Disclaimer: JE owns the characters.
A/N: This is going to be a lot like 'He Has What I Want'. Each chapter will be separate and be able to stand on their own. The common thread for this set of one-shots is that they are all song pics based on songs from Hourglass by Dave Gahan. I'm addicted. What can I say? I hope that you all enjoy this first installment. More will be posted in order as they are on the CD.
After the storm had passed.
I wondered how long,
The break in the clouds would last.
It was always like this. We'd have a great run for a few months and then something would happen. She'd blow up a car, or get another stalker, and we'd have a huge, knock down, drag out, fight. Then, after a week or two, we'd be back together like nothing ever happened. It was a cycle that seemed to work for both of us. At least that's what I thought.
Until today.
I saw something in your eyes, I'm sure.
Baby I saw it, something in your eyes.
I wanted it for myself.
I was sitting in the far corner in Pino's when she walked in. I watched as she walked straight over to the opposite corner of the room and sat at a table across from him. Ranger. I felt my jealousy begin to grow as my blood pressure started to rise. They spoke for a few minutes before the waitress came over and took their order. He had smirked when she placed her order. No doubt that her eating habits were amusing to him since they were the total opposite of his. She turned back to him as the waitress walked away and smiled. That's when I saw it.
I sit, and I wait, and I stare.
Still wishing for
Divine intervention to lift me from my chair.
She was smiling at him as he reached out and tucked a curl behind her ear. It was a move that I had done so many times before, never really thinking about it. I wanted to run across the room and smack his hand away as it came to rest on her cheek. But, as I saw him touch her, her face changed. It was as if that simple touching of skin had effected her more then I ever had. Her tongue had slid out across her lips and he smiled at her like she was lunch.
I saw something in your eyes, I'm sure.
Baby I saw it, something in your eyes.
I saw something in you eyes, I'm sure.
Baby I saw it, there was something in your eyes.
I wanted it for myself.
When in the hell did this happen? Shit! How long has this crap been happening? How many times had they come here, for lunch, and sat together? I just couldn't believe that Mr. Always Aware of His Surrounds and Steph were so engrossed in each other that they didn't seem to notice any other person in the room. It was as if the rest of the world didn't exist, beyond each other. Had it ever been that way for us? Fuck no! She never looked at me that way. And I'd never been able to drowned everything else out like that. Never.
You and I, we've come so far
We've reached beyond the farthest star
Time and time and time again
I want you back, you were my friend
We can pretend.
I thought that she was the One. I thought that I was her One, too. Fuck! Where had I gone wrong? What hadn't I offered? What was it about him that she needed? We had talked about getting married and having kids. I thought that she was happy with me. I was never happier than when I was with her.
I saw something in your eyes, I'm sure.
Baby I saw it, something in your eyes.
I wanted it for myself.
But, here she is, eating lunch with another man. Holding another man's hand. Laughing with another man. It was wrong. Either it was them, or it was us. But, something was definately wrong for her to do this. Either way, it looks like the fight that we had last night was going to be our last fight. It seemed fitting that the last fight of our relationship was over him. And now she was with him.
Fuch this shit! She can have that psycho! I shook my head in disgust as I threw some bills on the table and left. I didn't need another Morelli and Stephanie scene to circulate through the 'Burg' grapevine again. I looked back at them through the window as I climbed into my SUV. It was at that moment that it fully hit me. That look that was shared between them, that was what was missing between me and Steph.
And, damnit, I wanted it for myself.
A big thanks goes to Kate (Myminorobsession). I love ya, Babe!