Note: This is my first fanfiction, so I hope you enjoy my useless daydreaming of Akira x Yukina that turned into a story. Enjoy ;3
"AKIRA!" Yukina yelled, tears streaming down her face. She ran after him; half expecting him to stop and give her one of his warm smiles, like it was all a joke. But he didn't stop. He didn't smile. He kept going farther and farther away. With another girl. Mami.
Yukina woke up with a start, shaking. She shivered and got out of bed. That was a dream? Yukina asked herself while dressing up for school. Akira would never abandon me, would he? We've been best friends since we were kids. Even if she was dating Shigure, whenever she saw Akira with another girl, her heart felt like a thousand thorns had stabbed it. She couldn't understand why. After picking Shigure over Akira when they went on the fake dates, Akira had distanced himself from Yukina. Instead of walking to and from school together, he walked with Mami. Instead of eating lunch with her, he ate with Mami. Instead of talking to each other when passing by in the hall, he would look for Mami first, completely ignoring Yukina, and went over to greet her when he found her. After thinking about all of those events, she started to believe the thought about Akira abandoning her. After all, they don't even TALK anymore. She was so sure about her choice of picking Shigure. Now she even started doubting THAT. Would it have been better if I had chose Akira? But if I did choose him, what would Shigure think about me? Would he be the same as Akira right now? She sighed, the confused thoughts inside her head were making her dizzy.
She tied up her hair and went downstairs, eating breakfast quietly. "Yukina," her mother said, "You look tired. Did something happen?" Yukina shook her head. "No, mother. Just thinking of things." Her mother peered at her face for a moment, but then said nothing. Yukina finished eating and put her dishes away, and got ready to leave for school. "Bye, mother and father!" Yukina said, as she walked out the door. As usual, Shigure had been waiting for her instead of Akira. Shigure smiled when he saw Yukina. She WAS the one he loved, after all. "Good morning," he said as he held out his hand, and Yukina took it. "Good morning, Shigure," Yukina replied distractedly. She had many things to think about, so she wasn't her usual self. Shigure seemed to have noticed this, because he asked her, "Are you feeling alright? You seem out of it today." Yukina nodded. "I'm alright. I just have a lot in mind today." Ever since that day they started dating, they held hands when walking to school, and everyone at school knows that they are now a couple. I'm in love with Shigure, aren't I? She questioned herself again, now very unsure what her feelings for Shigure was. He no longer made her heart beat. Why do I feel like this? I thought Shigure was the one for me. She was thinking so much, that, she didn't notice when they walked past Akira and Mami. She also didn't know they were holding hands. Until Shigure spoke up. "Hey, Mami!" He said, happily, and waved at her. Yukina snapped out of her thoughts and looked up. Her heart began to hurt as soon as she saw Mami and Akira holding hands. "G-Good morning…Akira…" she managed to say to him. Before he could respond, Mami spoke. "Good morning, Shigure, Yukina! Me and Akira are now a couple!" Mami said, giggling happily. Yukina's heart felt like a sword had just pierced through it. Her stomach made her feel like she was in water, sinking, sinking, sinking…into nothingness. Realizing what she felt, she quickly let go of Shigure's hand and ran into the school. "Yuki-" Shigure began, but she was already in the school building, passing by a few girls that were jealous of her because Shigure was her boyfriend. Yukina ran until she reached the place with all of the P.E. equipment storage room and locked herself in. It was completely dark and silent, but that was the thing she needed the most right now. She sat down in the corner, buried her head into her knees, and sobbed lightly. "W-Why…what is this feeling?" She said, her voice muffled. "It hurts…so much." She thought back to when Akira first confessed to her.
"Yukina-chan. When you fall in love, it makes you chest feel tight. So tight, you can't even swallow your favorite food. You can't think of anything but the other person. And it hurts…to see them with someone else. You want that person…to see only you." He smiled, and leaned in to kiss her forehead. "I love you Yukina-chan. Not like a cousin. I love you as a boyfriend."
She sat quietly in the room, her face still slightly wet from crying. She wiped her glasses using her shirt, and sat in silence until she had finally calmed down. If…if what Akira said was true, does that mean…I'm in love with Akira? No! This can't be right! I'm with Shigure! It's too late to love Akira after I turned him down! Plus, he's dating Mami now… Just thinking of the two of them dating gave her another pierce in the heart. He had respected her choice when she chose Shigure. She remembered his last words before he had distanced himself from her.
"Yukina-chan, I understand how you feel. I hope you are happy with him. As long as you're happy, then I am too. From now on, you will be with Shigure, so you won't need me anymore." He gave a sad farewell smile. "So please, don't ever forget about me and all those times we shared when we were young." He gave one light kiss on my forehead, and walked slowly away.
Yukina was skipping class. It wasn't the first time, either. The first time was when she was with Shigure, and he had asked her to be his lover for an hour. Thinking of that moment, her heart did not skip a beat like when it had first happened. Frustrated, she buried her head into her knees once again and was seeking comfort from the silence that had relaxed her just a moment before. With thoughts and questions that she would probably never know the answer to, she fell asleep, her last thought being, "I miss you, Akira...".
I hope you enjoyed the first chapter. Please review so I can get more ideas for the next chapter! Arigatou~!
~Kawaii Dream