It's been a year since I said goodbye to the Doctor. It's been a year since I stood on that beach in Norway. Bad Wolf bay, god it was just so perfect for us to say goodbye there. But life moves one. The one great adventure he could never have that's what he used to say.
So that's what I did. We went back home, I went to work at Torchwood. It was the place where I felt closest to the Doctor and still is. I finally settled down. I got the job, got a mortgage. I even got a husband. Mickey finally convinced me. He was there with me when the Doctor said goodbye and he's been there ever since. As the saying goes; 'If you can't have the one you love, love the one you're with.' Don't get me wrong I love Mickey in a way but the only man I will ever truly love is the Doctor. And what he said is true; as much as I like Mickey, I settled. I settled for what was next to me and not what I wish with all my heart I could have.
He was always the one since the day I met him. I knew he was something special. Turns out more special than I ever thought. He took me to see things I could never have imagined; he took me away from a life of nothing and showed me the universe. And I think if he'd have had the power he would have given me the universe at least for a bit. But now he's alone again. I said that I would always be with him and if I had the chance I would. I would jump at the chance to have another look around the universe with him.
At the moment I would settle for just hugging him and telling him how much I missed him. He's gone though. That is something I have to live with and love with for the rest of my life. He will always be a part of me and I will never forget the experiences he gave me. And I wouldn't change them if I had to live a thousand life times. He was worth every second and the rest of my life I will treasure every moment that I had and wish with all my being I could go out and be among the stars one more time.
I sit here looking out into the great vastness and wonder where he is and what he's doing. And I hope that wherever he goes, whoever he's with and whatever he does he can spare a thought for the little girl he rescued from a life of nothing and gave the universe to.