I watched the last OVA of Kenshin you know the overview of everything and I decided to write this. Kaoru's thoughts when kidnapped by Enishi.

DISCLAIMER: I don't own Rurouni Kenshin plain and simple.

Ironic isn't it. How being kidnapped by your ex-wife's brother I do not fear death. What fills me with fear is something far worse that death.

I don't know how long it's been, how long I've sat here. I'd sooner die of boredom then by the hand of Yukishiro Enishi. I feel no hatred when I look into his eyes. They hold immense pain and sadness. I remember that I had tried to sneak up on him, injure him somehow, but when I came up to his room, his sobs obstructed my purpose. All I saw was a scared little boy with now one to love or be loved by.

Enishi asks me constantly why I wait for if you do come he has stated to kill me. My answer is the same "I wait, because this is the only way I'll know if I mean anything to you." I feel for him, I know what it is like to be alone. His grief fueled by the injustices of his young life molded into adulthood. I try to ease his pain while I'm here, cooking and cleaning for him.

The phobia I cower from, in a sense, is somewhat like Enishi's. I know my love for you is nothing compared to what you and Tomoe shared. I realized, after you told me, that not a day goes by where you don't think of her.

I wasn't able to bring my father home, but I hoped that maybe I could… When I welcomed you home after your battle with Shishio, I thought you would finally return to me, but her image lies deep within you. I know you will never forget her until the day you depart from this world.

Gazing out over the ocean I can only ask one thing. If I die today, will you remember me? Do I impact you enough to be remembered or will I fade away like a shadow of a dream? Here on this god-forsaken rock; I can only question my self worth. Will anyone know I even existed? Will you regard me as you do Tomoe? I'm jealous of her courage, and her love; people like her are diamonds in the rough.

Maybe I'm just being selfish. Am I asking too much to be remembered? I know my loneliness cannot even compare to what the rest of you have gone through. I was the lucky one; out of all of you I led the easy life.

In my eighteen years of life I doubt my relevance. I laugh bitterly at how ironic this situation is. If no one comes I will be set free to live with all the painful information I stated before. If someone does come than I shall be killed but I will know that a person cared for me before I died.

Death is not a fear I have. It can only end all pain. Living is far more difficult. To live knowing that your relevance on this earth means nothing, knowing that you haven't impacted anyone, knowing that you have touched or changed something for the better is far worse than death. I guess this is one of my ideological dreams.

The answer to my question lies with you. If I am worth something to you someone would come for me right? I wait for you every day seeking to the answer of my question.

I love you; I miss you.

I stare at the cracks between the tiles. I hardly acknowledge Enishi beside me until I here the words that come from his mouth, the words that bring fear and relief at the same time.

Hope you liked it. It used to be named "will someone come for me?" but I changed it around a bit! Please review, its my first oneshot-ish thing!