Lies
By Silver
10/19/08
I hear their false whispers
Of confront or concern
But I don't care
For I know that they are lies
I know they pretend
It would've been better if I just died
But if they are fake then why does it hurt?
Why does it feel like my heart is breaking?
And my soul is crying?
Why do they act like they care?
Even though I know they don't
Should I just pretend too?
Should I act like they do?
I'm so lost
They don't sound sincere at all
I really wish that I didn't survive
I can see it now
They only mock me
Mock my failure at suicide
My pathetic life
The way I act to try and ease the pain
But no one understands how much it hurts
But I see now
That if I act and play it off
I'm protecting them from my true colors
Even my best of friends won't know
They will think I'm selfish
Not selfless
They will never understand what I am doing for them
No one ever will
This is why I'll hold on
I'll keep them close
And when it feels right
I'll take my own life
That's the way this will work
And they will shed no tears
Cause they knew I was standing on the edge
Of life and death taking all their fears
And even as I let them go
I still wonder if they ever knew
How much they meant to me
And how much their fake whispers kept me going
And they will never know how much I sacrificed for them
Just so they could take it easy
So I hope they live long
I really do
And I hope you do too
For even though we may have never meet
I still would've jumped for you too
So this is the end
Good bye my dear friends
And remember never to give in
To the lost hopes like I did