Author's note: My first fanfic ever! Please be gentle with me. This is a Meilin/Shaoran fic. It would probably be about unrequited love, but who knows, I might change my mind.

A big thank you to John (Yes! Thanks!) who is probably out there lurking…Not reviewing…Doesn't even have an account…Anyways, thank you, John for making me write and for giving me the courage to do it! Btw, I don't expect a review from you, but would it be so wrong to hope that you'd come to your senses and leave a review? Another thanks to my dear, beloved Icedfirestar for being so excited about this, you helped me become better. Talking to you is a learning process in itself. Thank you for doing the beta-reading. Read her stories, they are great!

And to anyone who even bothers to finish reading this, thanks in advance. It would definitely make a girl happy if you do review. Thank you! I hope you will like the story. :)

Disclaimer: Card Captor Sakura does not belong to me; neither does any of the characters the characters in that story, this fanfic, however, is mine. :P

Chapter 1

It had been years since Meilin Li left Japan to go back home to Hong Kong. She didn't want to go back, but her mother had made her. All she wanted was to be with her beloved – the mysterious, quiet, strong, and aloof Li Shaoran. It seemed to her that was all she was destined for was to become Shaoran's wife, and she had no complaints, for that was all she wanted to be. She had been by his side for all the time she could remember, and her feelings for him had blossomed from mere reliance and awe to deep real love. What was it exactly that drew her to him, even she doesn't know. Maybe it was because of that fact that he always seemed sad…unfeeling. She wanted to change him, make him feel - feel the happiness that she felt every time she was with him, every time he was around - make him smile, make him happy…

She realized that she was naïve for thinking that. She could never change him. She could never make him feel what she felt. She could never make him love her back. It hurt her badly thinking all these years, yet she was still holding on, hoping that one day he would realize how much she loved him and how much of herself she had given unto him. It seemed ironic that Li has changed her, and not the other way around. The cheerful, energetic, confident Meilin everybody once knew had long been gone. In her place, a quiet, brooding, sad young woman had taken over. Everybody had noticed, even herself, she knew she was becoming more and more like him everyday, and as much as she hated it, she couldn't stop it.

Nowadays, she spent most of her time sitting by the window, thinking. She hadn't been out with her friends much lately. Being with those girls had become quite taxing; she didn't want to pretend she was happy anymore, and she didn't want to bring them down…she didn't want to bother them with her pitiful worries.

"Rrrrriiiiiiinnnngggg..." On and on went the phone. She didn't want to answer it. She didn't want to talk to anyone right now. It had been going on for quite a while, and she couldn't help but think it was something important.

"Sheesh...Okay, okay, I'll get it. If only I wasn't home alone today. Ugh!" She muttered under her breath, quite irritated. One of the things she hated most was being disturbed in the middle of her deep broodings.

"Hmmmm...Hello?" She tried to sound patiently. God! I'd die if this is one of my friends who just wants to gossip and talk about things I'm not even a part of, she thought.

"Uhhh..." Her eyes rounded in recognition, "W-Wei?" She stuttered in confusion. Why would Wei be calling me? I was always the one calling them, why is this happening now? Oh, can it be? Has something bad happened to Shoaran? Meilin was getting worried.

"Yes, Miss Meilin, it is indeed I. Can I talk to your parents?"

"They're not around at the moment, Wei. Can I take your message?"

"Oh well…It shouldn't too much of a secret…Please tell your parents that we are coming home, a week from now."

"Oh…Yes. I will tell them."

"Thank you, Miss Meilin. I will try to call some other time and see if I could talk to them, but it would be more of a relief of they could make time to call us in here. Once again, thank you."

"It isn't a problem at all."

They said their goodbyes and hung up. The implications of that phone call were just starting to settle in. She replaced the phone in its receiver gently.

Shaoran was going home...

Finally going back to Hong Kong, but what is waiting for me there? My parents died some few years back. I'm an orphan. That doesn't change much, though, does it? They were never really there for me. They were just fixtures, there on the background, watching over my life, yet they never got involved in it. They were just observing.

Thoughts ran through Shaoran's mind, as the time to go back to his birthplace grew closer. As always he didn't feel anything, just the acceptance of things going this way. His greatest gift, his magic, hadn't gone to use lately. Ever since all the cards were captured and the magical beings all laid to rest, there was no use for magic. He just stayed in Japan to finish school, and because he could stay. It was as simple as that. It wasn't the complexities of love that urged him to settle there. He didn't feel anything for anybody, well at the moment at least. Certainly, before, there was some sort of strange feeling budding for that Cardcaptor girl, Sakura. He must admit, it could have become something, but he ran away. They were too young, and he felt as though he just couldn't be bothered with those feelings during that time. He always thought love made men weak, and he didn't want to be weak, there might be something that would need him to be strong. So he moved, moved away into another city, another school, went out with girls, had a few flings, but never got into serious relationships. Somehow he just didn't want to get involved with anyone.

"I have called your aunt and uncle in Hong Kong, Master Li. I have informed them of our arrival for the upcoming week."

"Oh, okay, Wei."

So that's whom Wei was talking to on the phone, eh? Aunt and Uncle, of course, they will be there, and Meilin. Yes, she certainly will be there. Ah! Meilin who calls once in a while checking on me, reminding me that she will be my wife. Oh wait, she stopped doing that a while ago. I wonder if she finally realized how childish that thought was. She probably has a boyfriend now. Hmmm... Oh well, she was an okay girl. If only she didn't pounce on me that often. She's probably all grown up now.

Oh well, I guess going back home wouldn't be too bad after all...