So this is my first piece of writing in a very long time, but after this last episode, I felt like I had to write something. I admit that Arya's thoughts are probably a bit OCC but the way I look at it, is these are the thoughts in her mind, not what she verbalizes and I must admit, I'm a bit heartbroken by tonight's episode. I might attempt later to write something from Gendry's POV, but for now, it's short and I hope you get a sad enjoyment out of it.
What is he saying?
What had she expected?
Arya was happy to hear that Gendry had been legitimized, however, as he knelt onto one knee, she felt her heart stop. This beautiful man that would make a wonderful lord was asking her to marry him. However, she was never meant to be a lady. Even as a child, she knew that being a lady was never going to be in the cards for her. She was no one. She was an assassin.
So, she does the only thing she knows to try to convey her emotions to him. She kisses him. As he stands, Arya can almost feel a part of her breaking as she realizes that they will never be the family she wanted as a child. She had changed too much. She could feel a distant part of her cry out in objection as she fortifies her stance.
"You will be a wonderful lord," she tells him as they break apart. "Any lady will be lucky to have you, but I'm not a lady. I never have been. It's not me."
Not being able to face him, Arya turns around, picking her bow back up to continue letting loose arrows. She briefly saw his face as her rejection hits him, but she remains strong her decision to not look at him. She can feel the child that loved him, still loves him, cry at her words, but it feels distant, as though there is a disconnect between that child and who she is now.
She feels him standing there for a few more moments as he comes to terms with her words. He opens his mouth to say something, but then he closes it and walks away. Arya pauses to watch him walk away, but doesn't say anything.
After all, what else was there to say?
I feel like this is lacking what I inspired to write, so i might edit it later, but for now, I hope you enjoyed. Please be kind if you choose to leave comments. Have a great night!