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Chapter one

Never ending tears

The night was young the trees swayed softly in the wind. It had rained the night before, washing the forest clean and in the center off it all was a slumped figure hidden agent a large tree tucked into its roots for support wishing to herself for the pain to just go away while she was curled into a tight ball tears ran down her red cheeks, eyes puffy showing no bright shine that was normal in there chocolate depts. She felt hopeless no matter what she did to show him she was good enough, that she loved him. She never seemed to be able to truly be seen in his golden demon eyes her tears fell faster and a shuddering sod ran though her body she thought back to what she had come across and every time she did it hurt more than the last

*Flashback*

She rose from a restless sleep something was wrong. Looking around she smiled softly at the sight of her friends Songo was curled up next to Miroku, while Shippo lay atop Kilala. Kilala rested peacefully in her transformed state sleeping but Kagome felt something missing she looked up into the tree top to a branch he had been on, though now she saw in the moon light he was missing a frown came across her full worried lips she looked to the other trees as her eyes passed over them she could not see what she was searching for quietly she moved from her blue sleeping bag the cool wind bit at her skin but she slowly adjust to the slightly cooler tempters then what she was used to from in the sleeping bag grabbing her shoes she moved up the path from the camp not knowing if she was heading the right way. Then as if to confirm the dark thought that crossed her mind a light passed in front of her stopping a little ways up the path from her to then glide back it whorled around her body its dragon like face stopping to look into her eyes it was one for Kikyo's soul seekers it moved away from her but stopped as if wanting to be followed she dipped her head telling it she would follow a few minutes went by and it led her to a small clearing

Standing in the middle was Kikyo in InuYasha's arms their lips where locked Kagome stumbled back with a gasp the soul seeker circled her as if it were trying to help her. Her eyes still locked onto the couple InuYasha pulled away to look to ware the sound came from and his eyes meet hers

'No' he thought

His hart sinking into his chest he had not wanted her to see this he never wanted to hurt her. Kagome pushed herself from the ground tears falling from her eyes only to fall to the wet earth once more how could he do this to her agin? After he had said Kikyo meant nothing to him anymore she broke eye contacted with him to look at the soul seeker that now lay in her lap looking up at her its light was so beautiful but did not help the pain fade away from her hart she only whispered one thing and it was directed at the creature in her lap

"Please…. Please get me out of here"

As if understanding her plea it wrapped itself around her body lifting her high into the starry sky like she had saw them do with Kikyo once before it lifter her up to toward the tree tops she kept her eyes closed only to hear him yell in a pained voice for her to return to him and then it was his turn to sink to the ground only to whisper how sorry he was

A while later she was lowered to the ground and placed against a large tree again the soul seeker lay in her lap she looked down at it, it light looked so dim now as if it were tired Kagome skimmed her had down its body petting it to show how grateful she was to this small creature for helping her the way it had why it did so she did not know

*End of flash back*

It hurt so much to think of it. All she could ask herself over and over again was 'Why? Why did he do this to her' she then felt a light touch on her cold skin. Looking up from her knees she once more looked into the creature eyes she saw sadness in thoughs eyes.

'It had returned to her' She thought

She lowered her knees that had been tucked up ageist her. The soul seeker once again rested itself into her lap. Then she smiled it was a small smile but a smile none the less she was grateful to this small snake like creature for helping her the way it had. she once more placed her hand onto its back to pet it. at her touch it let out what seemed to be a small purr

"thank you" she said

It raised its head to look into her eyes a knowing look rested there within its blue depts. Kugome let out a small giggle

"I feel like I know you"

It nodded its small head at her before laying back onto her lap they sat like that for a long while then the stars began to fade and the sun peeked over the land. It was a new day Kagome lifted the soul seeker from her lap and cradled it in her arms to stand it slipped from her watching her stand she felt so week, A tear ran down her cheek but she wiped it away with a determined stroke of her hand she would not be weak she could do this and the pain started to lift a bit from her hart she would force herself to move on she would never be hurt like that again and as she took a step forward she knew that it truly was a new day. Turning to her new found friend she smiled

"Come on we have to get back to the others I am sure they" she stopped herself " well… most of them that is will be worried"

She began to walk in the direction she hoped they were but turned to the soul seeker that was beside her

"Do you think this is the right way?" She pointed her hand in the way they were facing as she asked it.

It flew a few paces in front of her seeming to agree that is was the right way to go They walked like this till they got to a path she now knew where she was they were close to Kaede's village and close to the bone eaters well she could go home at knowing this her soul lifted then sank she was not ready to go home and face that world she pushed those thoughts away to the beck of her mind. Of how she was behind in school And how she felt like she no longer belong there any more. She began to walk to the village she knew they would find her and more precisely he would follow her sent, that was if he was even looking for her she sighed heavily she still loved him so much the soul seeker feeling her pain laid a crossed her shoulders Kagome lifted a hand and patted it on its head reassuring it that she was ok

She walked farther till she reached the village she was so tired her lags felt like they would buckle at any moment she staggered up to the much familiar house that belonged to Kaede. She walked through the door followed by the soul seeker the older women looked up and saw Kagome

"child what a ye doing here? Where are the others?"

Kagome gave her a small smile and around her slowly went dark she was so tired and she finaly felt safe

Kagome woke to look right into large golden eyes she screamed and stretched out and swung her hand out colliding it with InuYasha's face when she turned her head and opened her eyes she saw who it was and tears came to her eyes

'Not him' she said to herself

she then was startled once more when a glowing light put itself between her and InuYasha it was the soul seeker and it was making a noise that startled InuYasha it did not sound happy he looked around the very unhappy thing pain showing in his eyes

"Where the hell did you go you should of never ran off like that!" he yelled out angerly

Just as those angry words slipped from his lips Shippo ran through the door and jumped into her arms

"mommy you're ok!" he whaled

Kagome held him close "Its ok I am here I am so sorry I worried you"

she sat the young fox demon on the floor giving him a week reassuring smile she turned back to InuYasha their eyes locked and she quickly looked down she looked at her hands that lay in her lap and then it was clear to her what she must do she took one shaky hand and grasped the small bottle with the jewel shards from around her neck and tossed them to InuYasha

"Here" she said before getting to her feet

She felt dizzy at first but was determined to not show weakness and walking to the door her bag lay there and she lifted it up leaving a stunned dog demon in the hut as she walked out she saw Songo who immediately ran to her and hugged her close

" are you ok!? What happened? You had use so worried"

Kagome hugged her back then slowly pulled away tears returning to her eyes

"Oh Songo" she paused she was going to miss her best friend her adopted sister she though then went on "I am going to miss you so much"

The tears came faster Songos eyes were looking at her questioning her words with a tear slipping from her eye as well

"What do you mean" Songo asked with a sad tone

Kagome lowered her eyes to the ground feeling as if she was about to fall apart

"I don't belong here Songo I just can't take the hurt any more I hate being used" her voice became stronger "I am no more than a jewel shared detector and not even a vary good one"

Songo hugged her once again " I wish I could truly understand how you feel. You know you will always be my sister and my best friend but I want you to be happy" songo pulled away "I will miss you Kagome"

She looked up at Songo with a fake smile that she hoped would reassure her

"Thank you Songo I will miss you most off all please take care of Shippo and let him know how much I love him"

Songo tilted her head in understanding then Kagome looked at Morocco who had been watching them she smiled and said in a higher voice

"you better take care of her you understand?"

He smiled and nodded in agreement. Braking away she took up running as fast as her lags could carry her she could make out two angry sounding voices yelling at one another she knew who they Where InuYasha had stormed from the hut the small bottle clutched in his angry hands

"Where the hell is she!" he yelled at songo

Who was the closest one to the door she turned to him hatred showing in her eyes

"Don't you dare yell at me half breed you are the one that did this! You are the one that drove her off for good!" she yelled

Storming off to ware Morocco stood falling into his arms while a light breeze moved the grass carrying Kagome's sent to InuYasha nose picking up her sent he took off at a dead run He would not let her leave it would tear his heart out if she left him As Kagome reached the well tears streaming down her face she stopped to lay a shacking hand on the aged wood on the bone eatters well she looked up as the blue peaceful sky she was going to miss this place her hart gave a sad thump she took off her bag sitting it on the edge of the well opening it she found the last of what remained of the ramen nobles he loved so much she pulled it from her bag and dropped the bags to the ground it was her small way of saying good bye then she jumped in bag in tow and was devoured by the blue light that moved her between times

Inuyasha stopped as he saw here jump into the well arm out stretched he yelled for her not to jump but it was too late she was gone he ran up the well side and jumped in after her praying she was at the bottom but she was gone he jumped out to slumped down as he sat on the well side looking at the bright pink shards that lay in his clawed hand this was all his fault he knew that. How he wished he could fix this he loved them both so much chastising him self at how stupid he had been then he looked at the ground and gave out a small sob there at his feet lay the ninja noodles she always brought for him from her time sinking to the ground he hugged them to him and screamed into the light blue sky