It's The Hardest Thing In The World To Say Goodbye

by mwagner3

What would happen at McKinley High if there had been a real shooter? A shooter with a hidden agenda against Ryder Lynn. Find out secrets that he has kept hidden and a dark past that will come out as Ryder fights to keep Marley and himself alive against a shadow from his past.

1. Chapter 1

Notes:

I hope everybody likes this. It is a fanfic I have been working on for quite some time, and would love any feedback. I will be posting this on my wattpad and Archive of our own accounts as well. I know I look for Glee fanfic every couple of months and wish to allow as many fans of the show as I can to have an easier time finding some as well.

I also wasn't sure what warnings to put up since I haven't finished it yet.

Prologue:

Take all of your wasted honor
Every little past frustration
Take all of your so-called problems,
Better put 'em in quotations

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to say

Walking like a one man army
Fighting with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you'd be better off instead,
If you could only

I hear the words ring hollow as I think back to what happened. The funny thing is…my friends don't know how true they are. Even as they felt the fear from earlier they have no idea the depths of the truth, the courage that it took for me to agree to do what I'm about to do.

Have no fear for giving in
Have no fear for giving over
You'd better know that in the end
Its better to say too much
Then never say what you need to say again

I watch them from afar. They have no clue that I'm here on the other side of the doorway. A spectator through a piece of glass who wishes that I could join them, but I can't. If they knew….if she knew; I don't know if I would be able to follow through. She's selfless enough to ask me not to and I would probably listen. I would have given all the time remaining for this one last look.

It's the hardest thing in the world to say goodbye. I can't. So, I do it by lending my voice as a whisper.

Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken

I close my eyes and take a deep breath.

Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open

I turn away from the door. Away from my friends. And the girl I love. My eyes and my heart swung completely open and I run.

Notes:

Dislaimer: I own nothing. The song is "Say" by John Mayer. It was originally used in the episode "Shooting Stars" from Glee and I thought it fit perfectly. I ended up shortening it a little for copyright purposes.