Those Three Words
A/N: … It's just an idea that came into my head and I was like 'Well, why not…?'.
It's kinda Anst but fluffy at the same time… If that's even possible?
I don't know…
Oh well.
I hope you like it
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Okay, so, I've got a problem. A big problem. Well, I think it's a big problem, and I'm sure you would if you were in my shoes… Anyway, I'm guessing you want to know what it is…? Okay then…. Here goes…
I… I think… I think I love my best friend.
There. I said it. It's really… uh… not good. I bet you're thinking that this kind of thing happens all the time and I should just tell him and get it over with. Either that; or get over myself. Well, I'd like to see what you'd do. It's really not as easy as it looks… It wouldn't be too bad if I knew he liked guys… but he doesn't. And he has a girlfriend. That's right, a girlfriend. I see that as a slight, uh, problem, don't you? Yes, he just happens to be as straight as a ruler, as they say. It wouldn't be too bad if it was a flexi-ruler. But no. Definitely a, huh, non-flexi-ruler.
Yeah, so, he's got a girlfriend. And there is no way they're splitting up any time soon. Seriously, they're like… err… a couple…? Well, okay, that's just plain obvious… The way they act together… It's kinda sickening to watch actually… Yeah, sickening. Some say they must me made for each other because they're both short, blonde and have blue eyes. But she hasn't got a thing on Roxas. No where near as good. No, too me, they where more like one of those couples you see on TV that look sickeningly alike. Either that or like brother and sister, twins even, and that would just be wrong…
I know it's only me who thinks this… But imagine, every time you see your best friend, your heart leaps. But, then, when you see his girlfriend, it turns cold. Your grin turns into a grimace. And you just want to fucking stab her. Especially if they hug or kiss or something. And that happens a lot. Oh yeah, a lot. And guess what, I see it more than everyone else because I'm his best friend. So it really sucks… Like hell…
It's not as it I don't have girls gagging for me as well… Because I do. It's kinda annoying; the way they hang onto your every word, drop hints like leeches suck blood, and cling on to you. Hell yeah, it sucks. Maybe I'm just picky, because most guys would kill for this kind of thing… But, I always compare them to Roxas, and find faults and flaws in all of them.
Another problem was, being Roxas' best friend meant that I was always the one he came to when he had a problem, or just when he needed to talk to someone. Now, I don't have a problem with that, but when he starts talking about Naminé, his girlfriend, I just feel this flaming pit of jealousy, burning inside me. No matter how hard I try; it won't go away. So I always hide it. Why? Because I'd rather have him as a friend than not. Even if it makes almost every second of my life living hell… I just treasure those moments we have alone. I wish he could realise this… I really do. Well, part of me does, the main part. But the other part? No. Never. Not in a million years. That part was scared. Scared of rejection. If I said to anyone that I was scared of being rejected by someone I liked, they'd probably say something along the lines of:
'What?! You, rejected? Come on! You're Axel! The Axel! No one would reject you!'
Okay, so, that would be mainly true. Except the one person that actually mattered probably would reject me… And I know that sounds really stupid, but it's true… God… It's truer than true… It's… real.
Anyways, I'm going off the point. Yes. Roxas, my best friend. He always comes to talk to me if he has a problem. I guess that's how I ended up in this sticky situation…
"Uh, Axel? Can… Can I talk to you for a bit?" I looked up from the Maths homework we were supposed to be doing, and saw the pleading look in his beautiful, deep, sea blue eyes. Why does he have to look so good…? "Please?"
I shook myself out of my little… ahem… day dream.
"Huh… Sure, Roxas… You can always talk to me…"
I really hoped he wasn't going to talk about Naminé… That would really suck…
"Okay, look, I've got this problem… It's hard to explain, Axel. It's kinda about Nam-"
He must have seen my face drop because he cut himself off and sighed. "You know what? It doesn't matter…" He looked away, leaving me feeling cold. "I should go…" He turned to leave. And I let him. I just let him walk away…. I could have killed myself! If only I'd grabbed his arm to stop him from leaving or something… But no. I just had to let him leave… I should have said those three words too him. The ones I'd been practicing over and over in my head. Waiting for the right time to speak them aloud… But when the time came; I blew it, just as usual, I mucked it up.
I wanted to say those three words to him, over and over again, until I got sick of saying them. Why? Because I mean it. I really do. I love him.
And, maybe I don't care what other people think… Maybe I don't care about what's going to happen… Maybe I should stop second-guessing and live for the present. Live for now. Roxas, I hope you don't take these three words I'm going to say to you the wrong way…
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Well, reviews are always nice.
But, if you don't want to you don't have to…
I would appreciate it if you told me whether you like this style of my writing over the normal style you see…
Cuz I like writing both ways
If you did like this kinda… Ansty stoof…. Then please tell me and I'll write mmore of this kinda thing, 'kay?
Nicrafetix
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