Dear Mother,

I'm sorry I had to leave you so suddenly and I wish that I could stay with you and help our family to survive - for by the time you read this I shall be changed already as this is the last night before I go. You may never read this, but I hope that someone will when the games are gone, give it to you out of the kindness of their heart because I know that in the midst of the cruelty and hatred in our nation, there is great kindness.

I shall never forgive myself for what I have done mother and you shall not have to lose anymore of your children like you have lost me, but you have to stay strong. Just remember that I am young but not scared and you should not be scared either. I will never forget you when I am gone because we both know that I soon will be among the Avoxes sold to people and passed around like an object, not a person. Be glad that you still have a full life to live now and you should enjoy it, don't be afraid of The Capitol and what they did to me because I can assure you that I'll live a good life here and they can't make me forget about my family can they? Perhaps after The Capitol has been destroyed we could be reunited once more and we could be a happy family once more?

I can't help myself thinking that I may see father here for it seems that I will be placed in the Tribute Training Centre like we think he was. It will be torture I admit seeing all those innocent children being prepared for murder and not being able to speak to them any comfort, but I will try to fulfil my duties obeying The Capitol until we are all saved. I have already endured a great deal of torture as you know from when I arrived here but tomorrow I am getting my tongue cut out mother and I am so scared about it that I feel like a small child. They were not kind to me mother, they imprisoned me and interrogated me for answers to my crime but I do not agree that it was a crime at all - saving my sister, they just don't understand.

I have survived this long here which is a lot longer than some have, but we all care for each other like a family. Like our family as everyday they drag another one away to be changed. Tomorrow that one will be me. I remember your advice to cooperate with them and I am trying my hardest to be obedient - it is hard though mother because everyday I see innocent children being hauled into here crying for their family and there is nothing I can do but watch them die, this time here has changed me forever.

I will hide this letter so that someone will one day find it. A kind person gave me some sheets of paper - unbelievably - when I was looking sad which proves that there is happiness in this world falling through the grate. I hope that you are proud of me for surviving as I am not much more than a child myself being only twelve years old and yes - it was my birthday yesterday if you remembered. I promise that this is me mother and we shall be reunited again one day, look after our family and please stay happy, stay strong, stay safe,

I will miss you for all eternity,

Lydia

Thank you for reading this is a story about n avox girl Katniss never met just to be clear,

Rueflower7 xx