I don't own Ouran High school host club or any of the characters I just use them :p

Kaoru P.O.V

The light is strong .. I can't take it anymore .. I'll get up .."hmm.." *sigh*.. the sunshine fulfilled the room..I can smell the flowers on the window … the sweet breeze of spring had took me back to the best dream I had so far … "good morning Kaoru" his voice that is full of tenderness "morning hika.." he was about to leave the room when I said " I had a nice dream yesterday " I saw him frequented and hustling from beside the door " I am late Kaoru but okay tell me what was it ? " I wrap my arms around the white blankets " it was .. we hugged so tight ..and cuddled.. we both were laughing and-" Hikaru stared at me like if I am saying something stupid and doesn't worth him being late on his lectures " we'll talk later kao " as he slapped the door behind him. A sigh ran out of my lips … as i stared rom the open window … " I miss you… " a tear ran on my cheek .. I could feel it.. the embrace he gave me and how much loved I felt .. but it was a dream ..

I remember years ago…
Someone told me I should take caution when it comes to love .. I did.. I did.. my illusion.. my mistake ..I was careless ..I forgot .. and now when all is done.. there is nothing to say..you have gone and so effortlessly…you have won..you can go ahead .. tell them.. tell them all I know now..shout it from the roof top..write it on a sky line…all we had is gone now…tell them I was happy…and now..my heart is broken…all my scares are open…tell them what I hoped is… impossible..impossible..impossible...falling out of love is hard… falling for betrayal is worst…broken trust and broken hearts…thinking all you need is there…building faith on love is worst..empty promises will wear.. and now when all is gone.. there is nothing to say .. if you're done with embarrassing me on your own .. you can go ahead tell them.. that I was happy..and now my heart is broken… because all I want is..Impossible. I brought the teddy bear I got from a fan girl and hugged it tightly ..I cried endlessly..my heart…hurts.

I didn't want to leave the bed today so I brought my laptop and accessed to the internet, checked on my facebook account, there were hundreds of fan girls friend requests so that kept me away from my thoughts..my ugly impossible thoughts…then I went to Hikaru's page and checked it… looks like he has uploaded new photos ..that include him and Haruhi…that one photo of them kissing made me sick to my stomach… I left the page..couldn't take it anymore.. the post box asked me " what's on your mind? " ..what's on my mind..do you really want to know dear facebook..okay I'll give you a hint . so I wrote " I need a hug..a tight one..I am really feeling sad and depressed :'( mhm I hate my life " so I posted that . and as I thought . in 5 secounds fan girls were all commenting and making up stories and they have wrote lots of bullshit that kinda made me laugh a little..I mean..how could someone be that stupid as Hikaru.. our fan girls knew it… and he..just., the thought brought more tears to my

eyes…until I have read that one comment , it was from a fan guy " you know dude, you are such a great guy that doesn't deserve to suffer .. I think that you can make much better if you love or try to love another one..look around you : ) " I moved the tears and went to his profile ..he..he looks hot… I mean it ! why he never joined the host club before ! can he..be the one..that'd put my heart all together again?

So I sent him a private message that said" Hiii~ what up? =] " and so he responded to me and we started a chat .. then he asked a very strange question " if I said you are 10000% perfect for me and I am sure I am perfect for you..would you refuse me? " I am shocked..this random guy that I just chatted with ..actually asked me to be with him ! umm I'll respond with " =-= ..do you think we should go out sometime ? " AND OMG OMG OMG ! he said yes sure and he gave me his mobile number! maybe I should try and give him a chance.. I mean.. I will lose nothing anyway.. my heart is already broken..nothing worse would happen ..and this time..I won't be there when Hikaru wants me to be..I won't be there for him anymore..he..he doesn't deserve me.

Suddenly the door went open and Hikaru entered the room.

He yawned and fell on his bed "dammit man..my whole body hurts .." I ironically smiled and made fun of him " probably cause of the many sex nights you have with Haruhi lately" he gave me a death look " shut up Kao you know nothing!. " I was leaving to the bathroom and said "lately nether any of us know anything about the other Hikaru..Weird no ? I am wondering why!" Hikaru screamed at me " what the fuck are you saying kaoru !" so I slapped the bathroom door ..tomorrow I'll go on a date with this guy named Kai..and I'll forget about my feelings toward Hikaru completely.

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I'll upload the next chapter soon !