If I Told You

If I told you I loved you, would you believe me?

If I told you I wanted you, would to laugh at me?

If I told you I need you, would you say the same to me?

If I left you one day and never came back, would you care?

If I told you I would miss you, would you miss me?

I thought you did love me.

I thought you wanted me

I thought you needed me and would miss me and care that I had left, but when I left you never shed a tear.

I miss you every day and I still want you now.

I left because you didn't notice

I went away because you didn't care.

I cried the night I left, because you didn't notice.

I died the night I found out you had replaced me, because I thought we were best friends, but I was wrong.

I'll think of you forever and I think of you now, but I fear you'll never think of me and I will always wonder why.

I had given my heart and soul to you, but you acted like I wasn't there.

Did I mean anything to you?

Was I only visible when you couldn't handle the world?

I had always been your 'fall back' guy when things when wrong.

You never cared about me.

You didn't even cry when I left.

I don't even think you noticed when I was no longer there.

You were too caught up with your new girlfriend to notice that my presence was absent.

You never noticed me.

You never cared.

I gave everything I had to you when you didn't care about me and broke my heart beyond repair.

I loved you with everything I had.

I went without so many things so that you could live, but you never noticed.

You never cared.

If I told you my heart broke ever time I saw you, would you just laugh?

If I told you I thought of suicide, would you be shocked?

If I told you I almost committed suicide, would you be scared?

If I told you I was dying, would you even look my way?

If you were told I was dead, would you even remember my name?

And so was the story of Mark Cohen and Roger Davis.

Mark left, and Roger didn't notice…he didn't even care.

(Author's Note: I was going through some old stories of mine and I found the first nine lines of this story in another. I thought it could fit in to Mark and Roger's life. Well it also helps that I enjoy Mark/Roger stories, but while watching the movie I always got the feeling that Roger didn't care for Mark like I think he should have. But this is all my opinion. Thanks for reading my story and reviewing would be grand.

Disclaimer: So people don't freak out… I don't own RENT… I just borrow the characters for my own amusement, just like everyone else on this site. At least I assume everyone else because I can't think of any other reason you would write a fan fiction.)