Hehe, you got to guess who it's revolving around before it gives you the biggest hint ever!
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Sacrifice
Sometimes life can bite you straight in the ass. I should know: I still have the gazillion teeth marks imprinted on it. I've been through it all: physical abuse, mental abuse and sexual abuse. I've been depressed, paranoid and suicidal. Sometimes all three at the same time.
Life is a bitch and sometimes it gets so harsh you can't see any way it'll get better. It was the same with me. I was on a high dose of anti-depressants and had counselling almost every day. It seemed to work, until I stepped back into the street and I was back in the world again, back into reality. When you've had things done to you so many times, there's only so much a counsellor can do.
The abuse sends messages to your brain. Subliminal messages in your mind that you don't hear, but change everything about you, down to how you think. Depression and paranoia kick in. You become anorexic, bulimic, you can't look in a mirror without despising yourself. Somehow you manage to find hidden imperfections and you strive, become obsessed with ridding yourself of them in fear of being hit, kicked, raped again.
But you learn to get over this fear, and you see there is one thing that will help. You learn to cut. Striving to rid your life of imperfections, when adding them to your skin is the way to a better existence, a happier life. I don't know why it works, but in that moment of sharp, excruciating pain, you forget about everything else. Your emotional pain is released with the physical pain. And that's it. Your life takes a turn for the better. You can put your childhood behind you. You can forget what your grandfather did night after night. Until next time, you can live happily and freely.
And all for a sacrifice of a small amount of blood.
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Please, don't anyone go out and cut themselves and when people find out blame it on me 'cuz I/Kai said so! I was depressed when I wrote this! So, just don't!