(Mike/Fi, Burn Notice)
(Mike/Fi, Burn Notice)
Title: Hardest Times
Fandom: Burn Notice
Summary: "It's times like these, when it's just the two of us alone – no clients, no Sam, no crowds – that it's the hardest." Fi's POV.
Rating: G
Pairings/Characters: angsty Michael/Fiona
Length: 230 words
Genres: angst, romance
A/N: Ah, my first BN fic. :D I've wanted to write BN fic for a long time, and finally a ficlet (or rather, a couple ficlets) came while watching "Good Soldier." And the angstiness of Mike and Fi has had me hooked for a while. An angsty ship always hooks me. So… here. A little piece from Fi's POV that came to me Thursday night. (No spoilers.)
It's times like these, when it's just the two of us alone – no clients, no Sam, no crowds – that it's the hardest.
Not really the hardest emotions, because they're always there. It's always easy to love him, easy to hate him, and definitely easy to feel the hurt. The hardest things to deal with are the easiest ones to feel when I'm with Michael.
But times like this, when it's just us, in his apartment, talking about the job, pretending to talk about life, trying to talk about whatever, it gets hard to hide things. When it's easiest to hide the pained expressions behind his back because there's no one else to hide them from, that's when it gets the hardest. The hardest to hold on, the hardest to let go.
I wouldn't necessarily say that's when it hurts the most, when the pain is the sharpest, because that's probably those lonely, empty nights when sleep is entirely illusive. Those are the most painful.
But these times arewhen the pain is the hardest to bear, the hardest to keep locked in. The hardest to keep separated from him, to not run right into his arms, or kiss that crazy smile on his face, or even touch him at all.
The times when it's easiest to let my expression slip behind his back are the times when it's hardest not to show him how much it hurts.