Title : Dear Mello
Dear Mello,
Yes I am aware that you're dead, so if you can read this at the moment, don't get angry with me, I no lounger want that… hate running through your veins. I don't deserve it and you're dead at the moment, so there's no use for it, so let me start over.
Dear Mello,
I'm sorry for using your anger towards me to my advantage. I always knew there was a chance of you dying, but I made the mistake of giving you the benefit of the doubt, and look where that has gotten us.
I write this before I'm going to confront Kira, who happens to be an incredibly intelligent young man in his early twenties named Light Yagami. I promise that yours and Matt-sama's deaths will not be in vain; we will capture and punish him, because what he does, well, it's disgusting. He's like your god; only he doesn't pass judgment rightly or fairly. I'm almost 100% sure that he's psychotic, and I have reason to believe that he murdered his own father, Soichiro Yagami, he was the man who's daughter you kidnapped. I cant believe he did it, I find it despicable really, but this is coming from the boy who led you, his only friend to his death.
I'm sorry, Mello. I didn't want you to agree with me. I thought there could be some other way but with the way things played out there wasn't. I wish I didn't have to lose you and Matt – my only friends – in the process of catching the world's ultimate evil, however I know believe that your god (the being who had the right to choose which events happened in our life) has the same sick sense of humor you had, for I so no other reason for him to make me suffer like that. I miss you, Mello. I miss you and Matt more then I thought possible because of his choice of events.
Of course Mello, I don't miss you the same way I miss Matt. I miss Matt in the 'who-am-I-going-to-talk-to-honestly-now?' way. You have no need to worry, though, Matt's dead also and I'm not a nycrophiliac. Why you thought I liked Matt is beyond me, Mello, for I thought I made it pretty obvious that all that interested me was you.
I'm also sorry for doing better then you, Mello, but succeeding L was not just your dream, but also mine! I'm sorry that it made you hate me, but it was necessary, though I doubt you believe that.
Are you in heaven, Mello? Did you meet god? Are you spending all of your time with Matt? I want to know these things, you have no idea how much curiosity I have towards your belief system, though no matter how much I try, I don't understand it, because these contradict each other, but I doubt you noticed as you walked your path blindly, though I do hope you're happy, wherever you are.
I know that your dead, Mello, however I feel the need to tell you that if you were still alive today, I would have made both of us the new L, because not that I see how lonely it is I want nothing but you and Matt back.
I have to go now; I hope you are happy, wherever you are,
~Nate Rivers (aka; Near)
Authors note: and that's that guys! I really like it! It didn't really turn out the way I wanted it to though, but whatever, Please review? It'd be extremely appreciated! Oh and this is my 30th fanfic! Yay!
Peace in!
Melanie Swirls!