Author's Note :: This is Soubi's thoughts/reactions during the time when he hears Seimei's voice from Nisei's phone. [[In volume six that is, since I finally got to buy it today and I just finished reading it.
I don't own Loveless.
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Your Voice"Agatsuma-san, shall I let you hear this?"
His voice had a teasing type of tone to it, and I didn't like it one bit. I wanted to rip his throat out from his neck to keep from hearing it. I didn't like him one bit, I had this feeling that he was nothing but trouble and he was about to be the person that I strongly disliked.
"The voice you want…to hear most in all the world."
He held his phone out far enough so that I was able to hear and he was pushing buttons. What in the hell was he planning on doing?
"Or maybe it's the voice you don't want to hear…ahh, I don't know."
The call was connected on the phone and I waited, before I heard that voice. Heard the familiar sound of him, and it hurt so much to hear that voice that I nearly wanted to scream. However, all I was able to do was stand there as it rang out…
"Hello? Nisei? Is that you?"
Seimei's voice, it was my Seimei's voice. Maybe not mine any longer…perhaps Nisei's now? That thought took a stab at my heart, to know that Seimei might not be mine any longer…yes, that really hurt. I was in a state of shock and pain all at once. I could handle pain, it wasn't a big deal…I was supposed to be tough. I am tough.
"Did you get it?"
I stood there in silence, staring at him.
"Now…who could that have been?"
Still, I couldn't answer, and refused to. My mouth wouldn't move to make the sound any longer.
"C'mon, cry."
I just stood there and stared at the dark, cold ground for what seemed like hours. That voice was foreign to me now, it took the breath out of me just to hear it.
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I had gone to see Ritsuka for a while, to check up on him since Yukio had seemed so worried. I knew that the boy really wasn't that sick to have to stay home, it had to have been his mother's doing. Which I was correct about…he did sound a little sick though when I was there with him.
I went home, back to my apartment to just be there and unwind. Try to forget what I'd heard, try to let the sound escape my memory. But it wouldn't, my memory was very perceptive and I rarely could forget things. And I knew that the sound of Seimei's voice would haunt me for a long time to come.
And the fact that he, Nisei, was his new fighter? That made me jealous, severely jealous indeed. Although I did have Ritsuka now but still…Seimei was supposed to remain forever mine and not anyone else's, and besides, Nisei was so…well it didn't matter, all that matters is that I am so much better than he is.
Stepping into the apartment I noted that all the lights had been turned out. Were the Zero boys already in bed? That was a bit surprising…usually they might be awake playing games or something. Perhaps they had just worn themselves out tonight?
That was until I had found that note on the table. The simple thing on simple paper with two simple words…'Going home.'
I didn't feel a damn thing. I was just a bit empty…or maybe even more empty than before? Hollow, even…I didn't even know how to explain it in my own mind. I knew that they would probably be going home soon anyway, but today of all days to just pick up and leave, it was the worst…
It was so quiet in the apartment and I didn't like it. Usually being alone didn't bother me a bit, but on a night like tonight it was just driving me insane.
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Yeah…so. That's it. I know it's short but I just felt the need to write it after finishing the sixth volume. I'm sure you'll be getting more oneshot fics out of me and probably another chapter of 'Come to Bed With Me?' now that I've read the sixth one. 333