Title: The climber

(Part 1/7)
Author: toobeauty
Pairing: Colin Farrell & Jared Leto
Rating: PG.

Summary: Colin needs to find himself and a surprise is in his horizon...
Disclaimer: I don't know people involved, no harm intended, everything is product of my imagination.
Feedback: yes, please any kind of them will help me to improve my writing or leave it forever.

PoV: Always Colin's.

No beta, so all the mistakes are mine, sorry!!

My first fic: The climber.

Colin´s POV.

I knew that something special was going to happen soon, even though I didn't know what or when. I had been in a blue mood for a long time so I decided that it was time for me to go on a trip and try to find myself. I decided that the best place for me was Greece, Athens to be exact, a city where I could find myself and love. Love must be a woman; she is always running away from me. I haven't been in love for a long time, even though I have fucked many women in the four continents but this hasn't given me any satisfaction. In the love aftermath, only my cigarette made me company. Women have given me many satisfactions but also many troubles, I love them but they don't fill me anymore.

It is strange I have just thought about this; I decided to stop being with them till they mean something again. It is hard to believe, me the bad boy of Hollywood is walking out of women. Something good must come out of it.

Athens is one of the most beautiful cities I have ever visited and I have always felt at home even though it is different from my beautiful and green Ireland. It is curious to remember that every time I was in Athens I was alone under different circumstances, but even alone I was happy; so here I am again trying to put some sense into my life, gather the thousand pieces of my soul and reborn as a new man.

No more luxurious hotels for me; I'm fed up of that false assistance and the paparazzi had just got enough from me. I made my way to one small youth hostel near Syntagma Square, in the heart of Athens. From one of the windows I could see the beautiful Acropolis and in that very moment I felt a strange shiver running through my body – déjà vu it is called; a feeling that warmed my cold heart for an instant so brief that I could not enjoy it for longer.

I spent the first days as any other tourists, visiting the archaeological sites and museums, coming back at night tired and still feeling under the weather. My routine was very simply: a hot bath, a light meal and two or three cigarettes while I watched the youths around me, chatting and spending a good time together, something I couldn't do myself yet. As I was writing my inner thoughts in my travel journal, I felt someone staring at me and I thought that somebody has just discovered me and that made me feel a bit upset. I decided not to give the person a chance and I continued with my writing. Intensive eyes were on me for more than an hour so I decided to go to bed without looking back.

During three nights I felt the same sensation and I didn't know what to do so I lifted my gaze and saw a woman of about sixty years looking at me, she gave me an open and friendly smile and walked towards where I was sitting.

I'm Aphrodite and you are a very troubled man to be on your own. You are healthy, handsome and alive, why don't you cheer yourself up?

I'm Collin and I'm not in a good mood to speak to anyone, I'm sorry to say that but I don't want you to lose your time with me.

Even though you don't want to listen I will do my talking because I know that behind that hard attitude and your mask you are suffering. Apart from that, don't I remind you of anybody you loved a lot?

Yes, that's true; you look like my dearest Granny who just passed away a few months ago.

So tell me your secrets, tell me your fears and I will tell you what I see.

I don't have any secret, I'm just a young man visiting this beautiful city and enjoying himself. I fear nothing or nobody and...

Say that to another person, it is easily seen that your heart has just torn to pieces, that you are afraid 

of yourself and that you don't have the clearest idea of what to do with your life. You just sit there every night, look at the others and don't dare to make a move to get to know anybody or let anybody approach. Do you know how many people here want to get closer, talk to you and spend some time with you?

I'm not a good company these days, I have lost myself ... and how do you know so many things about me?

Because your soul is very clear, your chocolate eyes speak of lost love and angst and even though you have that macho attitude, you are like a soft teddy bear looking for some comfort.

that is true but ...

Every day Life gives you rocks to build up what you need, especially bridges to get to other people, to socialize and to be able to make a life with others; however you have been building high walls around you and that has prevented people to get closer; some people got fed up with your attitude so that is the reason why you feel alone but there is one person who will climb those walls, no matter how hard resistance you put and he will claim you to be his love partner, not as a trophy but as his soul mate, his better half. He has been wandering like you but he is looking for you so desperately that he will find you as soon as you let your heart feel and follow its instincts.

Have you said HE? As far as I know I'm not gay, I'm the straightest man in this world.

And that hasn't helped you a lot, has it? Don't worry Alex, your Phai is very near, you just only have to let him approach and see what you feel.

I'm Colin, old woman, and who the hell is Phai?

I know but you are more like Alexander than Colin. But one thing, Phai is very fragile, treat him well, trust him and always remember how to go back to his heart, because he is still pure and confident and he is ready to fight for you, to get your heart and even to die if you turn him down. You are bond since ancient times, goddesses are jealous of you because he loves you and they will do anything to avoid your next reunion, because it is really near, nearer than you think.

Wait, I don't understand what you are saying, can you make yourself clearer?

Yes, close your eyes and everything is going to be clearer. Now tell me, what do you see?

I see nothing, everything is so dark.

Focus again, what do you feel?

I feel as if something is warming my heart, is that possible?

Yes, it is, keep your eyes closed. Is there anything you can see?

Yes, two eyes, the bluest eyes I have ever seen, they are more beautiful than a clear summer sky, they are looking at me, staring, I can see happiness and love in them, they are smiling at me, but I cannot see the face, they are too beautiful, I want them to look at me forever and I ... I ...

Calm down, Alex, you are breathing too quickly. These are your true loves eyes, these are Phai´s eyes, follow them and you will find him.

They are disappearing... I... I feel so sad... I feel lonely again ... Please don't let them go away from me!!

Calm down, my boy, they will come back, lay your head on the couch, and rest ... Goodbye my Alexander, your Phai is coming to you now.