Friday, September 6th

~Sarah Hill~

I've been dating Jimmy for three months now, and while he is the sweetest guy I could ever imagine, he isn't really boyfriend material.

He buys me flowers and sweet things like that, but... I guess I don't really have any romantic feelings for him. We've been best friends for eight years now, and even though he wants us to be together...

I don't.

I'm sixteen now, and I'm planning on breaking up with Jimmy next Tuesday. I'm just going to say that it is me, it's not him at all. he's a sweet caring person who loves me, but... i just can't date him.

I hope he'll forgive me.

Tuesday

I went to the computer lab today to find jimmy, and there he was, sitting on a beanbag doing his homework.

When he looked up at me he smiled.

"Sarah! Guess what? I made scrumptious cookies for our three month anniversary!"

Crap. It's our anniversary?

I made up a fib really fast.

"well, um, I'll see you in a bit jimmy, I really have to, um, go to the bathroom!"

Jimmy smiled.

"oh! okay! see you in a while girlfriend!"

I ran out of there as fast as possible.

And I ran right into Eddy.

This is Eddy. Biggest douche in school. Always trying to make money off of anything. The only reason he looks concerned right now is because he thinks I'm going to scream at him. Well, i don't.

I run past him. But he stops me.

"Hey, where are you going?"

"None of your beeswax!" I yell, snatching my arm away from him.

Oh shit. He looks even more concerned.

"Just get away from me!"

I turn to run away from him~ and run smack into the other two Eds, who were following eddy.

Meet Double D and Ed.

They're eddy's two lackeys. They follow him everywhere.

Ed's my brother. He calls me his baby sister all the time. He's the most annoying brother on the planet.

Double D I had a crush on for a long time, but I guess that's over with now. He really doesn't like girls.

I run away from them all and into the girls' bathroom. I can't take any more of this. Jimmy appears right behind me as I'm running. I run faster and lock myself into a stall.

I cry as hard i can.

Suddenly Nazz appears next to me.

"what's up, Sarah?"

"i... i want to break up with jimmy, and i don't know how, he's so nice but i don't want to date him!" i blurt out, and Nazz looks concerned for me.

this is nazz. she's captain of the cheerleader squad, she's probably the most popular girl in school, because almost every boy has a crush on her. You know why she's so popular? Because she's nice to EVERYONE. and i mean everyone. she doesn't like violence.

"well, i'm having a party saturday, wanna come, sarah? they'll be lots of other guys there to cheer you up!"

I smile a small smile.

"thanks, nazz! i really appreciate it."

Saturday

"hi everyone! come in!"

Nazz stands there with the door open.

When i told jimmy about it he said we should go as a couple.

How can i say no?!

i agreed. sadly.

all the kids that were there were...me and jimmy, obviously, nazz, Rolf, kevin, the three eds, jonny.

Nazz led us down to her basement where there was really loud music and a disco ball and a strobe light.

there was also a fog machine, and it was impossible to tell where everybody was. there were also lots more people down there, and the regular cul-de-sac kids kind of broke up and mingled with the rest.

I got away from jimmy as soon as possible and tried dancing to get away from him. He just followed me. I went over to where Nazz had a table full of snacks and had some of the punch.

I started to feel weird, with all the flashing lights and stuff.

I sat down on a couch away from the dancing.

thenIi saw a guy sit down next to me.

I looked up, ignoring my headache, and saw...

Eddy.

He was looking really, really handsome.

He was way overdressed though, and had on like a tuxedo kind of thing.

"oh, hi sarah."

he waited for me to reply, and then nervously said;

"is this a fun party, or what?"

i gave him a smile.

"yeah."

And suddenly we were kissing.

He wrapped his arm around me, and i never wanted him to let me go. I was safe. I was happy. The lights and the music didn't matter...

Sunday morning

I rolled over in bed.

then i sat up, staring around my room.

there stood ed, standing there uncomfortably.

"baby sister, are you okay?"

i gave him a look of confusion.

"what do you mean am i okay? i'm fine!"

Ed grinned, and then frowned again.

"i carried you home, sarah, you were asleep."

"asleep?"

i thought back to the party.

all i remembered was eddy-

"OH SHIT!" i screamed, leaping out of bed.

Ed looked really really startled.

"what happened-" He started to ask, but i was already pushing him out of my room.

no way did that actually happen.

then i got a call from Jimmy.

"hi, sarah. it's your boyfriend! hee hee! i'm calling because i heard some nasty rumors about what happened last night at the party, i'd like to talk to you because i haven't heard your angelic voice in a while! and i just want to talk to you, but i know you would never kiss eddy, so the rumors are most definitley false. see you soon, Jimmy!"

Ohhhh.

FUCK.

What happened last night at the party?

Dizzy, i tried to remember but i couldn't.

then... It came flashing back to me.

Eddy had kissed me, and he had been glaring at someone from across the room, and when i looked the figure turned away.

but i'd recognize that hat anywhere.

Double D.

the party went on and eddy moved me away from it all, and we ended up in nazz's sister's old bedroom. eddy got me down on the bed and then...

oh god. oh fuck.

then... we... we did it.

i ran to the bathroom and threw up.

twice.

coughing, i went to lay down again.

then i heard the other two eds yelling outside.

carefully i opened my window so i could hear what they were saying.

"i didn't think you'd actually take the dare, eddy, after all, you two are in a nutshell what i'd use to define the word animosity..."

Eddy looked angry at double do for a second, and when i looked closer i could see he was blushing.

was it... all just a dare?

why did that hurt so much?

i hated eddy... didn't i?

~EDDY SAMPSON~

She ran into me when i was leading the fellas around school. after she left, Double d and Ed started teasing me.

"well, eddy, you seem to have taken an affection for Sarah..."

"yeah, eddy!"

they both laughed at me.

"shut up," I mumbled, but they were right. my friends can read my mind like a book.

Double D and Ed forgot about it and started thinking about building our latest scam, but my mind was focused on Sarah.

I liked her.

for a while.

and she hated me.

I've known Sarah forever because ed is her brother, and i basically grew up with ed.

When we were little, my mom would take me to ed's house and we'd play with sarah until she had to go down for a nap.

when i turned four, this new kid moved into the cul-de-sac. Double D.

we hit it off right away.

I started spending less time over at ed's house and saw less and less of sarah.

now that there was another guy around there was no need to play baby games with sarah anymore. we usually hung out at the playground, but sarah was too little to go there. and that was also the summer my brother left. double d never met him, and ed kind of... forgot about him, i guess. so i started teaching the fella's how to scam kids, like my brother taught me.

when we were 10, and sarah was 6, double d started liking her. i was insanely jealous and tried to get his mind off sarah. by the time i turned 11, i was succeeding. double d had turned his interest to nazz.

when we were about twelve, we found sarah's diary. i wanted to read it, to see what she thought of me. To my disappointment, it was all stuff about how she liked double d, and wanted him to give her a pony. Double d was of course appalled by this idea.

he didn't like sarah.

and i... well, i did.

the fellas were bugging me about sarah again the next day. We knew we were going to a party that night, nazz's party, so we all got together to get ready and somehow that morphed into a truth or dare game.

"sarah's going to be at the party, eddy..." edd teased, and i glowered at him.

"yeah, so?"

double d grinned evilly at me, tongue poking between his teeth.

"oh, oh, i know, eddy!" ed laughed, rolling off my bed.

"i dare you, eddy-" started double d, still giving me that grin i didn't trust.

"TO KISS MY BABY SISTER EDDY HAHAHAHHAHAHAH!"

i reared back, feigning a retch.

"kiss... SARAH?! are you NUTS?! SHE'D KILL ME! AND, EW!"

edd looked on, the smirk gone but he was still giving me this look that said he didn't believe a word i was saying.

Ed giggled.

"it's just a kiss, eddy."

I fake-shivered.

"with... HER."

"that's your dare, eddy."

i groaned and accepted my fate.

the punch was spiked. i've had punch like that before and it was so totally spiked. i think kevin did it because he had been bragging about how much booze his dad kept in the house the night before the party.

that stupid shovel chin.

so i went over to the couch to rest for a while and let the alcohol settle in. I was an experienced drinker. i'd had episodes with the bad boys. double d had never even tasted a drop, so he was a total lightweight.

ed of course drank the stuff and then ate part of the table. it doesn't affect him. Hell, ed always seems like he's high. within minutes double d had thrown up, and i walked away from him.

i tried dancing but it was really stupid.

a little while later double d motioned to sarah.

"now's your chance, eddy. jimmy isn't with her."

he was swaying.

i almost burst out laughing.

regular people slur their speech when they're drunk, double d just talks normally.

"alright, already. get off my back."

he glared at me and continued pointing at sarah.

i rolled my eyes and made my way over to her.

"oh, hi, sarah."

she glanced at me. she didn't look too good either but i didn't expect a 16 year old to be drinking.

"so...is this a fun party, or what?"

she smiled at me and that was my cue.

i kissed her.

she closed her eyes and i glared at double d.

he was rolling his eyes at me and then he turned green and ran outside.

lightweight.

sarah held her head in her hands.

"ugh, i don't feel good."

i raised my eyebrow at her.

"maybe you should go to bed."

i looked around the basement and saw nazz's older sister's old bedroom.

perfect.

i got sarah to lie down and she closed her eyes.

"eddy?"

"yeah?"

"kiss me again."

she was drunk. i knew she was drunk. but why did i feel so good inside when she said that? she didn't mean it. of course she didn't mean it.

but i did.

"more," she breathed in my ear.

"what?" i asked, shocked.

"more, eddy."

she loosened my belt.

I woke up to ed grabbing me.

"naughty, naughty, eddy." he chastised me.

"what time is it, lumpy?"

i looked over and ed had an armful of kids. double d, jimmy, and.. sarah.

"it is just past 2:00, mister. what did you do with my baby sister?"

I opened my eyes all the way. the party was long over. some kids were on the ground.

nazz and kevin were asleep-or unconscious- on the couch together.

I walked home and covered my face with a blanket. i never wanted to wake up.