life was finally on track, I had a job at rosewood day teaching AP English. One thing played on my mind, the day Hanna told me I made a decision, one I believed I'd stick to. Here it is, Hollis English department, Head of English. My hand hovered over knocking but finally found its strength. A voice called from inside "come in" but I couldn't move, it was as though I'd been glued to the floor. "this was a bad idea" I whispered softly turning to walk away when "What was a bad idea ?" questioned from behind me.
"this" was the only word that muttered my mouth as I turned to look into his eyes.
There he was, nothings changed. Black short out of place hair, blue ocean eyes, perfect teeth and a the infamous sweater vest. He expression was quickly changing, happiness, sadness, anger to happiness to sadness again, but none of the less he motioned for me to enter his office.
It was spacious, with a large bookcase brown leather couch and strong wooden desk. I sat on the couch and now it was my turn to motion him to sit. The room was silent nobody spoke, I was concentrating on a mark on the floor. I could take it.
I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.
"Look Ezra I've heard, about your life here and I'm sorry for just turning up, but I love you. I couldn't stay In the same town, knowing you're here. I still think about you every second. I'm so sorry for how I left and I understand how things can not go back to how they were. I need to know though, is she everything I'm not ? Did she give you everything I couldn't ? Does she love you like I did ?"
still all I got why silence.
"Ezra, please talk to me. When did you begin to shy away from the feelings you hold ? You don't need to be scared."
again a long pause, this was useless and I wanted to leave.
"I'm sorry again, I shouldn't have turned up like this but again I hoped you'd see my face and know for me it isn't over"
with that said I got up and made my way to the door but then
"I do Aria."
"you do what ?"
"need to be scared, I'm married. I love you, that'll never change but our circumstances have. When I saw your face, by the twinkle in your eye I knew it wasn't over, I sometimes wonder if it actually is for me BUT that's dangerous territory. "
You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days
"I know and I'm sorry for being here. I had to see you and tell you how I feel, let you know what was going on. It only feels like yesterday we were planning our lives after graduation, the trips away, walks in the park romantic picnics and our first intimate moment."
before he could speak I began again.
Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
"I want you to know, nothing will ever compare to the moments we spent. I regret nothing, no mistakes we made. Nothing about our relationship was wrong, it was love but there memories now, and I know that's all they'll ever be. Who knew how bittersweet this would be, I'm happy I came. I've finally found closure. I hoped however I'd come in here and you were single and we'd kiss and walk off into the sunset. Stupid huh ?"
"listen to me it's not stupid you'll find someone give it time. I'll never regret anything either I love you, just in a different way."
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
"your right I will find somebody like you, but they'll never be you. Just tell me one thing"
"anything Aria"
"promise me you'll never forget me"
as the last words fell from my lips, I'd crumbled broke and cried. I couldn't help it, never had I imagined this conversation to happen unfolding in-front of me even after I'd left.
"There's a promise, we can both keep I'll never forget about you. You were everything real but you hurt me an-"
I knew I had to cut him off I was already on the verge of a breakdown.
"I know. I want you to be happy live your life. Live it to the fullest I'll never forget you Ezra Fitz"
as I stood up he motioned for a hug. There I was tightly locked in his embrace feeling safe but I knew it'd be quickly over. I wondered if his wife, would ask about the tear stains on his shirt, as I continued to sob at the idea of him, having a wife. We pulled apart looked into each others eyes, then fell back into the embrace it was then we both whispered.
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."