so here's a fanfic i wrote for my dearest friend and i'm not sure it's going to be as good i would have hoped.. it's not grimmXulqui like i'm so used to writing.. but.. oh well.. i had fun writing it xD xD

umm.. disclaimers:.. i don't own ALMOST LOVERS by A FINE FRENZY or TRUE ROMANCE by SILVERSTEIN even if the lyrics are altered slightly.. xD xD

Memoir

Your fingertips across my skin.

The dead trees sway in the wind.

The breeze blows away the white sand around us.

You hold me close.

I sit by your side.

The most amazing rush of emotions course through my veins.

Cruel Images.

"You mean the world to me, my dearest white flower."

Nothing but lies and I, all too foolishly, fell for them.

You sang me Spanish lullabies.

The sweetest sadness in your golden eyes as I began to drift off into a happy sleep.

Clever trick.

"Szayel?"

"Yes, Ulqui?"

"Stay with me?"

"… Of course."

When I would wake up you would be gone, without a word.

I looked for you like some needy human.

The side of me that loved you so dearly wished that I never found you.

Painful memories.

"Ulquiorra, Ulqui, My dearest white flower.

You were nothing more than an experiment.

To be quite frank, you meant nothing to me."

My words would fail me and my heart would shatter.

So after all these cherished moments we spent together and every wondrous sensation your simple touch left in its wake, the truth reveals itself at last.

A well thought out façade.

"I wanted nothing more than to prove that your coldness towards others,

That shell you use to distance yourself from the world,

Could easily be broken up in the face of love."

And I let you do it.

Your warm smile and golden eyes melted away my usually cold demeanor with sweet words.

I gave you my fragile heart to do as you pleased.

You examined it for a second and threw it aside the next.

Fake smiles and poisonously alluring eyes lead to a thoroughly broken heart.

"What is truly piteous though,

Is the fact that someone of such high caliber,

Who bears great favoritism in the eyes of our lord Aizen,

Would allow himself to be dominated so easily by someone of lower rank,

Such as myself."

Too true were your words though I tried to deny them.

Thank you, Szayel, for clearing up my jumbled thoughts.

Emotions truly are a nuisance.

They cause nothing but trouble.

I almost allowed myself to conform to human ways.

Such pathetic humans.

"How disgusting."

And so we meet again, and this time I'm not the one who's dying, well, at least not literally.

Such a pity, really, to watch such an extraordinary and insightful Espada, fall to such a meager Shinigami.

You're on Death's doorstep, but there's still a chance to save you.

I extend my hand.

Rather than use my hand to pull you up and save your worthless life…

"Goodbye, love."

That flash of jade is the last thing you see.

And now half the bed's cold.

I know it's my fault.

I've given in.

I've admitted defeat.

But I'll be fine.

I'm on the road to rehabilitation.

I'm piecing up a newer, emptier me.

I'm piecing up the shell you broke apart.

there ya go.. that wasn't so bad.. was it? :3.. i hope not...

oh well.. i have more fanfics on the way.. i might practice writing away from grimmXulqui-ness for a bit and give you some different pairings.. but that won't be for a long time xD xD

so thanks for reading and i hope my dearest friend enjoyed this..