Scott,
I feel like I'm losing you. You're my best friend and I feel like I'm losing you. We don't talk that much anymore. You forget promises. You're always busy. I know you don't mean it, you have more important things to do than to keep me company 24/7, but sometimes I feel like we are just fading. You lost her, I get it. It is my fault after all, but you keep pushing me away because of it. I know I deserve it, but that doesn't mean I like it.
I feel this is good though, you don't deserve to have to be around me. I definitely do not deserve to have a friend as good as you. All of this crap we are going through is my fault anyway. None of this would have happened if I hadn't dragged you out to find that stupid dead body. You wouldn't have been bitten, Jackson would have never become the Kanima, the Alpha pack would have never come for you. Erica and Boyd wouldn't have lost their lives. Ethan wouldn't have lost his brother, Chris his wife and daughter, you your first love.
This is all my fault. I guess this note is to say I'm sorry, I never meant for any of this to happen. I wish that you could find it in your heart to forgive me one last time, but I know I can't ask that of you. You have forgiven me too many times to count, I cannot place that burden on you once again. So this is goodbye. I'm not sure for how long. It could be a goodbye for now, a see you later, or it could even be goodbye for life. I haven't made up my mind yet, I'm too much of a coward to make that decision just now.
Whenever you read this, just please realize how truly sorry I am for all the shit my stupid impulsive decisions have put you, and everyone, through. Tell my dad I love him, and tell Lydia that she is beautiful when she cries, but that she shouldn't cry for me because I don't deserve it. Tell Danny that you two are all the lacrosse team has left of the original group (because we all know that Greenburg doesn't count), so he better start actually showing up so you guys can continue to kick ass. Tell Liam that he will make a great werewolf someday, but that it is ok to be scared, and tell him to not push his friends away (unless they turn out to be crazy ass assassins, then tell him it is ok to push them away… then run). Tell Kira that even though I haven't known her long, I know that you guys are good for each other. Tell Malia I'm sorry, but she will find someone great who will help her remember how to be a kid, because, god, that's what we are, kids. It's something all of us need to relearn. How to just be kids and have fun. Finally, tell Derek to not be such a sourwolf all the time, and that I'm glad you guys are actually working together now to fight the bad guys.
So this is goodbye, whether it be just for now or forever, know that you are my brother and no matter what I will always love you.
I'm deeply sorry,
Stiles
I'm really not sure what this is… anyway, I don't own anything.