Disclaimer: Don't own them Don't sue me, sue whoever killed Emma off. Lexa's pretty cool, though.
Archive: Not gonna happen, but just in case: ask in a review or email me at RoseofDarkness28@aol.com or Lenari28@hotmail.com, so I know where the story's going and I can link to you.
Rating: R for some ultra angst moments and for a lot of swearing
Silent Screams
Nahyra Lee Hennun
Copyright 2003
Chapter one: Rain
My head hurts and the rain is falling. My eyes try to focus but it's just so hard. People everywhere, just getting in my way. I push through the crowd, but I can't find anyone I know. Then I see her. She's being checked by a paramedic, one of her hands flailing limply beside her. She looks pale and deserted, and everyone around her is shaking their heads.
I move closer and soon I'm standing right next to her head. Her cheeks aren't blushing anymore. Her eyes look vitreous and icy. A gentle hand closes her eyes and moves her hair away from her face, and realization dawns on me. I shiver, trying to contain the sobs. Both my hands are on the bed now, on each side of her head. A doctor comes and pronounces it. It's final. And for some reason, I'm the one whose life is flashing through my eyes.
I remember the day she was talking to Brennan. I was so sure she loved him. He was the strong one, the sexy one, the passionate one, and she wanted excitement. She'd danced with him for hours, flirting incessantly. Soon they were kissing passionately, laughing and drinking. She looked wild, dangerous, rather unlike her usual self. I guess I didn't know as much about her as I thought.
I also remember when Brennan chose to be with someone else, her heart broke and there I was, goody-goody friend, a shoulder to cry on. Then she found someone else and I was left in the dust.
I chide myself, the last thing I should be doing is getting mad at her. But all I can think of is just how many damn opportunities I wasted. I had her so close, yet so far.
I lift my hand and caress her face one last time. The paramedics pull a sheet over her face and I know it's over. That's when it sinks in: I never told her. My hands are still beside her head, and letting my full weight fall on them I sob, shaking my head. I can't believe she's gone.
I can feel Brennan restraining Shalimar somewhere behind me, and I can hear her sob. But right now, I don't care about anything but her. Why did you have to leave me Emma? Why?
Brennan puts his hand on my shoulder and pulls me away from her lifeless body. I know what he means: it's time to go to work. But suddenly, a thought strikes me: for the first time in my life, I feel like I've got nothing to fight for. Nothing at all.
*******So this is part one of Jesse's POV. Next up will be part two, and then it's Shalimar's turn. I hope you like this, I just had to let it all out, it was driving me crazy! *******