I don't own Vampire Diaries… or any affiliated characters I just needed desperately to respond to the episode "Rose."
You can't know…
I'm losing sleep.
You can't know...
I bathed with vervain…
I thought I lost my locket after all.
I didn't want any other vampires compelling me tonight after what I have been through.
Elijah invaded my mind; I didn't want any other intrusion.
You can't know…
When I saw you sitting there, I didn't consider it an intrusion. When you walked towards me,
kissed my forehead, I welcomed the invasion of space. I'd been waiting for it, for you.
You can't know…
when I looked down those stairs, and found you staring back at me… I wasn't just smiling because I knew I was alive somehow. I smiled because I saw you.
I didn't know I would ever see your face again. And the thought terrified me more than the fight for my life.
I wanted to run to you and let you hold me, show me I was okay and that you were real. I realized as I bounced down those stairs in that terrible house,
in that moment I knew where I wanted to be.
You can't know…
That me feeling "safe," being with my family isn't the real reason I'm not with Stefan tonight, it's not why I am in my own bed alone. I know that I could be with him.
You can't know…
I am not sure I want to be. You tell me that you don't deserve me; that he does. But you have proven to me today, how much you deserve.
And it wasn't the first time you proved yourself. Deep down I trust you to be there for me, no matter what. You held your hand out and lead me to dance;
you ran in front of a stake for me.
You can't know…
I see past all that bravado, that air you put off. You do it to push others away, to protect yourself.
But when I look in your eyes; you can't hide the truth from me.
You Damon are good, better than you give yourself credit for. I wonder why you put yourself down.
You can't know…
I wanted nothing more than to stop those tears from forming in your beautiful blue eyes,
when you thought you were making me forget.
You can't know…
I remember everything, every word. It replays in my mind over and over.
I wasn't sure you would ever tell me.
"I love you, Elena."
You actually said what I needed to hear.
I don't know why you love me.
Unitl I figure out how it's possible too feel so much for two people...
You can't know...
I love you too, Damon.