Life as I know it
The blistering heat now that's something that I am use too, it is easy knowing what each day is going to bring to me. Big blue sky completely cloudless, hot dry wind blowing occasionally from the north and the burning sun beaming down on me, this my haven my common grounds that I share with my socialistic mother.
I giggle in my thoughts how good really is my life, when it's my mum that is the social one wow! She some how has won over the attention of every single person that she crosses path's with including her soon to be husband Phil
Today as I finely realizes it is not going to be the same as it has been, my haven is about to be crushed into a million pieces. My blue skies, beaming bright sun are all going to be replaced striped of all that I know and cherish. My life with my mum is also about to change as I am about to leave this city that I have always known as home, for my mum wants to travel before her life actually stops.
Huh! Her life actually stopping, now that's a thought on it's own, like she's going to try and not desire all that she sees and wants, yeah right! It's not going to happen.
Renee has been my rock my shelter from everything good or bad and now my reason to leave and go to live with my dad, chief Swan of Forks
Oh! No that's right chief swan of Forks gosh! From living with Renee the social butterfly to living with my dad the chief of a town, the one who without a doubt is also known but not for been social but for been the one to make sure things are right.
I admire my mum for her social reasons, I am deeply going to miss her but this is why I have to go. By leaving, it will give her some time to enjoy her life without having to worry about me sitting home all day. Not needing the attention from everyone, I quite enjoy my own company the silence of the days listening to Renee fussing over what to wear, the silence of nights when she's out at some gala drinking champagne.
Going to live with Charlie, chief Swan is the change I hope for all our sakes is exactly what we need. Maybe Renee will miss me more than she's ever said help us appreciate each other's ways of life, or it will be the biggest mistake of my life.
I'm hoping that, Renee will miss me more than she realizes and it is simply normal not to have the desire to know everyone. The worse case scenario is that by not having me around she discovers the freedom that she has missed out on for the past seventeen years.
Now all that is left for me to do is finish packing my bags, Renee brought me a suitcase the type with wheels and a pull up handle. I am sure that's only to make things easier and not because it was in her favorite luggage store. Then again maybe it simply is because she knows that I seem to struggle when it comes to lifting anything that I claim to be heavy. You could say I am not the sporty type person at all; my usual excuse is the heat
I know for me to blame the heat is a common cop out since realistic I'm more than happy with the blistering warm days, the kind of temperature that leaves a permanent glow look to your skin well everyone but mine. I only seem to have flush looking cheeks, and the uncommon pale complexion often reserved for those always inside
The final moments have arrived the goodbye's to my mum Renee and her soon to be husband Phil. This surely would have seemed harder than it really was, and I must say that I'm glad that Phil had insisted in driving as Renee is going to need him completely now. Also this shall be the final time to see such a bright blue cloudless sky
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The flight was easy, flying is so relaxing it has given me time to recap my life to this very moment, the moment that is for me going to mean a change of not only who I am. But also where I live, and the future outcome of who I may become. A chance to learn that it can be possible to not know anyone or to be judged by my peer's for just wanting to be alone
The cloudless sky that I have been so use to have disappeared replaced with a thick grey looking mist, even though it's not actually mist it is heavy set grey washed rain clouds that stretched as far as my sight would allow me to see.
Burr, the cold oh my gosh! I wasn't expecting that to hit me like a tone of bricks the artic chill seems to be seeping deep into my bones this is my first memory of how cold it really is here and boy it is cold
As I existed the aeroplane and walked onto the tarmac the change of temperature was amazing I now noticed that I need to wrap my arms around my chest in the hope that I could warm myself up. Good thing that I noticed Charlie really, I'm so cold I can barely raise my head, Charlie was walking casually over in my direction which means he has seen me. He's wearing a greeting smile which at least allows me to breathe, I always seem to hold my breathe when I'm not completely sure of something.
Just as we become a meter away I notice he's carrying something, I hope it's not, something for me, with surprise I notice it's a jacket actually it looks like his sheriff jacket.
"Hey belle's, I thought you might like to put this on, it's a bit colder here than your use too" Charlie suggests while he passes me his sheriff jacket guess he noticed that I looked cold from the terminal.
God what a life saver I'm freezing, it's like he had read my mind I was so wanting a jacket, well a heater really but even I know that's not possible out here. There's one thing for sure now everyone is going to notice me argh! Not only chief of the police in this very small town but Charlie my dad. Damn no where to hide not now
As Charlie and I reach his police patrol car, I realize that finally I can loosen my grip of myself, I've been hugging myself so hard that my ribs are hurting, we climb into the car and Charlie automatically reaches for the heaters to turn it on The drive to my now new home was rather quite especially since Charlie and I hadn't seen each other in over five years. This new home was going to be the making of my new life and this is exactly what I needed and now accepted, desired really
Goodbye Isabella Swan, hello Bella! What a new way of thinking this is good,
I just know that this can work .Bella I like that thought no-one needed to know the old me. This is my first time of thinking that I can be free of everything.
'Belle's welcome home' Charlie announced as we pulled up to a gravel driveway. As we came to a halt in front of the house I noticed that this house actually was bigger than I first noticed, it had a second storey to it. Big bay windows over shadowed by lushes looking ferns, lead up to the entrance of a smallish porch compared with the size of this house.
As I stumbled out of the car
"Another talent" Charlie stated, as his hand reached to catch me before I fell.
"Argh! Yeah, I guess" I quickly replied while trying to release myself from Charlie's grasp, "don't think my brain and body communicate very well I'm sure I will stumble again" I mumbled
I kind of hoped Charlie heard me, but knew better due to the fact that he was already unlocking the front door. I followed behind him thru the front door into the lounge, leading the way Charlie showed me up to my bedroom, this room which had always been mine had never changed since I was last here years ago.
Feeling buggered I excused myself from my room leaving to go find the bathroom, a hot shower I much desired now, this hopefully will help unwind me from this hectic day and set things into place again.
It seems the past hour had flown by I hadn't noticed that the sky slowly had become
dimmer, suddenly a large sound startled me from staring into the nothing it was like a cars engine back firing. I heard voice echoing from outside the front door not knowing who or what they wanted I decided it best to go have a noisy, I found it hard to decipherer how many people were here.
Grabbing my coat I slowly walk out the front door now noticing in fact there are three people the obvious one been my dad, he was standing in front of a man in a wheel chair could this be Billy Black my dad's oldest friend. Sure it could be getting a flashback I vaguely remember his face even though it had aged slightly the second man in fact was not a man but a boy which seemed to be around my age.
"Belles I was about to call you, you remember Billy don't you?" Charlie questioned more than making a statement
"Yeah sure I do, it's been awhile" I replied
"Hi I am Jacob" the boy introduced quickly "You probably don't remember we were only kids the last time you were here" he added
"Jacob yeah it has been awhile but I think I can remember briefly" I chocked out looking towards my dad in the hope he would save me from any more conversation.
Great now I look like a total tool I do remember Jacob but not as man but the grubby little boy down the beach on the reservation, Charlie had often taken me to the reservation to go visit Billy. I'm so shocked how much Jacob had grown up this could be a good thing, finely things are looking up.
"Hey belles what do you think of this truck?" asked Charlie breaking the silence" I just brought it off Billy, kind of a welcome home present" Charlie continued to say
"What? No, oh my god I love it. Really this is mine?" I acknowledged with excitement written over my face.
"It's all yours kid, you will need a way to get around I can't always take you, so I was hoping this might help" Charlie said with relief in his tone
"Thanks! This is so cool" I replied with less enthusiasm but still much delight
"See Charlie I told you she would love it" Billy declared like he had won a bet, "this is not like any normal truck either, Belle it's a bit slow, even though Jacob has spent the past couple of weeks working on the motor it still wont go past fifty." Billy continued to say
"Really that's cool, I can't believe it what you worked on the motor really Jacob? That's so wicked um thanks guys." Unknowingly directing my gratitude to Jacob rather than Billy and Charlie.
The evening I now realized had turned even colder than when I first had stepped out side to see who Charlie was talking too; strange thing is it hadn't hit me until now. I think it was due to the fact Charlie had just given me a car wow my own car this was defiantly going to make things more convenient.
"Think quick" Charlie yelled as he threw me a set of keys for the truck
"Um thanks" I said in return
The keys flying towards me hit the ground at my feet; there is no way that I had planned on trying to catch them in the first place due to everyone staring at me. I bent down to pick the keys up then quickly rushed towards the drivers door, just as I opened it I noticed Jacob was tagging behind me
"Jump in lets see how this baby goes" I announced to Jacob which agreed with the biggest smile on his face
Jumping into the truck Jacob and I decided that taking a drive to the reservation would be a great idea that way I will get the feel for the truck. The motor turned over first go this was a very good sign, I knew that I would have to double clutch to change gears, this truck was much like the one Phil drove back in Phoenix.. Even though Phil's one was in much better condition it was the same model a classic really.
Driving to the reservation I thought would be difficult but thanks to Jacobs directions and insisting advice it was easier than I had thought. I had to turn my headlights on to see where I was going now it was dark and the streets looked like they had a fine mist covering them.
Reaching the reservation I noticed that the woods looked very eerie it sent shivers up my spine Jacob directed me to pull over and head back towards town, he didn't want Charlie to get worried that I had crashed or the truck had broken down. As I pulled over to do a u turn I noticed in the distance close to the forest floor what looked like flickering of eyes I gathered to myself that the forest animals must be out more during the night. "
"What a relief' I mumbled to myself I wasn't much of a animal lover
Heading home was rather a quite drive Jacob was more interested in trying to tune in the radio, he kept mumbling to himself something about how he had wished he put a cd player in. Now more confident I decided to give the truck a bit more power so putting my foot to the petal a bit harder, the motor started to rev harder to but then settle when we reached to a top speed of fifty miles.
Pulling up my driveway I noticed Billy and Charlie had disappeared inside, this was a thing I was glad about they weren't waiting outside for our return guess they knew we would be safe after all. Pulling to a stop Jacob looked up and began to laugh he hadn't been paying any attention to me all the way home and just noticed where we were.
We both jumped out slamming the doors at the same time which caused a roar of laughter to come from Jacob, the porch light suddenly come on.
"Belles, Jacob come inside and get out of the cold" Charlie yelled from a now open door
We both rushed towards the front door and trying to squeeze through at the same time caused our bodies to brush together which was rather more comfortable then not.
Oh my god! Ican not believe I just brushed against Jacob usually I would have felt sickened by this but I didn't it felt normal to have been that close to him. Come to think of it even the drive felt comfortable I can get to like this it was more like we were best friends, like we had known each other all our lives.
After entering the house we noticed that Charlie and Billy were sitting in the lounge watching the sports channel on a large flat screen tv, neither bothered to look up at us. It was like my dad wasn't even bothered of how long that Jacob and I were gone.
"Hey kids how did the truck go?" Charlie asked without looking away from the flat screen
"It went great dad couldn't be better" I answered back smiling to myself
"Well Charlie, Bella, we should be off home," "Come on Jacob least get back home Harry will be waiting for our return" Billy said without pursing to take a breath.
"Yeah ok, bye Charlie see you soon Bella" Jacob said while pushing Billy towards the door.
"yeah ok Jacob see you soon um thanks for coming with me for a drive I had fun we should do it again sometime" I yelled through the front door way.
After Billy and Jacob had left I thought it would be a good time to go up to my room to finally email Renee I was sure she would want to know how my flight went, before I left she had given me a laptop so that I didn't have a excuse not to stay in contact with her.
Calling good night to my dad I headed upstairs, shutting my door behind me and turning on my computer. What to write my day had been so hectic to start with but turned into something else altogether. Settling into Forks did not seem to have been so bad after all I might even get to like living here as my as I had with mum.
Hey mum, I am fine dad picked me up from the airport and all is good, sorry I haven't written until now I've been busy.
Dad brought me a truck much like Phil's just not as good condition so that I can get around town and to school.
I met a boy called Jacob, who seems really nice it was like I have known him all my life we just clicked
I will write again in a few days got to go
Love you
Love Belle's
After writing my email and sending it, I logged of quickly just incase she had been sitting waiting for it to come, I didn't feel like having a major conversation over the net about how things were not right now. In a few days after I have settled in more, who knows things may change.
Turning my laptop of I decided that I will try and get some sleep it was getting late and after my busy day sleep would be good just what I needed.