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Five times harry wished he was someone else: she wasn't meant to love him.
I
When his aunt and uncle told a five year old Harry over the breakfast table one morning that his parents were dead, that they weren't coming back.
He'd always known they weren't around but knowing that they would never be around made him wish he was Dudley.
Dudley had parents.
Dudley had all he wanted.
Dudley was loved.
II
When Ron and Harry fought for six months.
They had never fought before and it killed harry.
Every day they ignored each other, each one too stubborn to apologise.
On those lonely nights all he wanted was to be Hermione. Or Fred. Or George – just... someone who was still talking to him.
And when the first task was over and they were talking again it was the best feeling...
He felt whole again.
III
When Cho rejected him for the Yule ball.
Why hadn't he plucked up enough courage to ask her sooner?
Why had Diggory been so bloody quick with her?
Then he realised the answer. Because it wasn't meant to be, she wasn't meant to love him.
That hurt Harry. Cho was all he'd ever known of love; even if it WAS a schoolboy crush.
That night he cried himself to sleep.
IV
When he saw Fred's broken body on the floor of the great hall.
Hundreds of corpses; all Harry's fault.
He had known there would be death.
He had known families would be broken.
He just hadn't known his family would be broken.
And years later, when it was all over, he would think of Fred, of Lupin, of Tonks, and he would remember the good times they had.
And he would cry for the times they would never have again.
V
When Dumbledore fell from the tower;
He had never felt so alone.
Who would he turn to now?
Who would care for him like a father?
The last of two father figures.
Gone.
Forever.
Two times Harry's been glad to be who he is:
I
The weeks following the Final Battle:
Even though he didn't want the 'Fame' of being the saviour of the wizarding world he loved the feeling he got when people young and old would come up to him in the street, thanking him personally for saving their loved one or helping them out.
That feeling of elated joy got him through the sadness and the pain of losing so many people. So, so many people...
II
Seeing his children for the first time, their gorgeous faces; staring into their eyes.
Knowing that he'd helped to create the world they'd been born into; a world of peace, hope and light.
Knowing they'll never be troubled by the evils of Harry's past makes him sleep easy each night, and for that he is eternally greatful.
Written for the 'Five things' challenge on the HPFC forum. Please review! I love hearing your opinions! –Moge..x