K: Well, this is my first fic of "I'll Generation Basket". And there really have to be more stories of this wonderful anime.
I own nothing, unfortunately… : (
Anyway, on with the story… ENJOY!
Thinking of You
By: K
Chapter one: Why him?
Hitonari's POV
What's so special about him that he's on my mind whole the time? I can't focus on anything else but him.
My thoughts will always fly back to him.
No matter how hard I try, I'll always see his face before me.
Everything about him fascinates me.
His smile. His voice. The way he walks, gives passes, dribbles, jumps…
But above all…his eyes.
People say eyes are the windows of the soul.
Well, that isn't true for him. Or is it?
In his eyes you can see so much, and at the same time nothing.
They're stormy, rebellious. Most of the time you can also find joy in them. Just like a child.
But if you look really close, they're also sad…
I found out that last one only two days ago.
But why? Why are you so sad?
I want to know… Am I ever gonna find out?
You talk a lot. You immediately say what's on your mind. At least that is what everybody thinks.
You're blunt. Your words are sometimes harsh. But you're only trying to hide.
Everyone thinks you're speaking out of the blue. But you don't. Every word you say is thought about.
You give everybody an image of you. An image that isn't really you…
Why do you pretend? Why do you hide?
Shall I ever know?
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I sigh.
Why? Even on training my mind wanders of to him. Nothing works today. My passes are far from good. Hell, you can even say they're miserable.
Finally it is over.
I immediately leave for the changing room, not even noticing that my team-mates are looking strangely at my disappearing back.
Once I'm there, I let myself fall on the bench. My head resting against the wall. Its cold relaxing and calming me. My eyes closed.
I hear the door open, but don't even look up to see who entered. To be honest, I don't even care.
"So, what's wrong?"
Yama… I should have known. He really is the right person to be the captain of this team. Worried about everybody, but he knows when he has to lay back.
I open my eyes.
"Nothing's wrong."
He shakes his head.
"I wouldn't say so… You were far from playing good. Your thoughts weren't with the game. That's not your normal attitude. You always give yourself 100. So, what's the matter?"
Okay, I take back what I just said. He doesn't know when to stop.
"Nothing's wrong Yama. Just leave it okay."
He shakes his head again.
"Is it about Tachibana?"
I look at him. The shock and surprise clearly written over my face.
How could he have guessed?
He nods. "I thought so..."
"How… What makes you think so?"
He stands up, stretching his knees.
"You avoided giving him passes. Didn't you notice how angry he got?"
I shake my head.
No, I hadn't noticed.
Yama smiles.
"And, your eyes give you away…"
I can just stare at him, while he's walking to the door.
"Yama, wait."
He turns to look at me.
"Does anyone else know?"
A shake of the head.
"No, and I'm not going to tell them. Not until he knows first…"
Now it is my turn to shake my head.
"No, he may never know. He'll hate me if he found out. I don't want to loose his respect, his…friendship."
"Says who?"
The door closes and I'm alone again…
Alone with my thoughts and doubts.
My head rests in my hands.
Why is life so hard? Why is it so difficult?
My mind slowly registers what Yama just said.
What was he saying?
How could he have seen right through me? How come he found out only two days after I found out myself?
And what did he mean with: "Says who?"
No, impossible. He could never love me. I'm just a friend. Hell, if he even sees me as a friend. Probably I'm just his rival.
But what if Yama is right?
Should I tell him? What if he hates me afterwards?
I know I would hate it if I lose his respect.
Why is life so damn difficult?
And why did I have to fall in love with HIM?
Him of all people…
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TBC
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K: So, what did you think of it? Let me know, I would really appreciate it.