Photograph

Beautifully captured like a photograph in my mind's eye

On that sunny day wearing Your stunning smile and lively aura

Remembering can become so bittersweet at moments when I am no longer basking in Your glow

So cold in the corners of my shadowy nightmare

Disgust for myself and the faults that I carry can overwhelm my sense of security

No longer recognizing that it's Your hand that waves in front of me

I run for cover

Afraid of what has come to fight against me

Could I win or would I just lose

Sanity is not an option in this condition

My hearing is garbled by whispers of the enemy

Striking his claws against the concrete walls

I've just run into a dead end and now I've lost by myself

My breathing rapid and I'm losing my will to fight

Nowhere to go and You're the only One who can save me

Isn't it my fault for the carelessness of the situation

I understand blame and now the noose is hanging over my head

I could never win on my own, but drowning is as easy in three steps

Memories bounce from wall to wall within

You're there and I'm safe...so how did I get here in the first place

Oh yeah, I was mad and I left so quickly as to make a statement

Anger gets you nowhere and fast

He's almost here and I can hear him breathing down the hall

I lie on the floor with tears as comfort

Closing my eyes somehow makes this not real

Defeated by my own desire to succeed without You

What an awful screeching as he enters the room with a laugh to send millions of the fallen to hell

His disfigured claw reaches down to burn me with my own guilt

He wants nothing more than to break me completely

But in an instant I sense Your eyes from the corner of the room undetected by him

It is Your light...Your power...Your grace that extinguishes the deathly creature of hatred before me

I timidly raise my head slowly followed by my own eyes

Focusing on the feet planted firmly on the ground in front of me

I humbly lift my eyes a little further and up to Your face

Afraid of how my emotions will clash with Your thoughts

Squinting through partial eyelids, I can distinguish a faint glimpse of a smile

Opening a little wider with the light rushing into my mind

Your smile fades and is replaced by an intense stare

Not one barreled with hatred for the broken form in front of You

But rather one of passion, love, and empathy

The apology of a lifetime echoed from my heart where words fail to impart

Before I can register what is happening You have managed to swiftly lift me from the floor

Carefully placed within Your arms

Your carry me back to that sunny day where You resume Your smiling

And I am taking beautiful photographs in my mind

For You have rescued me a thousand times over and will continue to do so until the end

Until we meet again