All I have ever wanted was to be popular; to be wanted, loved and noticed. I'm just another floating body walking around Forks High. I walk past the popular girls; Rose, Lauren and Angela have everything. The hot boys of course have the, perfect bodies, are smart, what's there not to love.
I'm not ugly, I know I'm pretty, but being well let's just say 'second on the 'food chain'' is a pain in my ass. It's like your there, but the popular crowd never acknowledges that you are. I'm just average. Long silky dark chocolate brown hair loose curls roll down my face, deep blue eyes the color of the ocean, a fairly light complexion but I tan well, and as my momma would say beautiful full lips. As I said I'm average, no amazing skinny 00 body, I'm a size 1, B34 boobs boy I wish I could change that.
I've lived in Washington my whole life, always the same. Rainy. But today for some reason I have yet to find out, it feels different. It's hailing, dark black clouds cover the sky the sun is nowhere to be found but I'll get over that. Tonight, is party night. Me and a bunch of friends are going to Whittler and setting up a bom fire and shit like that.
I feel good, I look good. My favorite skinny jeans, a beautiful dark blue that hugs my ass and makes it look good. A long sleeve gray shirt that slides off one shoulder and my hair is tied in a tight high pony tail with a little bit of makeup.
I got into a car accident about three months ago, and my mom has yet to get me a new car so Ally is driving tonight.
It's only about 8 and there's around maybe 30 or 40 people there already. All you can see is a trail of red 16oz cups lying on the sandy ground and if they are not on the ground they are in the hands of the people there. I go to get a beer and that's when I see Edward.
Edward, he's popular, intelligent, sexy, and muscular in all the right places. I've had a crush on his sense Kindergarten when he let me borrow his 64 pack of crayons. Anyways, with Ally behind me, I feel comfort, but as I am about to start to make small talk, Jessica slides her body into Edwards and starts trailing her hand down his shirt. And then they leave, lord knows what they are about to do.
Jessica's a bitch, she and I have had a few ha-ha, no a lot of heated confirmations. I tend to diatribe when I am around her, but I cannot help it.
"Holy shit, did you just she her?" Alice snares.
"How the hell could I not? She looks like a slut; I mean short shorts, its less than 50 degrees outside!" I reply.
"Oh, tell me about it; well let's have a little fun with the slutasouris, where's Danny?" Alice asks.
"I have no idea, why?"
Jacob is Jessica's ex-boyfriend, they went out for two years, and they broke up in a loud fight in the commons three weeks ago.
"I heard, he's been thinking about asking you to go out with him. Jessica would flip her shit if you started flirting with him!" And Alice right. Tonight could be fun.
"Let's go!" And then, I'm ready. I'm ready for whatever high school will bring me, junior year should be interesting.
As Alice and I approach Jacob by the dock he turns around swiftly, probably hearing the pound on the ground from our heels.
"Hey there," Jacob says flirtatiously.
"Hello Jake." Alice and I say in unison.
"What are you two fine ladies up to this evening?" He asks with a smile showing his dimples.
"Nothing, just looking for a good time." Alice says adding a wink.
I think Jacob Danny jizzed in his pants right about then. "Well what do you have in mind?"
Right about then, we could feel Jessica's eyes stabbing knifes in our backs, this is actually working!
"Depends on whatever you're up for." I say lowering my voice to sound seductive.
"How about we walk down the beach for a while and we'll have our a little party of our own."
And now, we have Jacob right where we want him. I knew then as we left, Jessica knew what was about to happen.
We walked down the beach for probably five or six minutes just far enough to drain out the sounds of the party. We walk with Jacob in the middle, me on his left Alice on his right and his hands are in our back pockets, with our arms around his back.
"Is here okay?" Jacob asks joyfully. We at a place with a few stone benches obviously meant for tourists to visit. So we nod.
Al whispers in my ear, something among the lines of 'let's give him a show.' And I know what she means. I'm no lesbian, I'm completely straight, and this is just something we do to let a guy know what we have in mind. So Al and I kiss, slowly, but you can tell that Jacob is about to come into our kiss any minute now. Which he does, he seems eager and grabs my right boob, and starts to slowly lift my shirt over my head while he takes his off Alice follows. He comes around to our backs and unclasps our bras so now were bare in the cold air instantly making our nipples hard.
"You two are so beautiful." Jacob means what he says.
He takes his mouth onto Alice's and is groping me with his left hand. As he is doing that I begin to take off his pants. His boxers are next, once they are off, I take his length into my mouth, sliding my tongue across his head, while my hand works the other end. Just as he is about to cum, we hear Jessica's scream.
The most devilish, nefarious, highest pitched noise I have ever heard comes into my ear, I quickly put my clothes on while Alice is about to take care of Jessica. Jessica looks broken. As if her heart has been ripped out of her chest. Serves the bitch right for all these years.
"What the hell do you two think you are doing?" She screams.
"Oh, damn Jessica, what the fuck does it look like we are doing? You ex was sucking my tits, while Bella was taking him in. Common sense bitch!" Alice screams at her.
Right as Alice is screaming that, about half of the boys at the party are running towards the bitch fight that is about to break out.
"What the fuck do you think gives you the right to even touch him! You're not good enough for him; you two are just stupid little sluts, desperately wanting to be like me! He's mine, mine, mine, mine, and mine." She growls at us.
"Last time I checked Jessica your fat ass broke up with him. I'm not good enough for him? Then why has he been talking all week about how he wants me? And I'm the slut? Really bitch!" I continue to scream, and walk towards her. "You have had half of the male population at Union has had their cock in your vagina, and now I'm a slut. And be like you? I'd rather be me than a two faced, condescending, and ignorant, fake ass bitch let's not forget whore like you!" I end, out of breath.
"Ooooohhhhhh!" The crowd yells. Jessica runs off, with Jacob following after her. Alice and I face each other and giving each other a high five.
Seth, Riley, James and about ten other less important guys rush over towards Al and me and are asking us questions about what happened. And we tell them, noticing a few of them switching up their positions probably getting hard as we are over descriptive. But James's is the only one not talking. He's just standing there looking into the ugly gray sand with a look on his face I cannot describe. His face is beautiful, very muscular.
James is new. He moved here from Rhode Island, why is he here? I have no idea. But he's really cute. A golden hair color, a short hair style, and the outline of his body is visible through the thin black v-neck he is wearing. There's something about him that I need to figure out, something that leaves him being mysterious. And when he asks for my number I about shit my pants in excitement.
"360-555-9865" His voice is deep, a sexy tone that I have not heard.
"Okay, uhm; mines 360-555-1423" I reply with smile ending out to my ears.
"How do you spell your name again? I've never heard such a beautiful name before." He winks a wink that took my breath away.
"B-e-l-l-a" Bella, my mother loves it. I love my name, I hate nick names like Bells, or Bella, or anything like that. Just Bella, simple, and unique, I have yet to find anyone with the same name as myself.
"Bella, I'll call you tomorrow. If you don't mind, I'd like to hangout maybe dinner and a movie. I'd love to get to know you better." Lord, his voice is so deep; I could listen to it all night if I could.
"I'd like that, and sounds good. James, I'm sorry you had to see…" He cuts me off.
"That's what I wanted to talk about at dinner, I just need to find a few things out and ask a few questions if you do not mind."
"I don't mind at all, I have a few questions myself for you." He smiles, and pulls me into his body.
"I'll talk to you soon, goodbye Bella."
"Bye, James."
"Hello." A deep voice interrupts my sleep, it's just past 9:30 am and it's James calling.
"Hi."It's all I can manage to get out right now. My voice is raspy, and you can tell I was awakened.
"Oh my, I'm so sorry; I didn't mean to disturb you I'll go…" I cut him off.
"No don't worry about it, I'm awake now." I sound more cheerful now.
"Okay. So I was thinking about going out to lunch at Joes Crab Shack if that sounds okay."
"Yeah sounds good, I love that place the scenery is beautiful." I reply shocked that were going there, its a little spendy for a first date. If that is what you want to call this.
"So do I. Does around noon sound all right with you?"
"Sounds perfect!" Now I'm excited!
"Kay, I'll pick you up. I know you don't have a car right now. See you soon Bella." Damn, he knows.
"Perfect and thank you James. Bye!" I click the end button on my phone, and this is the first morning I have woken up with a smile on my face.
I quickly go tell my mom my plans. She encourages me to date which is good because I hate going behind her back so I feel like because of that me and her have a better relationship. All she says though is 'be safe, use protection. I don't need you being pregnant.' That would make two of us.
Calling Alice to tell her about my date with James she was more than happy for me. But I can't help but think that she maybe a little bit jealous of me. I mean we are both equally pretty but in different ways. She has shiny black hair that cuts off right bellow her breast and light green eyes that pierce through your heart and a ton of freckles. And I mean a ton. She's gorgeous, but I think that guys don't take the time to over look her freckles.
She helps me find out what to wear because I have never been out on a date with a guy before just alone. Group dates no big deal but alone is a whole different story. For Washington it's a hot day considering yesterday we are used to the bi-polar weather by now. So I decide with a dark blue pair of short shorts, and a tight fitting black hoodie that hugs my curves and a long sleeve shirt that's a plum color. With my hair flowing in loose curls and my bangs are up in a small little poof. I hope I don't look like I'm trying too hard, but for me this looks very laid back.
He gets here like he said. Right at noon, not a minute less or a minute more. I decided to not introduce him to my mom just in case it seems like I would be trying to hard so I just tell her that he is here and she yells have fun kids. The car ride was a tid bit awkward as expected but he turns on the radio. Just my luck my favorite song is playing. It's one of those songs where you cannot help but sing to it. I'm a good singer, I know that I am and I'm not scared to sing when I please, but I'll ask him.
"Do you mind if I sing along?" I ask simply.
"Be my guest." He seems eager to listen to me. So I just in right along with the courses.
"California girls, were unforgettable Daisy Dukes, bikinis on top sun-kissed skin, so hot will melt your popsicle oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh California girls, were undeniable fine, fresh, fierce, we got it on lock west coast represent, now put your hands up oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh" I stop the look at his face as he turns quickly to look at me.
"I never knew you could sing like that!" Saying he sounds shocked would be an understatement.
"Ha-ha-ha, there are a lot of things you don't know about me. But yes, I love to sing."
He smiles at my reply and he turns up the radio and I sing along to every song that comes on. Goodbye awkwardness.
After we order our food we start talking. Well he actually starts talking and I listen.
"So about last night… I know that you and Jessica have had a long of fights these last three years. But did you only do those things with Jacob to piss her off, or because you wanted too. I don't want to seam to eager or anything. I just want to know what the back story behind all of this was. Did you and Jessica ever be friends? What caused you to dis-like her so much?"
For just meeting him, he asks a lot of questions. "Yes, Alice found out that Jacob has started to like me I guess for a few weeks, which is weird because I never talked to him until last night. And I only did it to make her mad, which as you can tell worked." These next few questions are not as easy to answer. "Me, Alice and Jessica use to all be best friends in middle school. But in 8th grade she uhm. She became a slut. She had sex with every guy that Al and I liked. So sense then her and I have never been friends. So I think it was a mixture of being hurt, and being so aggravated that caused me to hate her. She just took a wrong turn down the wrong road."
I end my monologue and wait for him to say something.
"Oh, that sucks. There was always something about her that seemed like she was a slut. Can I ask you something else?" He seems so innocent.
"Of course you can."
"Did you decide to come to this date because of some plan that you and Ally have going on like you did with Jacob?" What the hell, why would he think that.
"N-n-no. Of course not. I didn't think that you would be interested in me just because, well I don't know. I have never been on a date with someone alone before. So this is a first for me. I'm really nerves. I don't want to say something wrong and make you not want to do this again…"
"Bella, you have nothing to worry about, last night at the party from the minute you walked out of Alice's car I instantly wanted to talk to you. But you walked off with Jacob so fast that I never had the chance too." And now I feel stupid for all of last night's events. Right then our food comes and we eat and enjoy small talk.
"Well, I had a great time, thank you so much for lunch James." I add a smile.
"Anytime, it was fun. I'll call you later okay." He steps out and opens my door and takes my hand. As we walk to the front door he gently rubs my hand. I feel sparks fly through my body causing me to jump.
"Everything all right?" He asks once we get to my door.
"Yeah just a little cold, should have worn jeans."
"You look perfect. He takes my hand and gives a small like kiss on my hand. The sweetest jester ever.
"I'll see you tomorrow. Bye James."
"Goodbye." And he walks away.
I fell asleep that night of sweet dreams of James's face.
Yay, Monday, my least day of the week. Once I got to school I go instantly to Alice and tell her about my date with James. She asks the normal questions that any girl would ask. 'Do you like him?' 'Is he a good kisser?' Stuff like that. As Alice and I are walking to lunch to sit at our normal table, I run into James, we say hi and talk for a few minutes and then go our separate ways. How could things go from so well to this?
I end up talking to Alice about everything because I'm honestly hurt. I actually thought he liked me. But I don't know anymore. She thinks he is just nerves and doesn't know what to do. That night he doesn't call me, or text. Nothing, no word from his what-so-ever.
Tuesday was a pain; I had homework in every class. Lunch was the same. Although without the run it situation that happened yesterday it was the same. I spent my lunch talking with Alice and looking at James look at me. It was awkward but nice to know that he knows I'm here and that he did not forget about me.
That night, nothing… again.
Wednesday, it was sunny, so time for the short shorts; I wore those and a gray cardigan, that cute off a little past my hip and a baby pink tank top. It was cute, I looked cute. And as soon as I stepped off of the bus he noticed. Do I really have to dress cutely for him to look at me any other time than lunch period?
I talked to my mom last night about him avoiding me. She was lost for words, saying she has no idea what does on in the mind of a male. Yes well mother that would make two of us. As I was analyzing our conversation last night, James comes my way.
"I'm sorry I haven't called you or anything." He sounds truthful.
"Why did you do it? Did you think I would just forget about it? Let it go?" I'm pissed; his eyes show that he is hurt.
"No, that's not it at all, I just didn't know what you wanted between us, and I didn't know if you were serious or not going out again."
"I do, well I did. Now I am not so sure. I don't think I can take it if you go out with me on a date and ignore me at school. Its bull shit."
"I know it is, so let me show you that I want to see you again."
"Why?"
"Because I like you, I'm just too much of a prick too show any sign of it."
"Makes sense."
"Go out with me, this Saturday, I'll pick you up." His eyes show a sign of hope.
"Fine." I say, turning away and making sure to swing my hips just a little bit more than usual. I turn around and catch him looking at my ass. I look back at Alice and start chortling. Wednesday should be good. At lunch he comes by our table and we talk for a few minutes until he leaves. Last night, we texted until two in the morning.
Finally, Saturday. James is getting me at 5. Something about going out for dinner. I don't know. I get ready, I decide on tight flare jeans, a dark blue. And a deep gray hoodie with a Columbia jacket over. My mom gives me the 'be safe' thing again. This is getting really aggravating I assure her I am fine and James comes and gets me.
"Where are we going?" I ask.
"You'll see." I groan. I hate surprises.
We sing along to every song on the radio until we pull up to Whittler. James takes my hand and helps me out of the truck. His hand is soft, smooth as if lotion is applied to them often. He pulls out the basket he brought out of the car and takes out potatoes, chicken, and lava cake.
"Are we having a picnic?" I ask playfully.
"Yes, yes we are. Now sit down darling."
"This is beautiful, I never thought you would take me out to a picnic." I end with a chuckle.
"I used to have picnics all the time when I was younger. I would make pb&j and take apple juice out to the park, and I would eat, and play with G.I Joes." We both start laughing at the thought of him playing with action figures.
We talked, laughed, kissed and watched the stars. What little stars there were. Well I can cross that off of my list.
"I'll call you tomorrow, I promise." He says once we get outside of my house.
"Okay, thank you for everything. It was a lot of fun."
"Anything for you love." He says with a quick kiss on the lips before I leave inside of my house. I need to talk to Ally.
"Hey girl!" Alice says.
"Hey, oh my god I have so much to tell you!"
"What happened, does he like you. Are you dating now?"
"Chill bitch. And yes he likes me. He said he has for a while, without talking to me or anything. And he said I'll know by Monday. I don't know what the fuck that means, but I can tell you on Monday."
"Monday, why the hell Monday?"
"He said he wants it to be a surprise. Yeah well I don't think that I can wait until Monday. He is so sweet. He took me to Whittler, and he had a whole picnic set up and it was really romantic and we watched the stars. It was a lot of fun. I'm glad I gave him another chance."
"Yeah, you two are really fucking cute together. I am so happy for you. But I hope you know, Seth is soon to be mine."
"Seth? Really? Sense when?"
"Well we haven't talked yet, but we will. And he is sexy, you saw him at the party. The dark brown hair than rests on his scalp, his warm face features, and the pale tone of his. He's dreamy."
"I guess you do have a point. Whatever, I'm going to bed. Love you Al, night."
"Night, oh hey be patient, things will work out." I click the end button after saying I hope. And then I'm off to bed. Waiting for Monday.
Well that was until he came into my room, he said he called my mom earlier to make sure it was okay if he broke into my room to wake me up and to talk to me.
"Wake up beautiful." James says, gently shaking my body to ease me from a quick awakening.
"James?" I ask confused, not sure why he is here. And that's when he explains everything.
Monday's are a pain, I hate waking up feeling like I have a month left of school to go through. Ha, wait I'm only 16 almost 17 and I have another year to go of school. Great. Anyways, I woke up feeling excited, to see James. I cannot wait to be into his loving warm arms that hold me like air around me. I feel safe, and wanted I feel like what I've always wanted. I get ready trying to not once again look like I am trying too hard so I settle for holy light blue flare jeans that hug my ass in way that to some people would say should be illegal. And a yellow long sleeve baby doll and I'll settle for Vans for shoes. My hair is straight and my bangs are twisted to the right side and pinned up. I grab my bag and get on the bus and wait until I find happiness.
The bus ride is only like ten minutes, I'm the last stop on the bus so everything goes by quickly. I tap on my knee anxiously. I don't know why I am nerves I've hung out with him before, but never have I seen or talked to him at school. I think of a plan to not seen too eager to find him.
I can find Alice and then hang out with her and find Alex, Lexi, Sam, McKenzie, and Ian and I will wait until he finds me… What if he doesn't find me? What if he doesn't want to be seen around school with me? What if… Wait the hell, no Bella stop, stop, stop, stop! Think positive… He asked you out, he said 'see you tomorrow' he called you. Everything will be okay. Okay, good job, keep up the confidence. Just have walk outside and act cool. What the fuck, I sound like I am 13 waiting to see Hannah Montana at a concert. What is happening to me? Oh I know what is happening, you like a guy besides Edward!
Pppppsssshhhhhkkkkkkk! The bus stops sharply and everyone around me is trying to stop their body's from slamming into the seat in front of them. I do the same as everyone else, catching myself being I end up with my end hitting the window.
"Sorry everyone!" The bus driver yells. Yeah bitch you better be sorry.
I walk out and thankfully I spot Alice, and she's already with everyone, as I'm walking over there, I take out my phone. And begin deleting all of my texts when I feel an arm snaking around my waist I jump up with the contact of the warm arm against my cold body.
"Sorry I did not mean to startle you." The deep familiar voice says.
"Oh, it's fine, I-I-I d-don't, never mind." I hate being lost for words, and stuttering is something I do when I don't think before I say.
"I was hoping you would get here early, I want to show everyone my girlfriend and make sure they know that you're mine." He ends with a snare, kind of turning me on.
"Awh, so were official now?" He nods back at my question.
"Here, I know you already know the guys, but I want to introduce them to you." I nod back showing my smile.
He walks me towards the other football players and I notice Seth and Riley, they wave and I reply the kind jester.
"So guys, most of you know Bella." He ends, looking at me, I see encouragement, he pulls me closer to his body to know that he's there for me, and his eyes show happiness.
"Hi, everyone." I say giving them all my best smile.
"Are you two like dating now?" Seth asks.
"Yes, Seth we are." Everyone laughs. I feel out of the 'loop' and suddenly I feel like I am shrinking inside my body to hide any type of embarrassment that I might have showing on my face.
"It's about fucking time!" Seth yells.
I jerk up looking confused up at James, and he nods and whispers in my ear something like 'I'll tell you later, no need to worry.' I feel like a ton has been lifted off of my shoulders, as we all talk about the scene that happened on Friday night. I explain them everything and a few of them finish the story for me with the whole fighting between Jessica, Alice and I.
He walks me to class, and kisses me slowly. It's not a kiss full of lust, or want. It's slow, gentle, kind, what a kiss should be. And out of the corner of my eye I see Edward. He stops his walking and stares. I close my eyes and enjoy what my boyfriend is giving me.
Class is a bore and I cannot wait until math is over. James ends up walking me to my classes and meets me by choir class at lunch, before we go and sit at his table we stop off and get Alice and then continue to his table. It feels like Edward has been watching my every move sense he found out about me and James. His table is across from our new table, and I feel glad, I am finally starting to get over my crush for Jonah.
Alice notices too. She just thinks that he is jealous which I believe makes no sense because the night of the party he was with Jessica. They both seemed pretty happy so why all of the sudden is he picking up an interest of stalking me? Whatever, his loss not mine.
"So do you want to come over tomorrow after school? My parents don't get home until later." James asks.
"Yeah, I'd love too." Now, I have something to look forward too.
"Okay, cool. So meet me by the gym and we'll go." He kisses me on the cheek and we walk our different directions.
"Hey sweetheart, how was your day?" My mom asks.
"It was great. James made it official to his friends that were dating. He introduced me to his friends today, and me and Al sat by them at lunch." I end.
"Awh, honey that's great! I'm happy for you, just don't take things to fast, and be sure to not let your heart down, I don't want you to get hurt over some guy. Okay?" Ugh, of course my mom would say this. I mean just because I haven't dated in a while means she has to go on the whole 'don't get your feelings too high' speech.
"I know mom, and I know it may seem like we took things too fast with us just meeting and hanging out a few times. But we're getting to know each other each day. And it seems like he really likes me. But I know that I need to be careful." I hope he really likes me, I mean he must.
"Okay, if you need anything you can talk to me, that's what moms are for." I smile and nod knowing she's right. But I hopefully she won't be having me cry on her shoulders any time soon.
School, ugh another day. I really hope that today will be good. I mean not that anyway that I am not with James is not good but I hoping it will be. And what the fuck, I am rambling inside of my head. What the hell ever. I need to get ready.
Boring, was all I can say about today. Nothing happened. Lunch was just like yesterday with awkward glances from Edward. And that's about it. The only thing that should be fun is James's house.
I met him by the gym and he picked me up and drove me to his house. And California Gurls by Katy Perry came on. James and I look at each other and we start singing ha-ha, will the windows down, and my hair flowing freely around my face and singing as loud as we can, it sounds like one of those scenes from the movies. As the song ends we look at each other and cannot stop laughing. I have not been this blithe in a long time. We drive into his driveway and I instantly get nerves. James and I have hung out a few times, but never have I been at his house.
His house is typical for a Vancouver, WA home. It's a two story, a dark shade of brown along with black shutters around the windows of his house.
The May sun, brings out a color into James's blue eyes, that make them have more behind them; mystery, lust, confusion, and love. I think its love; well it looks like it because there is a certain sparkle in them.
"So do you want a whole tour of the house or do you just want to hang out?" Well, that ended our moment of finding what was underneath the person in front of us.
"Uhm, whatever you want is fine with me."
"Okay, I'll show you around."
He ends showing me his thousand dollar smile. His house on the inside is gorgeous, the walls are a black, and the décor are shades of brown, gray, white and silver. All of the colors go perfectly along with the color. The furniture goes along perfectly with the same color scheme. It's very modern, and yet unique. There are pictures, and a chandelier that looks like it just came out of a fancy home magazine.
"And here's my room." He opens the door and I'm shocked as to what I see inside. There are shelves along the perimeter of the room with football, baseball, tennis and basketball trophies, there must be at least eleven trophies on each side of the room, and they are spaced perfectly. His room is a dark shade of blue making the room seem darker than it would if it was baby blue. He had windows all around his room, there were six walls making the room be a hexagon, and along two of the walls was all a window. It's beautiful, the view, all green, trees, plants a bird bath everything you would imagine a Washington view to be. I take another look around the room, and I notice it is bigger than I first thought. The walls are an easily 12 feet each. I don't know how big this makes the room but it's big. And then bed is a king. A black silky bed spread lies across, with six white pillows across the top. I turn to look at him.
"Your room-house it's I-it's so beautiful. I love it." I'm awestruck; I cannot believe he would ever leave his room.
"Thanks, my dad is really into décor and everything so I'm pretty happy about what my room turned out to be." We wait a few minutes to just look at each other and he's the one to finally say something.
"Want to come out to the deck, I have bench and a blanket in case you get cold."
"Yes, it's so-so, yes I want to." He takes my hand and we walk out to the deck. We sit right next to each other with me nooking in his body. It feels right.
"Senior year is coming up. Are you excited?" I ask, not knowing what to talk about. "Yes, I am; I can't wait to finish it all up and graduate." I nod knowing we both feel the same.
For the rest of the time me being at his house we just talk, and kiss. And kiss some more. It was really nice.
"I'll pick you up tomorrow before school, if that's okay." Yes, finally a way to not ride the shitty bus every morning.
"Yes, perfect. I hate riding the bus."
"Is that so? Well, I'll pick you up everyday then." He finishes smiling and kissing me before he drives off. I stop at my door after I close it and close my eyes and bite my lip. And suddenly within three seconds I'm already dreaming of James.
School on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday went by slowly. Everything is the same. Glances from Edward, kisses from James, loud and deep voices from the boys at our table. The only thing that is new is that Alice is starting to like Seth more. Which I think is just wonderful, the two of us could double and Seth and James are best friends and so are Alice and I.
Jessica has not been at school sense Thursday though. I don't know what could possibly be wrong because maybe some bitch dieses. I don't know. But it's Friday, and I'm excited. It's finally June! So that leaves, one week until school is out. There's a party at Seth's this weekend, so Ally and I are going to that. And School ends on Thursday with finals following up until then. And then, party time!
"Mom, what's the weather supposed to be on Saturday?"
"I think around 75, why?"
"Seth is having a party and Al and I are invited, and I wanted to know so I could base that off of what I decide to wear."
"Okay honey, have fun. Oh and I'm not going to be home to night, business calls." My mom's a lawyer, has wanted to be one sense she was five and has been sense she was 25.
"Okay, have fun!"
"I'll try to sweetie; I'll be home around 11, see you later." I nod, and lock up after she's gone. I cook myself an oven pizza and eat it while I watch re-runs on Wizards of Waverly Place; this show always makes me feel 13 again.
Riiiiinnnnngggg, ring-ring, zzzzzz, zzzzz, riiiiinnnnngggggg!
"Ugh, shut it, I'm coming!" My phones ringing… what? Three missed calls, this is odd. It's 3: 30 am, black as night with a full moon and crickets chirping as if there's no tomorrow. The Moon is as bright as a light bulb in the middle of the sky, and stars light up the sky which is unusual for Washington.
"Hello?" I ask with a raspy voice.
"Sorry, Bella didn't mean to wake you. I have important news to tell you!"
"Al, this shit better be good!"
"It is, okay so Seth told me that Jessica is going to his party tomorrow, and he said for me to tell you that Jessica is looking for a fight. And she really wants to fight you. And that the reason why she has been gone these past few days is because her mom took her out of school to take a few boxing classes."
"Are you fucking serious? Her mom would pull her out of school to try to learn how to kick my ass. Yeah well that bitch has another thing coming. I hate fighting but I would kick that hoe's ass all day everyday!"
"Yes, I know. But James hates, fighting; Jessica knows that. She only wants to do it so you'll look stupid in front of him so he will break up with you. Something about revenge about the damn Jacob thing!"
"Wow. She has really stooped to a new low this time hasn't she?" What is she thinking?
"Yeah, I know. So if you want you can fight her, I'll distract James, and hope all goes well."
"No, no don't do that. I don't want to hide anything from him. I want him to see me for me. I want him to know me, I don't want to lie." I hope this goes well.
"Okay… So, uh are you still in love with Edward. I know you really did love him. First loves are always the hardest to get over." Hard question to answer.
"I mean, I still like him, a lot. I don't know if I still love him, but to me if feels like every minute more I spend with James the less I love him. You know?"
"Yeah, I know the feeling. Okay but just be careful. Okay."
"I will be, hey I'm going back to bed because you're crazy ass woke me up. Night Al."
"Bye Bella, sleep tight." Ending that phone call was easy to do considering I have wanted to do it sense the minute I woke up. I'm way too damn tired to do any talking.
Green, deep green grass thickens as I walk deeper and deeper in the forest. Brown bark deepens as I walk deeper into the forest. Green and brown is all I can see for miles on end. I walk deeper and deeper into the forest. Until I see a shimmer of silver. The only sign of any color within miles of the distance my eye will allow me to see. Blackness fills around me, the air thickens and I begin to hyperventilate. The more I walk into the deep unknown the more my breathing evens. And soon enough I see what was in front of me. It's a cracked mirror. Standing up on its own. The cracks are deep into the mirror, crossing in every direction. I look at my reflection. And I'm crying. Blue, pink and purple cover my blue eyes, which are now a dark gray. As I look at myself. I walk closer to the cracked mirror that's in front of me. When I am inches away. I see a figure of black behind me in the reflection. When I go and turn around I see…
"Huuunnnn, huiiighnnnn, hiiiin, hauuuuuu, haaaannn." I am up, straight up, my back is up and I'm up as straight as a board. Just a nightmare, that's it. But who was behind me? Who could be that mysterious black figure that haunted my dreams?
It's Saturday. I spent all day up until 5 thinking about my dream and what it could possibly mean. I decide to just forget about it. Alice's on the phone, ranting on and on about anything apropos and anything sexy that would say 'hey, I like you, ask me out already dip shit.' I decided on a red dress, that's tight but loose enough to fight in. And Al decides on a black dress that's tight but is silky. I decided on silver heals, and she chose black ones. I think we both look good.
Alice is taking us to the party. Better than James taking me, not that I don't want to be seen with him, I love it. But I think it would be better to make an entrance.
"Hello ladies, welcome to the party!" Seth try's to out yell the music that is deafening. Seth slides his arm over Alice's shoulder and takes her to the dance floor. I walk around making my way to the drink table and fill myself up with a nice shot of vodka.
"You look, gorgeous tonight Bella." A deep sexy tone rings in my ears. Sending shock waves through my body. I know this voice, but I cannot remember who it is. I turn quickly around and see Edward's perfect body just inches away from touching mine.
"Uh, uhm, uhm, t-t-thanks." I look dumbfounded. I stare at him with an expression that probably spells out "dumb ass" all over.
"Oh, shit, yeah sorry. You look great, too Edward."
"Ha-ha, thank you. Well I have to get back to the party now. But u-u-u-uhm, enjoy James's company." He snares James's name is disgust, it sounds as if he just say a baby puppy being slaughtered. Just as I regain myself over having him talk to me for the first time in a long time besides saying 'can you move please,' or 'you're in my way.' I take another shot in hopes of having it calm my nerves. Which I don't know why I have but I do. As soon as I'm done with that one, I take down a third as James comes around to my back, rubbing himself over my ass.
"May I have this dance?" He asks.
I quickly pour a fourth and down it as I nod. The song is Sugar, and as I realize the song, Al comes and grabs me and we are now dancing together. James and Seth stare in amazement at the way our body's move. They look at each other and grab us and pull us onto them. James and I are instantly one. We grind, and move, sexy, x-rated, it's hot, the friction is making him hard, making me wet, and I see the want in his eyes. Once the song is finished he pulls me out side. Then my phone rings. It's my mom.
"Hold on, this will only be a minute." "Yes mom?" I say as I walk farther away from James.
"Bella, I need you home." Her voice was dark; it seemed empty as if she had been crying.
"Okay, I'll grab Alice and have her take me home." I say and end the phone call. I yell out to James that I have to go and he runs after me. I explain to him everything and I find Alice quickly and she takes me home deciding she would be fine with having Seth wanting more.
I tell her about my mom and what she said in only about five seconds that left with endless questions.
I get to my house in about 15 minutes. And because I was planning on having Alice stay the night, she was there when my mom had a break down.
"You know Grandma Lucy, my mother." My mom chokes out barley, hiding back more pain than she is showing in her eyes.
"Yes, what's wrong mom. Just tell me!"
"She died this afternoon. She had a heart attack, and died instantly." My mom sobs make it hard to understand what she is saying. But I feel horrible. I cannot imagine what I would do if that was her.
At the sound of the word death, I know what I needed to do. My mom needed me to be there for her. To hold her, to help her in the time when she needed me the most. I have never met Grandma Lucy, but I've heard of her, she lives so far away, mom and I never had to chance to meet her.
I sat there next to my mother for an hour, holding her, rocking her and letting her salt way roll violently down her soft rosy cheeks and onto my tan shoulders. The wetness was beginning to become sticky, and my mom start to regain herself.
"I'm so sorry you had to do all this, I-I-I- I'm sorry." She is forcing out every word possible. I assure her it's no problem.
"The funeral is tomorrow but I'd prefer if you did not go, too many family member's you would not know, just creating awkwardness for you. It's in Phoenix so I'll take a flight there early morning and I'll be back early Monday morning."
"Okay, I'm so sorry mom. I don't know what I would do without, I love you so much. Thank you for everything." I begin to cry at the realization on the verisimilitude of my words.
"No, thank you. For being here for me. And I won't go anytime soon, you have nothing to worry about sweetie. Now let's eat ice cream and watch funny movies with that Ryan guy, and Sandra Bullock!" She starts to laugh at the memory of Ryan's character landing naked on top of Sandra's character when she is naked also.
"I'll get the ice cream!" Alice yells and runs full speed into the kitchen giving my mom a hug on her way.
We watch movies and laugh and swoon over Ryan. And before we know it its get late and about time for me and Alice to crash due to the amount of shots I had, I feel sobered up by now.