Damn. It's morning. Will I ever get a day off from my life? Didn't think so. My life changed nearly three years ago. April, her name was April. I'll never forget her. She was my world and then some. The way her hair fell around her face making her the most pulchritudinous girl out there. She was perfect for me.
We dated for a year. It was wonderful. Her one flaw was my savior, or so I thought. We got doped up together and went out for nights at a time. I don't even remember what we did sometimes; I just knew we did things. April introduced me to a different way of life.
When I finally got the nerve to ask her to marry me she hurriedly said yes. For safety we got checked out for diseases. That's when our lives changed for the worse. We figured we'd come out clean, I mean we hadn't ever even had sex!
After a week of waiting our results were in. She opened hers first. HIV positive. Damn. Mine didn't read the same. Why? Why God wasn't it the same?!
The nurse said it could take months for the virus to show any signs at all.
'Could they be wrong?'
'No.'
'Damn. Any cures?'
'Not yet.'
'Damn!'
Why her huh? Why April?! She's my match and now you're gonna take her away from me?! I wont let you God I wont let you!
Medicine and more tests too many to count. Maybe I didn't get it, maybe I was safe.
Months flow by. The thousandth test come back. Positive. Damn.
Damn the world! Damn God! Damn April! She said she was clean. She said she only shared her needle with me. LIAR! Damn her to hell. Somebody smite her. Damn her God just DAMN HER! I'm dying. I'm dying and I'm not even 30! Screw you GOD!
We took a break from wedding plans. She worsened everyday. Soon she was but a skeleton. I came home one day to find Mark over her limp body. Damn!
After rushing her to the hospital we wait. At first I'm patient then I get angry and soon I'm prepared to pick that building apart brick by brick. Why's it taking so long?
Nurse know-it-all comes in.
'So what's wrong will she be okay?'
'We lost her, I'm sorry.'
'Damn.'