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Chapter 1

Sookie's POV

I was back in Bon Temps, there were three months. At first, it felt so strange; I mean I lost a whole year! So many things were different. So many people had changed. Some couples were not couples anymore and some who weren't a couple were now one.

I actually was really lucky that Sam let me get my job back! I didn't know what I would do if he hadn't given me the job back. Yes, of course it was "only" a part-time job, but hey, I needed the money! Especially now, that I can't think only about myself more than ever. Not that I consider myself a selfish a person because I don't, it just that the money won't be only for me anymore.

I was not sure if it was my impression or not but people seemed less mean when it came to me. I know they felt pity because they thought I had been kidnapped or something but still it didn't feel normal in a town like Bon Temps where someone like me, Sookie Stackhouse, would always be judged even if I didn't do anything.

I hadn't been mixed up with vampire lately so I guess it could help in all this "kindness". I mean I hadn't been mixed up with vampire for my own will because Eric did appear in my house from time to time. He wasn't rude when he would just ask I was and make the same purpose for me to become his and I would always deny it. Right now I didn't feel like mixing up with vampire! I guess you understand me right? I always end up almost killed and right now, I don't want to die because that would mean more than my dead and that I can't bear.

I had not seen Bill as well for a while. Actually, I had only seen him five times in these three months... He was dealing with a witch problem in Shreveport; he told me once when he called on me two months ago. I wasn't surprise to find out that witches exist, I mean if vampire, werewolves and fairies do why would witches?
Okay I am not suppose to think about him. He moved on with his life, I am pissed up with him...

But I can't help it! God I love(d) the man! And I drank his blood so it is not my fault!
Also, there is something REALLY important that I need to tell him.
You must be asking yourselves "why haven't you done it already?" especially if I am back there is a while.
I could give you a lot of reasons some plausible some not but the most important ones are that I don't have the courage, I am afraid of his reaction and I... I am really mad at him. Or at least that's what I tell myself!

Sam had already told me a dozen of time that I should go and talk to him because Bill had the right to know about my condition but just like I told you, I don't have the courage. What I have to tell him can change everything between us and I am not sure if I can deal with that change… I mean everything is so peaceful now, too much peaceful actually, but whatever…

Talking about Sam, he was dating Luna and he absolutely loved her and Emma. They looked soooo cute together and I was really happy for them. They both deserved happiness and hey, they are both shapeshifters that must be great I guess because they can turn to things together and… I don't know…

I could actually call Luna my friend. One night after Merlotte's had already closed she came to me and we talked for a while about how we felt about being different, life experiences, parents and finally she gave me some advises.
She knew what was happening with me because Sam had told her. He was the first one to discover.
Shapeshifters...

Anyway, Tara knew it too and she was really happy for me. I was also so happy for her because she seemed to have found someone who made her feel good and someone she could actually share her life with. I was bit sad that she was here all the time to talk to her and play with her but I guess life is like this… She changed so that she could be happy and happy she is!

Jason was happy too. He got a new girlfriend. Her name was Katie and she was the sweetest person ever. She was a teacher and she lived in Shreveport. Finally he was able to forget Crystal and move on, although he still helps these people. I was a bit reticent at first but then he told me "Sook, I am a cop! I will be fine. But first of all, I am a human!". I must say that was the deepest thing Jason ever said and I was happy he was changing as well, for good this time! Not that I have any power to judge him but still, I am his sister!

Arlene and Terry were both full of joy about their kids and they were a lovely couple. From time to time she would leave her kids in my house and Tery and her would have dinner or go to the movies and I would be able to spend some time with the kids and that was great! She didn't know it yet and I felt guilt for it but I knew how Arlene is, as soon as she finds out, all town will know it and I don't want that to happen, at least not before I talk to Bill.

That night such as plenty of others, I was working at Merlotte's.

I was already feeling very tired. I had been working since morning and my condition did not help.
I was moody and had screamed with Sam, apologizing myself a second later. But it wasn't really my fault, I just couldn't help it!

I went to the bathroom, do what had came to a routine for me.

When I got back outside I saw Bill and Alcide sat at my section but in separate tables. When I saw Bill I couldn't avoid to remember that he was a King and as I was still upset about his "relationship" with Katarina, I went to his table and I said:
-Hi, would you like a True Blood?
Bill looked at me, smiled and said:

- Sookie, you look very beautiful tonight.
- I have to work so do you want the True Blood or not?

What? I was moody!

Bill sighed and his smile vanished.
- Yes, please.
I nodded and went to get the True Blood.
I headed back to Bill seat landing the bottle in front of him.
- Thank you, Sookie.
- You welcome, Bill. - I replied with a nervous smile. – Can I...
- You can what? - he asked, concern in his face
- Call you Bill? - I asked. I was not going to ask that but as usual the courage was gone.
Bill laughed and said:
- Yes, you can only my sudden call me King Bill or Your Majesty .
- Oh I see. And you like it? I mean you like being a King? It must be really hard and you must be always occupied. But I am not saying that you are not good enough it just...
Bill rubbed his hand in mine and I shivered pulling my hand back instinctively. I was mad at him! Why Katarina?
- I understood Sookie, don't worry.

I smiled and went to Alcide's table.
- Hey Cide! Everything okay?
- Oh hey Sook! - Alcide stood and hugged me lifting me from the floor.
- Put me on the floor! - I grumbled giggling. He posed me down and returned to sit.
- I am awesome and you?
- I am normal, just a bit moody…Do you want anything?
- Yeah, a beer, please.
- Sure. I will be right back.
While I was walking to the bar I realized that Bill was staring at me so I lowered my gaze and blushed.
Thanks a lot Alcide!
I got Alcide's beer and gave it to him, sitting next with Arlene in the highchairs.
Okay I was a little uncomfortable with this "after breaking up" situation and didn't know what my feelings were. But was that possible? Did I still love Bill?
I was lost in my thoughts when she came in. Dressed in jeans and V neckline sweater, there was Katarina. Her red hair was loosen and she was wearing heavy makeup. I must admit that I think Bill has a crush for redheads. Okay Jessica is my fault so it doesn't count.
She sat in front of Bill and they smiled at each other.
Arlene touched me with her elbow and I listened to her thoughts.
"She is pretty. Is she Bill's new girlfriend?"
I shrugged
" Are you jealous?"
I looked to my feet and blushed then I nodded.
-I knew it I knew you still loved him! - Arlene shouted
- Shh... - I whispered
- Did I said this out loud? - she asked whispering
I nodded
- Sorry. Did he...
- Probably. But that's okay at least you didn't finished your sentence.
She blushed.
- Huh waitress! - I heard someone call. I turned I saw it was Katarina.
I hate her voice. I hate every single thing about her!
I closed my hands into fists and took a deep breath before I headed to their table.
- Yes. What can I do for you tonight?
- Well, I want a sweet tea.
- Okay. Anything else?
- No, that's all, thanks.
I walked to the tea machine and prepared the order of my "mortal enemy".

Arlene is right… I still love him..
- Here you have.
- Oh thanks. You are Snookie, aren't you?
- Sookie? Yes I am.
Why cannot anyone say my name correct?
She smiled and I smiled back but I am almost sure she felt the tension.
- Hey girl! - Someone called. It was Mike Spencer he was more than drunk and he was about to fell.
- Excuse me.
I walked to him and grabbed him, Alcide helped and we started to walk him to the door.
- Hey let me go you mind fucking reader! - he struggled
- Just forget, baby. I will take him outside - Alcide whispered and grabbed Mike.
- Thanks. - I said and gave him a quick kiss in his cheek.
He smiled and made his way to the door.
Bill was furious I could see but I was confused about my feelings so it could be another thing. I looked to my watch. 11 p.m
Jason should be here at moment to pick me up. He insisted!
Suddenly, Eric appeared in the bar stopping right in front me.

- Oh great! What are you doing here? You have Fangtasia!
- It's always nice to see you, Sookie. I'm fine and you?
I snorted.
- I came to the bar I thought it was public but... oh your majesty.
- Sheriff.
- Who is your company?
- This is Katarina she is part of my security team.
- Security team yeah... A fangbanger that's what she is. – I grumbled and Arlene giggled.
Bill, Eric and Katarina looked at me.
Oh My God did I just said this out loud?
- I am not a fangbanger! Fuck you!
I was going to give her a great answer but Jason appeared in that moment to save her. Or me, I am not sure.
- Good night, everyone! Hey, Sook ready to go?
- Hey! Yeah, sure. Just let me grab my purse!

I went to Sam's office grabbing my purse and saying him good bye.
When I was outside again, Jason appeared next to me.
- Did you took the opportunity? Told him? – he asked making a move with his head towards Bill who was looking at me.

- No... I am not ready and I am not going to tell him in bar.
- Okay, your decision! I just thought that you should have taken the opportunity. Let's go now? Katie is in the car...
- Okay!
I went to Arlene and hugged her, sent a goodbye to Alcide and did not look in Bill's eyes.
Jason guided me to his car and I could not be more excited about going home.

To be continued?...
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