Okay, first off, I don't know what I'm doing. I have all these crazy idea's and I've never written and X-men story but I've been wanting to, and well, you let me know if I should go on or let it go

I don't own X-Men or anything affiliated by it….although I really, really, wish I owned Logan….sigh….okay, so now that's out of the way. Here's my fic.

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Happy Birthday to you!

Happy Birthday to you!

Happy Birthday Dear Maddie

Happy Birthday to you!

It was days like these that he hated her. It was in these moments that only added to all those that she already missed, that enraged him. What type of woman would leave something so beautiful, so innocent?

"Make a wish Maddie" Aunt Marie said.

He though they were happy, was he really that wrong? Was he really that naïve to think for that time she was his, she was utterly happy just like him?

"Yay! I blew them all in one breath" Madison clapped, praising herself.

"What did you wish for?" Bobby asked the little girl who was dressed in her very pretty lilac dress.

"I can't tell you uncle Bobby! Then it won't come true!"

That made him smile, "Yeah, you're right. I'm sorry. I had forgotten I can't trick you into that anymore"

"Like Bobby" Jubilee exclaimed, "You haven't been able to trick her into doing that since she turned 3"

Maddie smiled "Yeah, and today I'm 5! I'm a big girl now. I can start school with all the other kids"

Why couldn't he just let it go? It had been five years. Five years today that she chose to walk out the door, out of his life, and out of the life of his beautiful baby girl.

"I want to open my presents!" Maddie said in total excitement. "Please? Daddy can I?"

She looked so much like her it hurt. Every time he had to look into her eyes, those gorgeous big green eyes, comb through her long silky red mane, and wash her light milky skin…it all screamed her.

"Of course you can, sweetheart" He answered. "Let's see what we got!"

"Daddy! It's what I got, not you! It's not your birthday!" His daughter retorted, her tiny hands on her hips.

And it made him laugh. "Of course not; I'm sorry honey. Let's go open your presents"

Smiling in approval, Maddie ran off to the table holding all her gifts.

"Just take your…." Ororo suggested "…Time" But was too late, Maddie had already ripped open through a couple of her presents.

Laughing, Ro turned to Logan "Gee, and we wonder who she got that impatient attitude from?"

Five years and not one call; five years and not one glance. She missed his baby's first smile, his baby's first step, Maddie's first word…1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th, and now 5th birthday.

Logan just stared at Maddie. Was the pain ever going to go away? Would a day come when he wouldn't be reminded of her?

"Hey Daddy! Look what Aunt Ro got me!" Madison Sophia yelled, obviously excited. "Rollerblades! Yesss!" She ran up to Ororo and gave her a big hug.

"Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! How did you know I wanted these?" Maddie had then sat down and ripped open the box, to take them out.

Laughing, Ro bent down to her level "Just a wild guess, I suppose?"

"Can I put them on, please? Please? Pleeeeease?" She begged her dad, giving him the puppy face she'd long mastered.

Logan just groaned. "Thanks 'Ro!" There's a reason I hadn't gotten them for her!"

The older woman just smiled. "Yeah but that's what aunts are for. We just buy them what we want, and send them off to the parent to deal with."

"Stop being so dramatic, Logan" Kitty jumped in. "I'll take her outside." And with that she grabbed Maddie by the hand and carefully rolled her out to the door.

"Thanks Daddy! Love you, Bye!" The little girl yelled from the door as it closed behind them.

"So did you have a good time?" Logan asked as he tucked Maddie in, sitting on the edge of her bed.

"The best!" She answered, beaming her beautiful smile.

"I'm glad" Logan moved a loose strand of hair from her face. "So what did you wish for?" He asked her, curious to know what his daughter wanted this time.

"Oh, I asked for lots of stuff!" She eagerly replied. "And I already got one of them"

"Oh? And what's that darlin'?"

"My cool rollerblades! Isn't Aunt Ro the coolest?"

Logan laughed. "Yes, she is. But what about everybody else's presents didn't you like 'em?"

Madison looked at her dad, as if thinking well duh! "Of course I did Dad! I liked them all. Like the princess DVD collection Auntie Marie gave me! That was so cool, now you can watch them with me all the time!"

Gee, great! Logan thought, but kept smiling.

"The really nice chest box with my name you gave me, I really did like it daddy. And, and, um I really liked the little make-up bag I got from Kitty and Jubes!"

"Um, yeah. I think we'll hold off on that one, okay munchkin" Logan said, not wanting to see his 5 year old in make up. Not ready to see his baby in make up…not now, not ever. Because make up to Logan, meant wanting boys attention…and that'll be the day, when Maddie had a boyfriend! Not if he could help it.

"But Daddy!" Maddie whined. "I promise not to keep it on! Just for fun, before bed time! I promise to wash it off! Really" She said, trying her best to convince him. "Girl scouts honor" She held up her little hand.

"Darlin, you've never been in any girl scouts!"

She smiled, "That's why!"

Logan simply shook his head.

"We'll see."

Maddie pouted.

"Now, no pouting or your face will stay that way" Logan told her.

She burrowed her eyebrows. "Yeah right, Daddy!"

"I'm serious! Then you'll be walking like this all day!" Logan soon mimicked her pouting, while crossing his eyes, making her laugh.

"Alright. Time for bed" He said in all seriousness. "Here's Mimi." He handed her, her teddy bear she's had since birth. It was old, worn out, and missing an eye button. But without it, neither would find sleep; her for not having it, and him for her not falling asleep.

"Sleep tight" Logan bent down and gave her a kiss. "I'll see you in the morning"

"Night daddy!" Madison replied, as her dad stood up and walked off to turn off he light.

"Night Maddie. Now go to sleep" And he switched off the light as he walked away.

"You know what Mimi?" Madison talked to her tightly clutched bear. "I really only asked for one thing. But I didn't tell daddy because I know he doesn't like me talking about it."

Logan stopped walking. Even though he was further down the corridor, with his senses he heard her clearly. And standing there, in the middle of the isle, with a frown on his face, he listened.

"I wish my mommy hadn't died." Maddie choked. "I wish she was here on my birthday to give me a kiss and a big hug like daddy does all the time." She sniffled. "Do you think she's an angel, Mimi? Aunt Marie said that when nice people die, they turn into angels and they watch over the people they love."

By now, she was holding her bear impossibly tighter.

"I think she is." Maddie paused. "I love you mommy." She announced to no one in the dark. Almost as waiting for a reply she knew wouldn't come, but still hoping it would.

She sighed. "It's okay Mimi, I know she loves me. You and I both know she does. But let's not talk to daddy about our secret angel okay? He gets really upset when I ask him about mommy."

Madison stopped to think. "I think he still loves her, and that's why he hurts when I bring her up. But I love my daddy and I don't want to make him sad, okay Mimi, so it'll be our little secret that mommy is my angel."

By now, sleep was almost taking her into its grip. And her last words before drifting off to her dream land, where "Goodnight mommy"

Down in the corridor, Logan struggled to swallow. The aching lump, stuck on his throat making it hard to do so. As a single tear slid out of his eye, he angrily whipped it away.

Yes, it was moments like these that he hated her. It was in these painful heartaches that only added to all those she had already caused, that enraged him. What kind of woman would cause such pain to someone so innocent?

Logan then knew, one that wasn't worth it. One that in the end; was no woman at all.

Okay, that's chapter one.

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I've never written an X-Men fic so I'm really skeptical about this. I'll try my best, but only for you guys.

If you want more let me know. And I'll update as soon as I can.

I work all the time, so it wont be right away, but I promise to do my best.